goforitnicks’s BodyBlog

Looking at my diet and lack of training may warrant a heckle. My husband refuses to believe that I am striving for a goal. Normally I would beat myself up and say forget it but I realised something has changed after I gave away my dinner following two attempts to eat it. Yep, fast food is fast and convienant for a busy gal like me, but I just can’t comfortably eat that crap anymore.

I may not be eating veggies and chicken breast everyday, but one day I will get to the hardcore status I desire and my critics won’t be laughing then.

Sh*t, not everyone has time to work out every day or twice a day. I will work with what I’m given, fibromyalgia and all, and one day I will achieve my goal!.

Capt Ahab, I wanted to give you something to write about sorry for my turtle like pace. I guess one day someone will write about me. Come what may, I am still in the race.

Looking at my diet and lack of training may warrant a heckle. My husband refuses to believe that I am striving for a goal. Normally I would beat myself up and say forget it but I realised something has changed after I gave away my dinner following two attempts to eat it. Yep, fast food is fast and convienant for a busy gal like me, but I just can’t comfortably eat that crap anymore.

I may not be eating veggies and chicken breast everyday, but one day I will get to the hardcore status I desire and my critics won’t be laughing then.

Sh*t, not everyone has time to work out every day or twice a day. I will work with what I’m given, fibromyalgia and all, and one day achieve my goal!.

Capt Ahab, I wanted to give you something to write about sorry for my turtle like pace. I guess one day someone will write about me. Come what may, I am still in the race.

Somehow I’m on a vacation again. I haven’t been to the gym in a week! To us that’s like suicide unless it’s a prescibed week of rest; to my friends I’m overreacting. Oh well. I went camping with friends this weekend. It was awesome. Though I was still battling the cold, I felt restored. Something about nature. Wow! My husband and I carried our own food and ate clean ALL weekend. Let me tell you it was difficult. Not because we really wanted smores and pringles, but because everyone was snacking ’round the clock, we wanted to snack too. We wanted to fit in. When people were chowing down on the bacon, we were slurping oatmeal. I hope I didn’t lose any friends from this.

 I’m a birthday girl today, yea! So I am off to my dad’s for THE dinner. I am going to sample everything instead of the usual portion sizes.

I wish to workout tommorrow. My visiting friend has prevented me from working out in the past week but I just might leave her on her own tmr and go nurture myself! it’s my birthday! I deserve to pump some iron!

I didn’t ride the bike this morning. I am still ill. I ate comfort foods and I am not to thrilled about it. I probably wouldn’t write any  blogs until I feel better. I really don’t want to spread my germs to anyone. i.e, the blues and negativity.

 Keep writing, I’ll be reading!

What has it been? Only two days of full mojo and I am down with a cold?! My husband is in the gym right now as I type doing my favourite body parts, arms and shoulders while I’ve been in bed with kleenex all around me. shoot!

Anyway, I still have my mental willpower though my body feels like crap. Hope to get better soon so I can go to the gym. It will be really bad if I end home all day in front of the t.v in pjs eating comfort food. Dang I hate flu season.

 I am thinking of riding the bike tmr morning come what may.

Size 3. That’s right. I had this long jean skirt I bought 5 years ago when I was hot and sexy and well I wore it probably twice since. I wasn’t even able to get it past my knees. This weekend I tried it on and I was like "BAM!" "It fit!". THough the scale is not telling me what I want to hear, my clothes are giving me some encouragement. And silly me forgot to mention that that dress I was trying to wear for wedding number 1 in May which did not fit for any of the 10 weddings throughout the summer was on this slim ole thing this past weekend. That’s right. I wore that orange summer dress and I looked hot. The final wedding of the summer and I made it. whoo hoo!

 I am definitely happy but not content. I will still strive for better because I still have the mommy tummy going and look about 4 months pregnant.

Today I ate crap for dinner and I made my husband eat it too. (I feel bad). I was craving soul food so I cooked up some rice and peas and ate 2nds. Yea, I know. No need to say it. I’m getting there though. I hope. I am just not into eating bland meals everyday. No matter how much you tell me to spice up sweet potatoes that just doesn’t cut it for me. I’m accustom to variety. Anyway, I’ll get there soon. Soon enough I will be able to stick to a diet like glue and don’t buckle under the sight of bbq chicken, baked macaroni and cheese, gravy…hmmm..ok ok.

Today I did chest and back. I really had my mojo going and I was able to increase the weight on a number of machines today by 5-10lbs! friggin awesome! I just felt it. I just wanted more. I just wanted to pump it out after going through the motions for a whole week. Damn I’m back!

My friend is coming tommorrow. I stacked the house with a shit load of food that my husband and I don’t eat or drink. My husband already warned me to hide it from him. Out of sight, out of mind. I am steeling my mind against those pringles. I must survive the two weeks that she is here!

So I did really well with the food at the wedding and had no SWEETS. Yea Nicky. But I drowned myself in booze. Yep, I kept ordering rounds after rounds. I was drinking like a camel storing up for all the dry days ahead of me. That was the last wedding of the year, So great! I’m done with that. I am going to nurse my headache now and talk myself into wanting to workout later.

Even though my visitor is arriving on Tuesday and would like to taste every kind of  multicultural food Toronto has to offer, I am not worried. I felt like I made my peace at the wedding last night. I ate delicious salmon and drank rum. I’m filled up. I hope it lasts. Oh and I ate Trini fruit cake too. That was goooood.

Yesterday I did not do a traditional workout but I hope cleaning the house for 5 hours straight counts for something. Not being able to work out and not preparing good meals would have normally send me crazy into self-bashing, but I had to talk myself out of the pity party to say it’s ok, life happens. THis thing is really a battle of the mind! All of yesterday I was using positive words to keep me from feeling low.

Today is wedding day. arg! I hope I do well. My husband does not want to go to the gym this morning but I am going, come wind or high water!

I have lost muscle mass. I know it, I can feel it and I am pretty upset about it. All that hard work for nothing?! I must be crazy. Hell no I can let my initia efforts go to waste! I think my mojo is returning.

Today I forced myself to run on the threadmill ranging from 3.5-5.5mph for 1 hour. Yes, it was difficult, but I used every weapon I could think of including your comments on my blog to help me stay on that beast. I would have liked to eat like a champion too but I was on the road all day and ended up just eating one time and well, let’s just say I went to town on that Teriyaki chicken and rice.

Anyway, I still don’t have my full mojo back but I am relying on the power of the tongue principle and so I have been muttering under my breath how much of a diva I am. How healthy I am, how fit I am (how rich I am?)…well you get the point.

Anyway, hope you guys had a good day today.

…Fine, Nike coined the term but it was my mantra this morning, when I got up extra early so that I could cook AND do cardio. I packed a power lunch with awesome snacks but I forgot that at home, so the eating was terrible. But at least I did something.

My husband and I drove to the gym and right back out the parking lot as we were both tired and just wanted to rest. (later he rode the bike)

Tomorrow I plan to do cardio. I am still not pumped and excited, but I am going to do it. I really thought that I’d enjoy this experience and it will be an awesome journey. Ha! I love how food taste. This journey is a sacrifice.

Anyway, I know God has a lot more important things to deal with but last night I asked him to help me with this and I guess he answered "ok" because I have a ray of hope for the days ahead. I have a peace about this journey when before I was frantic that I would never make it.

Peace.

Jules, I did get a crock pot and I used it this morning!!!