gymfreak713’s BodyBlog

Do you know what happens to you when you lose weight?  People start noticing.  People start telling you how good you look and that they are rooting for you, etc.  It all becomes positive.  Even the haters cant tell you anything negative.  But you know who does?  You do. You start to believe the hype.  You start eating out, missing workouts, cutting cardio altogether.  You top looking at the scale, stop keeping track of your food, start pigging out and drinking at the parties that you were so good at saying no to before.  And all that positive feedback doesnt turn into negative feedback.  No, its worse.  Your friends dont even acknowledge it anymore.  They dont tell you that you look good or bad, jut silence about the subject.  I hate that.  I hate it because its my fault. Its myfault that i stopped working out, that i stopped eating right, that i let myself balloon up to 375 pounds, the heaiest I have ever been.  You know that most people who see me guess that i am only about 280?  No just people being nice but when I tell people my weight, their jaws drop they see the big arms, the wide shoulders and nice legs and i guess they forget about the giganticly gross bag of fat that hangs from my lower chest over my belt.

I wont be blogging as much as i did before wheni was working out and watching my diet. but my pictures will be updated. I am tired of this life.  I want to take my shirt off at the beach again.