gymrat0226’s BodyBlog

Today was such a screwed up day.  We were hit with our first snowstorm of the season…in March!  We’ve been wearing capris and sandals for the past 3 weeks!  This weather is retarded.  My work let us out an hour early yesterday because the weather was so bad.  Well I was prepared and brought my gym clothes with me just in case they let us leave early.  I stopped in the gym on the way home and got my workout in.  This morning I woke up and nothing had changed.  The weather radar looked exactly the same as it did when I went to bed last night!  Unbelievable, this storm was not moving anywhere.  The ice is so thick on everything.  Our small tree in the backyard is half the size and kind of split down the middle from the weight of the ice and all the trees are just hanging to the ground and the branches are snapping off in the wind.

I really didn’t want to travel to the Y when the base gym is only 2 minutes away.  So I called the base to see if they were even open and they said they weren’t opening until 12.  Well that totally sucked because I go at 10 on Saturdays and then I go grocery shopping after at the Commissary on base.  Then we found out the Commissary wasn’t opening until 1 either.  So we hung out at home until 11:30 and then ventured out in the storm like a bunch of fools to the gym.  We got there and we were the only ones there!  Awesome!  Three other people showed up and that was it.  I could only work out for an hour because my husband had to go home and get ready for work so I decided to go later to the Y after the storm passed.  Well I ended up getting stuck in a huge ass snow drift and luckily there were two guys right there with a big 4×4 and a tow rope and dragged me out.  We got home, fed everyone, got my husband off to work, started to get my stuff together to go to the gym and then I hear this really loud electrical humming noise and then an explosion…no power!  The main transformer in our subdivision exploded for all the ice.  I called my husband while he was driving to work and told him so he came back and went to pick up wood and some emergency supplies just in case we didn’t get our power back for a few days.  Power came back on about 2 hrs later so my step-son and I went to the gym to finish my workout.

So my day has been totally screwed up because I’m not eating at the times I was supposed to be eating and not eating the food I’m supposed to be eating either.  I hate being off my schedule!  I was doing cardio and I started to get really light headed so I jumped off the machine and had a sip of my energy drink to see if it would help.  I jumped back on and then I felt like I was going to pass out.  I lasted 33 minutes and had to get off the machine.  So I just sat down on the floor for a few minutes and ate a protein bar.  I didn’t have anything to eat before I went so I think I just needed some carbs.  I was still so hungry after so I ended up going out for dinner with my husband and had scrambled eggs, a 4 oz steak and….3 pancakes : (  …but damn that was good and I definitely won’t feel like cheating with any junk food tonight!

I think I have finally adjusted to my diet.  Took a few weeks but I think I have a good handle on it now.  I’m always whining and complaining at first for fear I’m going to starve to death or something but now it’s a challenge to get all my calories in.  Trying to get the numbers just right and make sure I spread my water out throughout the day.  Still can’t seem to stomach eating chicken or salmon before I go to bed so I’m saving peanut butter for my evening snack and that seems to do the trick.  I love having my 3 slices of low fat cheese for afternoon snack!  That fills me up more than a protein bar.  I love cheese!

I stopped taking Venom.  I just wanted to finish off what I had so I’m going to wait until the last month before the show to start taking it again.  I’m taking another supplement for my workouts now that’s natural.  It’s from Quixtar and it’s called Rhodiola 110.  Seems to work for me.  Gives me that extra boost when I’m feeling kind of sluggish.  This time around I’m not going to go crazy and spend all kinds of money on pills, creams, wraps and potions…lol.  OMG last time I think I took everything known to man.  I went broke getting ready for that show.  There’s seriously no need for it.  A multivitamin, BCAA’s, Calcium, Protein and a few other herbs and that’s about it this time. 

I’m really quite proud of myself.  Today the product managers brought us some bribe food so we would get a bunch of jobs out for them today…pizza.  I think it was also they’re little way of saying work through your lunch….ummmm….yeah, I don’t think so!  I told my boss I’m not sitting there smelling that nasty pizza that I can’t even eat so I ate my yummy brown rice and ground turkey and got the hell out of there.

I’m so glad I didn’t eat that.  I got a look at Brenton’s slice and it was just piled high with cheese and it had a pool of cheese oil on top….nasty!  My stomach just can’t take that kind of food anymore.  So later on in the afternoon as they were all falling asleep at their desks my boss says next time they want us to do rush jobs they should bring us some Red Bull instead.

I had a little setback this week.  I had to deal with some personal crap at home…as usual.  Only this time I had to take more drastic measures.  Sometimes you have to go over the top to prove your point.  So I haven’t been to the gym since Monday and my diet on Wednesday and Thursday just didn’t happen.  I was eating on the run so to speak.  Needless to say I had no sleep for 4 days but man did I sleep good last night.

I gained a few pounds but I’m sure it’s only water because I was eating mostly carbs and probably alot of salt too.  But I’m back on track today.  I’m actually not even hungry today and eating only because I’m supposed to be.  I’ll be back in the gym tonight and training for 4 days and take a day off Tuesday.  I need to play a little catch up now.

I’m not stressing about it at all.  I’m taking Calm and Calmer again.  It seems to be helping me with my diet because it’s supposed to help with stress and stress causes me to eat.  I really need to focus on my diet and make sure I get enough sleep so I can be in good shape to train hard.

I’m so motivated right now!!!  I’ve decided not to do the NGA show in Peoria, IL.  I feel such a huge weight lifted off my shoulder!  I was so stressed out about it and I couldn’t focus because I wasn’t sure if I really wanted to do it.  It’s just way to far for me.

First of all…this is just an amateur show.  I don’t travel well, meaning I get extremely bored and can’t sit still.  I have to be constantly doing something and it’s usually eating.  I can’t do that while traveling to a competition.  We were going to take the train but there’s 3 of us times $104, plus a rental car, eating out for 3 days, 2 nights hotel room, 1 day off work for me and my husband would have to take 3 days because he works weekends.

So I decided last night to drop out and look for another show closer to home.  I found one in Tulsa, OK just 2 1/2 hrs away!  It’s an NANBF show and apparently it’s very big and there’s a lot more competition.  Plus it’s on my own stomping grounds….so to speak.

I called my friend Jake who won the overall men’s at the NGA in Wichita last November and he said he’s competing in the same show along with his partner Keila.  Awesome!!!  I’m going to know people there!  I’m so excited and pumped right now I could run a marathon!  I couldn’t figure out why I couldn’t get into it and stick to my diet.  I just had this sick feeling in my stomach about the Peoria show the whole time.

It’s 8 weeks out and I’m getting pretty pissed and frustrated with my weight.  Not sure what it is, stress, water, who knows.  I gained a pound since last week and I stuck to my diet more than ever plus did a little extra cardio.  I think this happened the last time too.  Not sure, I’ll have to do a little research.  I haven’t been able to keep track of anything this time because I’m going to school and it’s taking up all my time.  I knew I shouldn’t have done that…school and train for a comp at the same time.  I’ll just have to make some time and go through all my stuff from last time.

I was so pissed this morning that I emailed Jay and told him I wasn’t doing the competition in May.  It’s stressing me out too much so I have to just keep training and dieting like I am and just see what happens.  I am not going to kill myself over this especially since I have to travel 2 full days just to go to this.  It’s not like I’m a pro or anything.  This is just my second amateur competition.  If I’m not at 100% this time I’m definitely not going because it’s just a waste of money.

I trained 5 days straight since last Thursday and my body is worn out and I’m extremely cranky on this diet.  I had to train an extra day because I missed last Wednesday setting up our wireless router.  Tonight is my night off.  Well not really because I have to go to school.  I think I need to take a night to do nothing but that’s just not in me.  I can’t just sit around and do nothing.

I’m pretty disappointed that I lost most of my progress pics from last time because my mac crashed and I lost everything on the hard drive.  It’s funny because I started to back everything up two weeks before but never got around to finishing the backup and then I got the black screen of death and everything was gone forever!  They couldn’t recover anything from my hard drive.

So I’ll feel sorry for myself for now and maybe in a day or so I can get back into the swing of things.  Just not feeling right now.

Okay so Dee told me I have to tell what I’m eating.  I’m not going to write out my whole diet but I will say that I had a very bad cheat day today.  Well it kind of started yesterday.  I’m not sure why but I just felt like having licorice so I went to Walmart at lunch and bought a back of sugar free licorice.  So I thought okay I’ll just have 3, that’s only 65 calories.  I’ll just do a little extra cardio.  Well 3 turned into 6.  Then I was talking to my husband and I ate another 6!!!!  It was just soooooo good.  The bad thing is I know what sugar alcohols do to you and that’s why I won’t eat more than 2 pcs of sugar free candy a day.  Within about 2 hrs it started with the cramping.  By the time 4:30 came around I couldn’t stand it anymore.  I had to leave early to go to a cheerleading meeting and on the way there I couldn’t even sit up straight!  Why did I do this to myself!!!  I was able to go to the gym by 7:30 with a little bit of cramping and still got my cardio in.  The good news is my stomach hurt so bad couldn’t eat much of anything else so I was over by 7 calories and my macros were off a bit.

Today is another story.  I got up this morning and I was pissed at my husband.  I didn’t even want to look at him long enough to stay in the kitchen and make my eggs before I left for work so I quickly packed my lunch and took off.  Stopped at Starbucks and bought my morning iced coffee and a scone!  I know why I did it.  When I’m mad at my husband for something stupid I punish myself with food.  I’m really not sure the reason for this but I do it.  So at lunch I went to Starbucks again and had an oatmeal cookie!  OMG now I really feel like crap!  So I just ate a salad with chicken and few chick peas for dinner, went to the gym, came home and had my evening shake and one rice cake and I’m over by 454 calories and my macros are wayyyyyyy off!  Okay so I’m counting this as my cheat day even though I’m not supposed to be having one so now I really have to watch myself on the weekend.

I’m going to do an extra cardio session and hopefully that’ll take care of the extra cals….ahhhh…now I feel better…peace out…

So my diet for the past 5 days has been clean sailing.  I’m really quite miserable about this but I feel really good and I lost 1 1/2 lbs so that makes me happy.  I keep saying to myself when am I more miserable, when I’m eating what I want and feeling like a fat cow or when I’m eating clean and feel really good about myself…duhhhhhh…so suck it up…you’re not dying of starvation for crying out loud!

I didn’t make it to the gym tonight and I’m not going to freak out about it I’ll just go on Sunday instead.  I’ve been waiting for my replacement router so we can all have wireless internet and it came today and I only have 2 days to return my defective one or they’re going to charge my visa for the cost of it.  I thought I could just quickly set it up so I got ready for the gym and starting working on it…no such luck.  Nothing but problems and frustration so I just said forget the gym I have to get this done.  So I was on the phone with tech support for almost 2 hours but we’re all connected except one laptop and I’m not going to worry about it because it wasn’t connecting before anyhow.

I’ve been learning alot from Jay in the past few weeks.  He explained to me why carb blockers don’t work.  Well they actually do work by blocking carbs but you still have all the calories that you ate.  Apparently they just don’t disappear magically.  So I still haven’t found the magic pill.  I’m still not understanding how all that works but I’m sure going to school is going to help me figure it all out.

I’m taking nutrition right now and I’m learning alot about vitamins, minerals and all that good stuff.  I find that people in the medical field (doctors and nurses) really don’t believe in vitamins and that you can get it all from your food but that’s only if you eat a balanced diet and seriously, how many Americans do that???  We had to do an exercise for the past two weeks of submitting our fat and protein intake and figuring out our percentages.  That was easy for me because I do it everyday.  Well she says she worried about me.  She says I’m not getting enough fat, yadda, yadda, yadda.  I explained to her what my goals are and she says it’s not healthy.  Well I look around at my classmates and what do I see….they are all overweight, have bad skin, falling asleep during class, need I say more.  So who’s the unhealthy one.  I just don’t understand how they think.  I think they follow everything by the book and they don’t stray from it at all.  If you’re not doing what the book says, then you’re doing it wrong.