goforitnicks’s BodyBlog

So this weekend was wedding #7. I had an orange long dress waiting on the hanger for over a year now. This weekend, I was sure it would be the one. It zipped up alright, "yea Nicky", but everything was bulging and poking out. My husband pleaded with me not to wear it. I was so upset. Argh! I didn’t reach my goal.

On top of that disaster, I shared some of my fitness goals with my husband and he blatantly told me that I wouldn’t reach my target. (sigh) I know he is right, I need to do more, but I would also like to live my life and not feel that a cheat meal twice a week should be a no-no. Summer is the time when we go out the most and I should deny my friends and family? This is such a personal battle.

I thought I was doing so well but my husband basically told me to step it up from the already high rung I’m standing on. What else would he like me to give up? toothpaste, lest I swallow some and gain a few calories.

Maybe I’m not cut out for this? Maybe my 6-7 times in the gym and bland oatmeal breakfasts and soggy lunch salads are a waste of my precious time.

Argh

My body usually responds to excercise and diet changes within two weeks but it has been over a month and no changes have occurred! Nada!

I don’t know what is going on. Needless to say I am tired and sleepy and my husband has been joking around about hiding my birthcontrol pills.

This morning as I tried to drag myself out of bed I thought to myself…"Could I be pregnant?…nah……..it couldn’t be…"

 Anyway, I might as well keep on doing what I am doing, as my road trip is coming up and that will be a REAL test of time.