Fit for Freedom

Training day.  I look forward to it for the sake of improvement.  Although I have a twinge in my elbow.  Deep in the fascia.  Early tendonitis perhaps.  Fortunately it is bench day so not much bicep flexion.  Fells like the insertion point for them but too early to tell.  Not enough pain.  More like ache with stiffness.  Will stretch before hand and head it off with Aleve and wintergreen oil.  I have been lax too on the diet.  Too many carbs.  The true murder weapon on my abs.  Rx?  More cardio, less carbs, more fruit and veggies!

I worked out through the cold with the standard decongestants but becareful with sudafed.  Made my heart race-not good when working out hard.  Working out felt good too like "blowing through the cold."  Today is the chest workout.  Lord knows I need it.  The bench is coming along 175 5×5 but the stretch from the pec flies are killers.  Well more later-being paged…

I will lift today after deciding that my cold will not get the better of me and interrupt my circuits.  I have also decided to follow the Tao an let myself gain weight but good weight during this winter season.  I am sure we will all be working hard to buff up in the spring.  Although I still want to look good for my wife during our intimate times.  Fat is certainly a turnoff for either.  The gains  do continue and I believe what I read about muscle gain to be true-about 10 lbs of muscle per year.  I do notice that every day I lift I make progress in reps completed and each exercise  set goes up 5 lbs everyother week.  It is positive.  But the most positive reinforcement is completeing the days lifting.  The mix of 10×3 and 5×5 is working well.  I still have to work on my abs though-hate those things.  Makes me want to throw up!  But, on the grand scale of things it has been constant progress with little to no injury.

I have learned that the harder I am pushed the harder I push back when things are pressed that I do not agree with.  I have learned that I push hard to improve myself when others around me accept obsolsence.  Inertia drives me for fear I think to do better or else I end up struggling in the swamp and quagmire that is so many of my famiy’s lives.  With sadness and compassion but yet with determination I press on.  If I take care of myself I find the world takes care of itself.  The Taoist Master Lao Tzu stated the master does nothing and nothing is left undone.  Also strength/wisdom is knowing people, true strength/wisdom is knowing oneself.  I endeavor to press on and, "I release my fears that I may reveal my bliss."

with metta

I have found that even here in Bodybuilding.com there is suffering.  To meet our desires, failure to reach them, desires to ease pain from conditions and the desire to be all you can be.  Why do we lift?  For desire?  No I think we desire to reach and grow.  To avoid the homeostasis so many others are in and we revile against that part of us that is like them.  We do it to cope, to accomplish, to be proud of what we do and to be lights to others who would aquiese into the primordial goo of inertia.  I am proud I lift and enjoy the "struggle" to be what I can be.  To push myself to the limit of what I can accomplish for the Master who created me.  To thumb my nose at the standard American Diet, to slap illness in the face, to reach and risk getting burned in the light of being.  Without reaching out we just collapse within. AMEN!  Thank you God.

Yup.  It is probably scary to get on the scales now.  Potatoes, French fries and the like are NOT my weakness.  Candy is-butterfingers, snickers, etc.  I must definitely resist these temptations.  Also peoples negative attitudes around me are killers.  I did my cardio but it was tough.  The diet thing is weird too.  Talk about flack!