Time heals all
Well, it’s been a month since the breakup and I think I’m finally coming to grips with everything. I’ve been doing some meditation and just getting out with friends and meeting new people and it has helped immensely with getting past everything. I won’t say I forgive my ex for everything that’s happened, I still feel kinda bad I wrecked his golf clubs. I won’t say I understand anything any better and I know I don’t want to see him ever ever again, I’m just not angry with him anymore. And I’m really glad that it ended when it did. It would have sucked more if it had happened after we were married or something. I will miss the anger, or rather, being able to use the anger to lift some pretty serious weight in the gym, some serious head turning there, but it’s for the best. I have decided, though, that I won’t let any guy make me feel inferior or less than I am or mess with my head in any way again. I’m not sure how I’m going to do that but I know I need to figure out a way or next time I might have to seriously hurt the guy if he pulls this stuff on me. I really don’t want to go through this again. Live and learn, right?
June 23, 2008 at 10:42 pm
Just dont let your last bad experience dictate your life with someone new. If you do then your letting him win.
June 24, 2008 at 12:38 am
Glad to hear you are coming to grips with things. It sounds like you have a pretty good handle on it with plenty of healthy outlets. When I got divorced I was not so lucky to have a plan and a lot of anger was turned inward. You are correct time does heal, maybe not cure completely as there is still a twinge of pain now and then, but it definately becomes managable. Best of luck on your training and good luck on finding Mr. Right! Take care.
June 24, 2008 at 12:45 am
you are gorgeous! don’t let his insecurity bring you down. think of your break up as a blessing in disguise! now you will have more time to do the things you enjoy, like the gym…and besides, who wants a pnasy man anyways!?!?!?!? lol keep up the good work!
July 2, 2008 at 9:35 am
head strong is key… and you have it…
August 10, 2008 at 11:01 pm
Good choice. Anger can motivate you for a while but in the long run it poisons your soul.
Also, that was a superficial and crappy reason for him to want a breakup.