goforitnicks’s BodyBlog

So I am joining a new challenge. Check tlcinwdm or juleofthenile pages. This should be interesting. I am always lamenting about the other stuff in life that makes achieving complete health difficult, so it would be good to see a month of my life scored. I am excited.

As for now, I am keeping on. I am a bit stressed in the personal life but I am still doing well in the food department. I didn’t quite get to the gym today due to a headache but I still have 2 more days before the week ends to reach my goal.

I have a wedding to go to on Saturday. oh joy   It’s one of those sympathy invites that I really wanted to pass up but since my husband is filming the wedding I guess I need to be there. I hope I don’t end up mindlessly eating.

I was reading about Hotheather’s ass. I am confused over mine. I never had a behind so I started working it religiously and when I was in my top shape I had a nice hard rump. After another pregnancy and some health issues I just seem to have a wide load. How on earth did that happen?! I rather have no ass than a fat ass. I think that should be my special project for October. Also, I am thinking of starting Operation Baby again as I have been pain free for a week and my troubles have seem to subside…I hope all goes well. I am persevering.

So I celebrated the big birthday yesterday and guess what? I was a superstar with my food choices. I sat looking at people enjoying the calories and at first I thought, "it’s my birthday, indulge!" But then I realized that I wanted to be healthy and slim more than I wanted to be temporarily high from sugar and booze, so yea,  I am pretty darn proud of myself!

So I know many of you may be sick of hearing how sick I am but this is reality. I am trying to do this fitness thing with a broken down gadget for a body. So my rough days don’t really consist of not getting enough protein etc, my rough days are much worse than that. The ones that send you to the hospital every now and then and allows you access to codiene as if they were tic tacs. So bear with me. I now tend to get excited over things like being able to go outside for a walk etc. I wasn’t always like that. I was fit, strong, goodlooking (just joking)…

Anyhoo last week I crawled to the gym after watching Kelly’s hot body on Regis and Kelly. The attempt was tough but I did really well. 45 mins on the treadmill, incline variations from 10 to 5, speed from 3.5 to 5mph. Then I did some crunches using the ball. I am still struggling to get back into the strict eating plan but I am working on it. I am eating healthy but I am just not that clean.

Anyhoo, this week I hope to get in 5 workouts. Tuesday is my b’day so I know I would be downing the wine and the dessert but apart from that, I plan to keep myself in check. I am planning to cut out carbs for dinner. That usually works well for me.

Anyhoo, I hope everyone is doing well. Time to go check in on others.

It’s been a day and a half without pain! Yes! Yes! Yes!That’s the good news. The bad news is that I feel like I am sinking emotionally. I think all the mess has been taking  a toll on me. Because I got up in a funk, I didn’t really plan to go to the gym today but my saving grace is that I am a fighter deep down inside.

My day started with the t.v show" Regis and Kelly" with Kelly in a sexy yellow dress that I coveted. Then I got a glimpse of myself in a full length mirror that for some reason showed off some belly rolls I never noticed before. Then to top off the day, I ended up eating those nasty Instant noodles cup because I didn’t pack my food. End result…I hit bottom, so off to the gym I am going after work. Thank God I keep a gym bag in my car for days like these.

I hope to God that 1.5 days of no pain means that I am on the road to recovery, because I am going back to my workouts, even if I have to crawl…

workouts and eating clean

It’s such a nice day outside. I am contemplating going for a bike ride…We’ll see how the old bod feels after work.

Today’s eating plan hasn’t been a good one. The culprit: I didn’t pack enough food. If I do not pack the day before, I tend to make bad choices the next day. My friends are amazed at my resolve but they don’t really realize that the key to it all is to Plan, Prepare and Pack!

Fitness tomorrow starts today!

Ok folks, all drugged up, I went for a brisk walk this morning before work. I felt good. It wasn’t the usual Nicky 1hr jog, but it was 25 more minutes of what I have been doing in the past few weeks. After work, I joined my hubby for some weight training in the gym. Yes, I had to dust off my gym bag but I finally took charge of it and made it to the gym. While working out, a personal trainer walked up to me with his client and said something to the effect that he had to compliment me on my weight loss. Awesome! I finished the workout on cloud nine. Now I know he is comparing me with last year’s weight when I was 23lbs heavier as opposed to a few months ago when I was 10lbs lighter, but nonetheless it was good to be complimented. It encouraged me.

I have been beating up myself for the 10lb weight gain since this ailment took hold of my body but today I was reminded of how far I have come and that this hurdle too, shall pass. I will get through this. I have to believe.

I am so frustrated. I could barely walk, let alone excercise. I was told to wait and see if the situation goes away in two weeks or I will have to remove me ovary. Oh joy..what good news…NOT. I am not sure how to maintain my weight if I can’t excercise. I am also not sure which is worse: the physical pain or the mental torture of see my stomach rise and the muscle mass decrese. There must be something out there that can help me. I don’t want to fall into the unhealthy category…I am fit… aren’t I? I am a bodybuilder inside, although I look like a stuffed duck that had too much cranberries. Life!

Have you ever worked out in a daze? This past week, I skipped the gym more times than I want to remember. What’s really bad is that I drove there, dropped off my movie rental, got a new one and left. So yesterday, the last day in this week I forced myself to just go. I had just finished a speaking engagement that ended with a brainstorming session and my health meter was on low. My body was numb and my mind was racing so much that, as I was doing the cardio (albeit slow) I wasn’t even concious of what was going on. After cardio, I moved from one station to the next, lifting the weights in a daze. Before I new it, it was over an hour. I was sweating and experiencing the "good hurt"… 

It was quite interesting really to discover that even on a ho-hum day I can lock off my mind and do a workout…I am pleased as punch to have ended the week with at least one!

This coming week I will see another specialist. Has anyone ever have to deal with female reproductive issues that cause the stomach to swell? I really don’t know if I can cope with this on a  long term basis. I have a coworker who looks pregnant all the time. The culprit? Fibroid.

A flat stomach and a healthy body are ingrained in my life’s goal. They are must haves. To be plagued with this particular ordeal not only hurts physically, it is wreaking havoc with my soul. I guess my challenge would have to be nutrition. I would have to focus my workout energy into eating as clean as possible…We will see.