Do you know what happens?
Do you know what happens to you when you lose weight? People start noticing. People start telling you how good you look and that they are rooting for you, etc. It all becomes positive. Even the haters cant tell you anything negative. But you know who does? You do. You start to believe the hype. You start eating out, missing workouts, cutting cardio altogether. You top looking at the scale, stop keeping track of your food, start pigging out and drinking at the parties that you were so good at saying no to before. And all that positive feedback doesnt turn into negative feedback. No, its worse. Your friends dont even acknowledge it anymore. They dont tell you that you look good or bad, jut silence about the subject. I hate that. I hate it because its my fault. Its myfault that i stopped working out, that i stopped eating right, that i let myself balloon up to 375 pounds, the heaiest I have ever been. You know that most people who see me guess that i am only about 280? No just people being nice but when I tell people my weight, their jaws drop they see the big arms, the wide shoulders and nice legs and i guess they forget about the giganticly gross bag of fat that hangs from my lower chest over my belt.
I wont be blogging as much as i did before wheni was working out and watching my diet. but my pictures will be updated. I am tired of this life. I want to take my shirt off at the beach again.
January 26, 2009 at 8:12 pm
Ahh….the first step forward again. It’s the toughest, so don’t look back anymore. You don’t have to. Good luck, man.
January 26, 2009 at 8:14 pm
Hey brother i hearing you but dont worry what your or anyone else thinks okay. just believe in yourself because none of your friends or whoever wont pick you up. The only person that can do that is you. so start thinking what you can do and not what others can do. please read my profile on why i started bodybuilding or transforming my body for the good. Its not that i disagree with your opinion its because i dont like hearing negative comments and you can change. You already have with the comment you just made you want look good with your shirt off over summer or what ever season maybe. Thats a goal you can achieve start small and then keep moving forward. i know the world centres around what outward apperances like you see that in mags we buy or on tv. Work hard on the inside and try bro and if its gets hard well if they were your true friends they would stick by you and help you. takecare and all the best with all your goals God Bless Ciao bro
January 27, 2009 at 4:25 am
Ok man you know what to do so get out there and do it!!! No looking back!