gothorsefever02’s BodyBlog

Panic attack…. how am I going to handle another little boy!!LOL! We are super excited! I have to admit it’s killing me to watch the pounds go up on the scale at the docs office though… woo-sah….breathe woman…. you pregnant…..  I know how hard it is to lose the weight after having a baby mostly, I think is time management and needing SLEEP! I am a firm believer if you want something bad enough you’ll get it. I was talking to a bunch of girlfriends the other day and they wanted to know if I was still weight training (in their minds weight training is only for men and manly women…ha ha) I told them that I hadn’t been lifting for the past few months because I have been in the hospital w/ heart difficulties and one sick puppy. They instantly went into dumb girly mode of laying down the excuses fore me…. Oh your pregnant you can eat whatever you want, Oh it’s okay I haven’t worked out forever and most normal people don’t look like that (meaning my hero Oxygen mag covergirls) Bewildered I just sat there in disbelief. Here are three healthy women that have full potential to be hot moms ( and they lie to themselves that they couldn’t be in charge of what there bodies look like. AHHHH! I get so frustrated because here I am DYING to lift heavy weights and run my guts out …. (the doctors have limited my activity to yoga, stretching and uh, breathing techniques. Due to my heart problems I can’t do anything even remotely tough to get my heart rate up. Boo.)  Stupidly enough I hold my lightest weights in my hand and just start to purr feeling the cold metal in hand…. pure addiction! Okay, enough of the girl crap talk - I am able to keep food down better being on some new nausea meds but I admit I am eating white bread. I can’t stomach ezekial bread or even whole wheat bread. Too heavy on the tummy. Oh, I only want to eat fruit. Apples and oranges. Bad fruit sugar? Who knows but that’s what I crave.

I forgot how pregnancy hormones are… ugh! I started bawling my head off over a peanut butter commercial today… PEANUT BUTTER….. then I love when I suddenly have a temper like ornery grizzly bear! My poor hubby and kids! LOL! I felt well enough for the first time in four and half months to LIFT WEIGHTS yesterday and ohhhhhh how I miss the feeling of being sore from putting in a good workout. I am trying to talk myself into  that it is okay for me (and the health of the baby) to not doing as much as before. I have been speed walking everyday for about 30 mins. on top of chasing my kids and running my business. I am definitley an active mom! I find out in two weeks what the gender of the baby is… I am way excited! I am also looking forward to getting a hot mom’s body after this pregnancy. Refuse to Lose! 

Can I tell you how much I love my Oxygen subscription? I count down the days till the next issue! I did my weekly measurements today and it just cracks me up because I’m starting to feel "chubby" again. My tummy is starting to grow and so is my chest (that’s the best part… boobs again…yipee!) I am four months pregnant and I still weigh 138lbs. That’s so ROCKIN" AWESOME! I have really not let myself turn into the normal pregnancy mush of - oh, I’m pregnant I eat whatever I want and just lose the extra weight after! HECK NO! I know how HARD it is to lose weight after having kids and I am not going to have a junk fest just because it could be such a perfect excuse! LOL! I am all worked up about this - can yah tell! Anyways I have had some serious nausea with this pregnancy so I can’t hack drinking protein shakes anymore along with some other favorites but I am trying to make do. My nutritionist wants me to cut down on the amount of protein I am taking and just do a couple of other tweaks in my diet to have a healthy pregnancy. Don’t worry - I am still alive and kicking for my fitness goals but just on a little detour! Thanks for your inspiration and motivation!

Yes, I am still alive and on this planet! LOL! I have been very sick this pregnancy. Morning sickness and some serious lathargic- ness! I haven’t worked out in the past 2 months and it is sooooooooooooo killing me! I have a hard time keeping any food down so thus I don’t have the energy I need to run or lift weights but I am still reading my Oxygen mags and watching my Fitness competition DVD’s to keep me pshyed for when I do feel better. I’ve done well at not gaining any excess weight which I am thrilled about! Still a hot mama in progress….

Yes, I am still alive and on this planet! LOL! I have been very sick this pregnancy. Morning sickness and some serious lathargic- ness! I haven’t worked out in the past 2 months and it is sooooooooooooo killing me! I have a hard time keeping any food down so thus I don’t have the energy I need to run or lift weights but I am still reading my Oxygen mags and watching my Fitness competition DVD’s to keep me pshyed for when I do feel better. I’ve done well at not gaining any excess weight which I am thrilled about! Still a hot mama in progress….

Wahoo… pant pant… kind of have mixed emotions but all in all I am very excited!  I am due in February. The doctors have been pushing for me to have a hysterctemy for the past three years because I have a very high risk of getting ovarian cancer and have had several surgeries to remove benign cysts (greatfully). I also have sever endometries and the said the chances of me ever getting prego again was slim. Guess I know this baby is supposed to be here…. The bummer part in all of this is I have to slow down w/weight lifting and running to ensure that I don’t get put on bed rest being a high risk pregnancy. Just when I am getting the fastest/best results! I plan on being super healthy during this pregnancy and making sure I don’t gain excessive weight. I got a couple of prenatal work out DVD’s so that I don’t push my body too much… Hope all goes well! Wish me luck! Just for the record I WILL look like Michelle Berger (aka Buffmother) when I am done having kids!!!!!!!

Lacking… really! Hah! I just got the okay from my doc AGAIN to start workin’ out. I have heart and health problems arise (get worse) the past month that my doctor wanted me to be sedentary for awhile. Aargh! So I got my weight training in this week and it feels SOOO GOOD to be pumpin’ iron again! It’s amazing how much better I feel and stress debunking happens when your lifting! I had a photo shoot w/a professional photographer yesterday because I am competing again in the WHW Model competition this weekend. ( I am lucky she is my sister in-law) but I had her shoot some pics of me in a favorite swimsuit of mine. (I’ll be uploading some pics in the next day or so) Talk about depressing! It’s crazy how much an expensive camera shows every detail! So I am really beating myself up today on how I look. Actually I am more ticked off than anything because maybe I would have a better chance at my goals if I could get my health problems to go away.  I need some serious synergy right now! I found out on June 16th if I won the Model contest and get to be their spokesmodel for a year… I placed 2nd last year out of almost 200 people. ( Yes, it would be a different story if I had to pose in a bikini… ) Well that’s my sound off for the year… movin’ on! Has anyone heard good things about Isagenix? If it’s worth the cost? My mother in-law is doing it and so far has lost 14lbs in 4 days. She weighs as much as I do now! ( Please note the jealousy in my voice) Now my sister in law is doing it too. Not sure if it’s safe too lose that much weigh that quick? Let me know…

Life is busy… hence, me not writing for a month! I have kinda slacked off on weight training the past week and a half. I have two sick kids and I am sleep deprieved! Still eating clean (5-6 meals a day). My doc says that due to all of my health conditions if we want to have another baby that now is the time. BREATHE… We want another one but I am greedy and want to lose more weight and be ripped first….  I know that if I can get prego that this pregnancy I am going to make sure I EAT EXTREMELY CLEAN & exercise! I do not want to gain a lot of weight and turn into a frumpy mom… my biggest fear! Anyways, that’s what’s new with me! Keep rockin!

As you can check out my new progress pics… I am a little frustrated! Argh! Paitence is such a killer for me. I need to up my cardio, I admit I have been lifting heavy and eating as well as possible but it’s finally warm enough to start running outside again. So that’s my goal - KILLER CARDIO this week! Keep rockin!

Things are rockin’ on my end of the boat! I haven’t stepped on the scales in a couple of weeks because I am trying really hard not to focus on weight but how I look NEKED. I must say all of my hard work and clean eating are doing some serious changes! It’s amazing how our bodies work - whether you eat well or not, exercise or not, etc. Though sometimes chocolate cake calls to me I prefer to stay on the hot mama side! Being so focused now and seeing sweet results keeps me satisfied enough not to slack off. Women that are transforming their bodies: I cannot express to you just to HANG ON! Being dedicated for a month to weight training, cardio and EATING CLEAN you’ll be in for a better bod but more importantly a giant step into a lifestyle change. You WILL learn to love the control you have over your body! Things become so much easier once you overcome that first nasty step… but I’m tellin’ you it’s worth it! Thanx for all of the support and examples! Keep up the hard core work!