Soooo frustrating!
It’s 8 weeks out and I’m getting pretty pissed and frustrated with my weight. Not sure what it is, stress, water, who knows. I gained a pound since last week and I stuck to my diet more than ever plus did a little extra cardio. I think this happened the last time too. Not sure, I’ll have to do a little research. I haven’t been able to keep track of anything this time because I’m going to school and it’s taking up all my time. I knew I shouldn’t have done that…school and train for a comp at the same time. I’ll just have to make some time and go through all my stuff from last time.
I was so pissed this morning that I emailed Jay and told him I wasn’t doing the competition in May. It’s stressing me out too much so I have to just keep training and dieting like I am and just see what happens. I am not going to kill myself over this especially since I have to travel 2 full days just to go to this. It’s not like I’m a pro or anything. This is just my second amateur competition. If I’m not at 100% this time I’m definitely not going because it’s just a waste of money.
I trained 5 days straight since last Thursday and my body is worn out and I’m extremely cranky on this diet. I had to train an extra day because I missed last Wednesday setting up our wireless router. Tonight is my night off. Well not really because I have to go to school. I think I need to take a night to do nothing but that’s just not in me. I can’t just sit around and do nothing.
I’m pretty disappointed that I lost most of my progress pics from last time because my mac crashed and I lost everything on the hard drive. It’s funny because I started to back everything up two weeks before but never got around to finishing the backup and then I got the black screen of death and everything was gone forever! They couldn’t recover anything from my hard drive.
So I’ll feel sorry for myself for now and maybe in a day or so I can get back into the swing of things. Just not feeling right now.
March 10, 2009 at 11:20 am
Sorry for the frustration but keep pushing and maybe something will go your way. Not much advice here; never prepared for a comp before but keep on trying if this is something you really want.
March 10, 2009 at 11:24 am
Can feel the tEnSiOn in ths blog for sure. All I can say is deeeep breath and take care of the things you know you have control of, and those you can’t control, you cant (or shouldn’t) stress over, just not good for you.
March 10, 2009 at 5:28 pm
Sometimes you have to wonder why we do this…especially on low carb days when the frustration begins to pile up. Just keep your eye on the prize my friend. I truly believe that if YOU want it that you have a real future in this sport.