goforitnicks’s BodyBlog

Could you believe that I have only been to the gym 3 times since the year started? Neither me.  So let’s just move on…

I normally like morning workouts but haven’t had the discipline to get up and face the cold like miss bodyspacer julofthenile. Instead, I have been sleeping in…all month long. So tonight, while I was in a bible study group the conviction came down on me like a ton of bricks. PRACTICE WHAT YOU PREACH.  (I am doing this health and fitness seminar at my church for the ladies that runs till march).

So I did it. I went to the gym after church. I had clothes in my vehicle from the last attempt to go to the gym, so I had no excuse. It was good. I only did 1/2 hr of stairs but I felt alive doing it. I guess I will pack my gym bag for tmr. Jules, I will be going to the gym with you in spirit.

My husband said to me that if I do not have anything good to write about, do not write at all, so I have been hiding from body space.  I had slacked off as I was nearing my goal and gained back 6lbs. "Only 6lbs you say" yep, 6lbs. 6lbs of concentrated fat right around my navel.

I am back at this junction because I was setting myself up for a pregnancy that ended. Blah. I am not even going to tell you about the physical and emotional pain I endured this past two months.

So I am at this junction: Do I stay away from the hardcore workouts and supplements in preparation for baby (that may not happen) or do I continue doing my training and eating to support my skinny ass goal?

Am I selfish? What shall I do? What’s off limit? How can I lose weight and prepare for pregnancy #4?!!!

 this morning, I had to make a decision…Do I go forward or do I go back? So here I am on bodyspace writing….I choose to go forward. Yes I ate 4 desserts last night at church and yes I am going to enjoy a gala dinner tonight, with free drinks, but I am going forward.

I know I am back at this junction because I was settign myself up for a pregnancy that ended

To get to work, I can slide off my bed at 8:15am latest, (this is skipping prayertime), so for me to set my alarm this morning for 6am just to get cardio in was a real battle of my will vs. my emotions. After about 1/2hr of the alarm beeping I had resigned myself to the fact that I was not going to work out today but then something beautiful happened…this familiar warrior who sweated and ate bowls and bowls of oatmeal for the past 7 months lifted my legs out of bed and got me riding the bike by 7am. I was grunting and complaining, but secretly I was amazed of the inner drive I had in order to beat my tired body into submission as I sweat and strained to complete 50 mins of cardio.

After lazing around for 2 weeks during the christmas season, I thought for sure that I would have had to start all over again mentally, but "hello there miss fitness". I was riding the bike hard this morning as if I was in a race. Apparently, the brand new fitness minded person I worked hard to create in 2007 was still there to get me up and moving this morning. You might think, so what? Well for a person who has an all-or-nothing mentality, I thought for sure that my two- week hiatus had ruined me for sure. I really didn’t think that I could have had some down time away from the gym and bland eating then get back to the strict routine.  But yea! I am doing it!

Happy New Year everyone! 2008… what will this year be about? I am so glad to be back, reading your blogs, getting remotivated, juicing up the mind for the workouts and the strict nutrition ahead. It is so good to see how a lot of you kept going strong during the christmas season. I wish I could have. I was in a seasonal bubble. I tried to make healthy choices, but I am not kidding anyone… I ate from all the dishes that were put in front of me. My mother-in-law’s lemon squares and my parents’ black cake were part of the reason for my skycraping downfall.

Anyway, it’s good to be back. Last year was good, with me dropping 20lbs. This year I plan to drop 15lbs and be back in the studio again. It’s going to be good times!