gymrat0226’s BodyBlog

Do you add in liquid amino acids into to your daily total calorie count?  I’m taking ON 2x a day, once in the a.m. when I wake up and once after working out.  It says on the bottle 120 calories and 20gr of protein.  My trainer says I shouldn’t eat more than 1500 calories a day but if I add the amino acids then I’ll really only be eating 1300 calories of real food.  I get real cranky when I’m hungry and I binge if I get too hungry.  The way I’m training I think I need at least 1500 of solid food.  Any suggestions would be awesome!

Okay I ran over 14 miles in the past 3 days, took out two snacks and replaced one with an apple and my weight is still not budging.  This is seriously starting to piss me off and I’m considering quitting if something doesn’t happen.  I’m killing myself in the gym.  WTF!!!!  This is sooooooo damn frustrating.  I’m going to talk to my trainer tonight to find out what the hell is going on.  I lost inches but my weight has stayed the same for the past 4 weeks and my bodyfat went up to 23%.  There is no way I’m going to be ready in 7 weeks for this show.  I’m seriously pissed off right now.  I feel like eating a huge slice of pizza to teach my fat ass a lesson!  Pissed and frustrated!!!!!!!

Went for another morning run and I felt great after.  I love going out in
the cool morning.  My Bengal cat Solomon loves to jog with me…sooooo
funny.  Yesterday he ran as far as the end of the street and then he sat at
the top of the street watching me run down, meowing his fool head off like
as if he was telling me he wasn’t allowed to go that far.  So today he ran
around the whole block with me.  It was too funny, he started coughing about
half way.  You could tell he was getting tired.  So he took a little rest
under a car and then caught up with me.

My diet was really good yesterday except I don’t think I ate enough food for
the amount of cardio I did.  I went 3x, last night I ran another 3 miles.
I’ll do the same today but I’m going to run at lunch instead of the
elliptical.  I really want to burn this fat off.  I figured I burned about
800 calories with my 3 cardio sessions and my intense weight workout.  I
only ate about 1100 calories so I added a banana to my shake last night and
had a apple.

I was so cranky this morning because I’m so hungry.  My trainer told me to
have a shake for breakfast but it doesn’t tie me over for 3 hours.  I broke
down and had 3 pretzel flatz to tie me over till my little breakfast.  I
just feel like I’m not getting enough food.  I entered in my food for today
and my planned total is around 1250 so I might add something in if I feel
hungry.  I just think if I’m doing so much cardio I should add a little
something.

I ran 3 miles last night on the track on base…I hate running.  Got up at 5:30 this morning and ran 1.5 miles.  That’s about all I could do half asleep but it’s better than nothing.  Lunch I went and did 30 min on the elliptical and after dinner, did my evening workout and another 3 miles of running.  I only ate 1383 calories today and that includes my amino acids.  I’m not sure if you’re supposed to add that in your total calorie intake but I wanted to see my true protein intake for the day.  I’m worried that is not enough calories for all that cardio…anyone have any suggestions.

I have a headache today too because I’m so stressed out at work.  We’re so damn busy and they’re not hiring two temps for another 2 weeks.  So right now I’m putting in an extra 5 hours a week and trying to train for this show.

I bought a Tanita body composition scale on clearance yesterday.  It’s the same one my trainer uses.  Everytime I go see him and he weighs me I’ve just finished eating a meal or didn’t drink enough water.  So I have to wait until I get back on track with my water intake and see what it says.  But it said tonight I was 23%!  That is way too fat for 8 weeks out.  I’ll have to do cardio 3 x a day!  And it stressed me out so much I went and got a pretzel from Aunti Annie’s!!!  Now I feel like crap.  I just don’t know what to do.  I’m not even sure how accurate those scales really are.

I’m training with Robert tomorrow so he’ll do my bodyfat again and I’ll get depressed after he tells me how fat I am.  I have to start training with him 2x a week now to make sure I’m ready.  I can’t do this alone!!!!

I went to see my trainer last night and he did my body composition.  I seriously think his scale is wrong because there’s no way I am 25% bodyfat!  The last time he measured it was 19% and then I got sick but continued to train and diet and it went up.  He checked it Sunday and again last night and it’s still the same!  What the hell!  Yet he says I look leaner.

Anyhow, I’m not going to get too stressed out about it because those scales are not accurate.  I know I’m losing inches and that’s all that counts.  I have to tighten up my diet now.  Only 8 weeks left from tomorrow.  So I cut out my morning snack and just had a piece of fruit instead of a protein bar for my afternoon snack.  So hopefully when I see him on Sunday I’ll have dropped at least 2 lbs.  He says he wants me at around 125 and no lower than 120…thank God!

Well my trainer demands 4 lbs lost by today since Sunday.  I lost 3 lbs so I’m happy about that.  I’ve done 5 cardio sessions since Sunday.  None today yet because you’re not supposed to exercise 24 hrs before doing body composition and I don’t want to do anything to throw it off.  I had a migraine on Sunday after I left him and still went to do cardio for 45 mins.  I haven’t been able to drag myself out of bed in the morning because I haven’t been getting enough sleep so I go to the gym at lunch to do 30 mins and then another 30 mins after my evening workout.

I have to look for an evening gown that I want made for the show but I can’t seem to find anything to do with bodybuilding shows.  I don’t think alot of organizations do this.  The evening show I have to wear an evening gown like in a beauty pagent…strange.  Anyhow, I also need to find a new pair of shoes.  The ones I have are ridiculously high. I really don’t feel comfortable wearing them so I need to find 4" heels preferably with suade on the inside so they do get slippery from sweat….gross!  I have to really start practicing posing tonight.  I haven’t really practiced much because it seems I can’t stay focused on just this competition.  My husband puts alot of pressure on me to study for my Flash certification while I’m trying to do this and I don’t want to do that because it takes my mind off this and I can’t focus.  I told him on the weekend to back off and try putting some pressure on his lazy son who has 3 F’s and a 1.6 GPA!  He agreed so I think he’s going to lay off me now.  He thinks I’m superwoman or something.

So I’ll post my results from my body composition tonight.  I’m praying they’ll be lower than 3 weeks ago because if not…I’m 3 weeks behind.  My bodyfat was at 19% and when I went on Sunday it was up to 25% but he said it was off because I drank alcohol the less than 12 hrs before, at lots of salt tostitos and drank coffee before I went to see him.  You think I’d learn…

I went to see me trainer today to get weighed and my body composition done.  Seems that the alcohol and the tostitos I had last night really did me in.  He wasn’t impressed.  He said no more alcohol until after the show and asked me if I ate something really salty yesterday because my weight stayed the same and my bodyfat went up 6%!  Needless to say my wreckless eating the past few days didn’t help.  He said I have to lose 4 lbs by Wednesday when I go to see him.  I dropped 2 lbs on Friday so I thought I would celebrate on the weekend…wrong!!!!  So the 2 lbs should come off by tomorrow because it’s all water retention and I need to step up the cardio until I go see him so I get back on track again.  I’m still really worried but the next 5 weeks will be the decision maker.

I also went to get fitted for the suits today.  So she’ll have them ready for me in 3 weeks.  I can’t wait!!!  Well not really, I’m kind of scared.  I really don’t know if I can do this.  I don’t like to be the center of attention especially in a skimpy bikini!  And OMG try walking in 5" heels.  I’m so afraid I’m going to walk across the stage and fall on my ass…how embarassing would that be!  Well I have to get to bed now if I’m going to get up at 5:30 am to do cardio.

There’s too much going on in this house for me to concentrate on training.  These kids wear me out.  I’m constantly running all over the place picking up Adrian from football, now Chris is back home.  His car is broke down and I have to pick him up after work.  I didn’t even have time to sit and relax for 5 minutes tonight.  Now Chris is gone out to record and he’ll be home at God knows what time and he’ll wake me up when he comes in and I won’t be able to get back to sleep.  I’m supposed to be getting up early to do cardio and I can’t go to bed early enough.  My husband lets Adrian stay up until 11 and I have to make sure he goes to bed at 11 and then my husband comes homes at 11:30 and he’ll wake me up when he comes in.

I’m so pissed right now.  I’ve spent $600 on a trainer, $900 for the elliptical, tons of money on supplements, not to mention all the time I’ve put in training.  I wish I was home alone in Canada again.

This is so much harder than I thought it would be.  One day I can't do this,
the next day I get motivated by someone on bodyspace.  I feel so tired and
burnt out.  It's so hard getting up in the morning to do cardio.  My husband
works afternoons and he doesn't come home until 11:30 so when he comes home
if I try to go to bed early he wakes me up and I can't get back to sleep.
There's no way I can get up at 5:30 to do cardio on 5 hrs sleep.  My
workouts are so intense at night I have no energy to do cardio after.  I
don't know what to do anymore.  I keep putting off getting fitted because I
feel fat and it's only 10 more weeks.  I keep making excuses why I can't do
this.  I think I'm still tired from my cold.  I still have a lot of
congestion so I'm not 100% yet.

My home situation isn't ideal either.  I have a lot of friction with my 15
year old stepson so that has a lot to do with my ups and downs, not to
mention I'm homesick.  I hate it here and I want to move closer to Canada
where my daughters and my WHOLE family is.  Things would be sooooo much
better if I lived close to home.  I can never take any time off when I'm
sick because I have to save all my holidays for when I go home twice a year.

I have less than 10 weeks left and I really don't think I'm going to be ready.
I'm going to keep going until the bitter end though.  I'm going to have to
bite the bullet and get measured this weekend for my suit.  I still have to
think about an evening gown!  This is going to cost me a fortune!