OMG I can’t believe it’s less than 5 weeks!
I’m starting to get the pre-show jitters now thinking “what the hell have I gotten myself into”. I’ve been following two of my friends on bodyspace and their journey through a first and second figure competition and their blogs just scare the life out of me but I’m still so pumped and excited. It’s very weird and hard to explain. I don’t think anyone walks on stage not being nervous. It’s not like I’m going to die or anything. Well maybe from heart failure. Is there some kind of pill I can take to calm my nerves??? I’ll seriously have to check into it. Yesterday morning during our weekly production meeting we all go around the table and tell how many jobs we have and the status, etc. Well when it came to my turn I paid attention to how I reacted talking in front of everyone. It wasn’t bad because I know everyone but I sat there and flicked my pen the whole time I was talking. Next was Brian. I watched him and he scratches the back of his neck the whole time. Then Alice. She rubs her nose a few times. Everyone has some time of nervous tick when speaking in front of people. Then my mind started to travel. Thinking, could I actually put a bikini on and walk in front of all these people in 5” heels???? NOT!!!!!! Then I started picturing myself on stage standing in front of all those people and how I would be. Would I trip, would I be able to smile, would I be shaking? OMG I started to panic!
So I started a detox yesterday…holy crap…that’s all I have to say. I feel like my insides are being sucked out of my body. The morning pill tastes like something scraped off the bottom of a barn floor and the evening pill tastes like it’s been poisoned. Then there’s the powder that turns to slime when it hits water. OMG it’s so nasty. I feel like throwing up everytime I take it.
My training is going very well. My diet is pretty strict except I slipped up on the weekend and had 15 tostitos and ice cream. OMG I paid for that! I seriously am not cheating again! I don’t care if I feel like I’m dying of hunger. It’s crunch time now and no messing around. I’m picking up my suits tomorrow night. My stones should be here tomorrow too so I’ll have to start designing how I’m going to decorate them. The lady is also working on my evening gown…it’s over the top! I love it. It’s going to look sooooooo nice. This weekend I’m going to get my tanner at the supplement store and I’m going to buy a 1 month package at the tanning salon and start my tanning now to get a good “natural” base. My head is just spinning now. I have sooooo much to do still. I haven’t even really started practicing posing yet! I mean I’ve been posing but not the walk or anything like that. So I booked Thursday afternoon off and made an appointment with my trainer to do posing. I’m also going to ask the manager at my gym if I can come in on Sundays and use the cardio studio to practice and try to get my friend Cecilia to practice with me. She’s also competing with me but not against me. I’ll be with the over 40 ladies…thank God! Okay, I have to do so work now…peace out.
October 14, 2008 at 10:17 am
Jenny, from the look of your avi pic of your back you will do great!
Just keep your focus on the prize, a killer physique, and you will be fine come comp time.
-Jeff
October 14, 2008 at 10:51 am
You will do fine, and if you didn’t have some nervous energy, something would be wrong with you. Keep workin hard and everything will be fine. Show’m what you got!
October 15, 2008 at 6:33 am
For the jitters? Well, which would be better: a good adrenaline rush or some beta-blockers to keep your pulse down? I say let the norepinephrine flow! Plus you can work out some jitters at pre-judging when fewer people attend anyhow.
For the shoes, one thing I’ve heard from a few different coaches and figure girls is to take your heels and go shop for your groceries in them. It’ll get you accustomed to the shoes and also walking on a different hard surface.