Pissed at myself
So I’m really pissed off at myself. I’m thinking yesterday was a very stressful day for me. I still haven’t figured out why I binge and I always forget so I’m going to post why I think I failed yesterday. I won’t say what I ate because I’m a closet eater which means I will never tell anyone and I do it when there’s no one around. Plus Jay’s probably going to read this and give me shit…lol.
Anyhow, yesterday it started when I got an email from my last trainer Robert Green. He says "hey how’s it going? R U getting ready for the show in May? Time to start training." I didn’t respond at first because I don’t want to tell him that I have Jay now (gawd that sounds funny) so I didn’t resond at all until today. Then Jay emailed me and says "How’s your week going." Then I come home and Danielle (my 12 yr old step daughter) says "I can’t wait till May when we go on our roadtrip and stay at the hotel." She’s coming with me if I do the show in May. It’s going to be a girls weekend. So I think all the stress of everything at once made me eat.
And all the eating was done after the gym!!! At 9:30 at night and then…..I went to sleep! Damn!!! I suck!
February 21, 2009 at 3:36 pm
What do you mean if girly? You better tight up your belt and get ready for May. I told you to dont think about yesterday, only about today and tomorrow. I started writting blogs on everything I put in my mouth because then I am accountable to millions of people. Granted I need to increase my food intake but I have been sick. Set a date and go for it, if you "if it" you wont be ready.
February 22, 2009 at 9:23 am
Your right I read it! I wouldn’t call it failing just a minor slip.