goforitnicks’s BodyBlog

Toronto is covered in snow right now. I ventured out both Saturday and Sunday and fished tailed all the way to my destination point and back. Do I hear a white christmas this year?

I really wanted to make the extra effort to go to the gym this weekend but I am not sure if I can justify the drive when the OPP advised everyone to stay at home…so what did I do? Play Nintendo Wii. It was great. My arms hurt. Never thought to use a nintendo game to excercise. Tennis, boxing, bowling…(skip the golf). They all gave a good workout. So there it is, I played video games this weekend to get my cardio in.

Oh my!

I am totally grateful for losing the weight before the season so I know that I have the will power to do it. Unfortunately though, I have already gained a tummy and a few extra pounds from the christmas eating. So I sit here with the two selves. Do I throw in the towel and eat to my heart’s content since it is "’tis the season to be merry", or do I really show the world who I am (or who I am striving to be), who, regardless of season wouldn’t put fried, trans fat foods into her body?

Do I gain those christmas pounds? Years past I wouldn’t have given this any thought. I am a West Indian. I live life to the fullest. "eat, drink and be merry" is our motto. But I am enjoying being fit. Can I mentally gain a few pounds and not fall apart? Honestly? No. So there is my answer. So I will just have to steel myself against the food fest that awaits me from next week. I need all the help that I can get but that is the answer to my dilemma.

I just have to figure out how to re-train my taste buds.

Hello everybody! Tmr is Friday yea, yea, yea. 

Could you tell I had a stressful week and is in NEED of the weekend. 

Today I did 40 mins of cardio and some lunges. My husband said that I need to work on the booty, so work on it I shall. I was tired today and mentally drained from work, but I had this surge of determination to "just do it" so I did my workout and ignored the other self that complained every now and again. It feels good to finish a workout when I wanted to quit 4 mins in. 

I’ve started talking to my ex boyfriend again and though we are cool  there is this fiend inside of me that wants to have a kick ass body just to say "hey loser, you cheated on this hottie. Look what you are missing." I don’t know why that is the case because I am joyfully married. I just know that I can’t really be a show-off with saddlebags and spongy thighs. A little childish you say? I know. Anyway, for now this childish thinking is getting me to the gym so that is alright with me.

Ok, I am off to figure out what to eat. The culprit of why I am still so soft and chubby.

At the beginning of the week, I was terrified of not finding time to go to the gym but I made it every day since and I still found time to train someone (a rookie, who I will tell you about some day). Last night, my husband and I came to the conclusion that fitness is just a part of our life. Like eating and sleeping. We can’t even concieve going to the gym 3 times a week, which seems like the special number for people starting out or for those who use the gym for rec. purposes.

So what was I worried about? I don’t know. ‘Where there is a will, there is a way’ and with fitness for me, there is always a will.

This week I did a complete body workout so far. Later today I will do cardio. I am still trying to search on the internet for info on how much protein I need for my goals. Right now I stand to lose 17 more pounds and then I want to concentrate on building muscle. At 5ft I was 95 lbs all my life. From here on getting to about 110 would be good. (lofty goal? I am not sure).

“Starting all over again, is gonna be rough, so rough, But I’m gonna make it…” I feel like I have been in a whirlwind this past couple of weeks. It’s so busy at year end. I can’t let my gains go to waste though. I can’t really see how I am going to fit in the gym this week and it bothers me. I will have to really try. I am also going to eat as healthy as possible. I was hoping to lose 10 more pounds by Christmas…If I push, I can do it…so I’ll try. Maybe I should post some fat pics of myself on my mirror to keep me going

I know I am definitely on a low right now in terms of motivation, but I am trodding along, not quitting. I wonder how the pros do it. How they eat the same thing day in and day out, go to the gym sometimes twice a day and still lead the rest of life. I feel like I am caught between the two. I want to devote maximum time to health and fitness, but it seems that is the second thing to go when I’m busy. (Unfortunately, the 1st is my prayer and bible reading time). hmmm…. I think I just got a revelation. Maybe I am cutting out the wrong things that is why I end up in a vicious cycle of stress, moodiness and bad eating.

Ok then, see ya folks, I am going to have devotion time to reconnect and centre myself. I am hoping to do cardio early in the morning tmr as well.