harddeck242’s BodyBlog

I’m going to attempt my very first chin up without assistance on Wednesday. Every ounce of mental energy is being directed at that one moment……

so I’m visualizing, I’m imagining, I’m pulling even before I’ve begun and I really do think I can make it.

It’s a big hurdle for me and I think it has more to do with my mind than anything.  To me this is like the single hardest thing a person can do and yet I don’t know why I think that. I have never been able to do one and, again, I always thought that those who could were just lucky or to a point that i could never reach.

Goddam it this is important to me. I’ve been working on this for a year and never had the confidence to step off the weight assisted chin-up machine because……because….because why…? I’m heavy and my lats are weak?

Or I’m not truly prepared to succeed at this game…..

Not sure but I’m sure it has something to do with really not believing I can.  And this is why it’s important that i reach in and dig this shit out of me.  For my own sake.

Been studying this concept called "limiting self beliefs" which pretty much can be summed up by saying that if think you can’t do it then you never will.  All my life I thought that success or, in this case, a toned and attractive body, was something that just "happened" to people.  Cop out? Excuse to sit there and veg?Absolutely. Limiting self belief? 100% correct.

What happens with the absence of these LSB’s? I think I’m beginning to find out and I think it’s already affecting my entire life. I deserve this. I demand this!

first week back from being sick and it’s all good!  Skipped spin classes but kept on with weights and smashed pretty much all areas including shoulders for first time in 4 weeks.

Really really looking to ramp it up but i keep getting confused between loads of cardio for fat burn or loads of weights for definition and it seems that when i do half half i’ve just half-assed each priority down. Would truly like to see what it’d be like to do an hour weights in afternoon and half hour cardio in morning.

Still love being skinny though. Getiing comments left right and center…

Had a pic taken of myself at the football game last night and had to laugh coz it occurred to me that i finally don’t have to do the trick i’d lived by that my portrait photographer dad taught me years ago which was stick my chin forward to make the double chin disappear.  Love it!

it’s the first day before the second week off from being sick. It’s really thrown me i’ve gotta say because my mind has gotten soft. I spent the week off messing around with Fabian1984’s program and it’s a lot more intense than what i’m used to. It’s also shown me that i was in a plateau without even realising it.

It helps me to see that the end result (ie goal) is only a product of the choices I make on a minute to minute basis. I’ve gotta stop making a goal then going "yeah i’ll get to working on it don’t worry". Jesus I’ve spent my life saying this i think. Get serious dammit! The last month of my goal period started 6 months ago and where are you no you lazy bastard! Get serious.