hammiemam’s BodyBlog

How can I love something I hate so much!  Pain is my body’s way of telling me it is healing and I worked hard toward a goal.  This I like.  But pain also is not comfortable.  It is causing me to walk as though I was injected with polio.  I worked my legs so hard on Monday, and now my legs are telling me how hard I worked them.  I couldn’t live with knowing I went to the gym and didn’t put in my whole effort, but I could live without my effort causing a slow gait two days later.  I worked so hard on mondays legs, I just wish today I didn’t have to work so hard to walk….

Perhaps someone can explain this to me…  The mercury rises, I become more active, and my appetite declines.  It happens every year.  I am afraid that my metabolism will decrease with the less I eat.  I understand most of the time this can be a good thing, eating less is great, but when my diet is already clean and small meals, I am concerned I won’t eat much at all.  On a day off, spending time outside, I don’t even get the slightest desire to eat.  I could let hours go by with no appetite or pangs of hunger.  I feel like I am forcing myself to eat.  Does anyone have any words of advice or comments?

I had a fantastic leg workout today.  I know my lower body is where I will need to work hardest over the next few months.  My upper body responds amazingly to training, but my lower body is a struggle, though I have a great amount of muscle down there.  I am wondering if I will be able to obtain the right amount of balance, being that my hammies and glutes are so big.  Maybe it is just the way I percieve it, but I feel as though it is important to be extra aware of the areas of work I need.  Well, I am rambling on.  My legs now feel like jello, and my chicken isn’t cooking fast enough.  I am having a crazy ADD day.  I will post more regarding what my schedule will be like soon.

I just got my letter of defeat from my city’s fire department.  I did not have what it takes to become a fire fighter, at least this go around.  I was up against a couple hundred people for only twelve positions.  What I am happy about is that I have what it takes for the next process.  The biggest concern I had was not being able to finish the physical portion in the alotted amount of time.  But I did pass this part of the test, proving to me that I can do it again.  One thing I believe I had stacked against me was my total lack of experience.  I plan to join my volunteer department and also start a fire science program next spring.  Though my not making it this time around is pretty disheartening, it is also becoming a catalyst to make myself much, much more valuable to the department next go around. 

Additionally, I got together with a great group of friends last night, and we discussed the physical goals we each have.  Starting in two Tuesdays, we are begining a journey together to help eachother reach our goals.  We will be a support group for eachother, and also help train together.  One in the group wishes to complete a triathalon, another is a half marathon.  My goal is to compete in a fitness competition (and of course work toward the fire department’s next try-out process).  We plan to start individual blogs on our own website and update with pictures and progress of our training.  I will post more once the website is up and running.  I have also decided in the meantime that I will compete in a figure competition on October 25.  I have a long way to go, but I know I can do it.

Thanks to all of you and your support the last few months!