goforitnicks’s BodyBlog

Before the day was finished, my resolution to really give this proper eating and adequate excercise a try was challenged. Oh the summer bbqs.  Einstein did not give up, so why should I? I am going to the gym tonight and  I can only give it my best shot. I’ve had a habit of quitting when I fail once or twice  (I’m an all or nothing girl) but I am working on that.

Tonight I am going to work with my hubby on chest and bis. THis morning I did 1/2 hr run before work. I thought I was doing well until the day got hectic and I ended up eating take out with the rest of the staff man, I really do not exhibit competition qualities.

 I have so much potential and I excel in other areas, why can’t I nail discipline to the ground when it comes to fitness. One day I guess.

Anyway, people are returning from vacation one by one, and I have gotten a few compliments on apparent weight loss. I am not sure what I did differently as I was on vacation myself, but I guess I look better to some. That and the fact that my older clothes fit. yea!

I just tried on some clothes I had from 5 years ago and they fit! yea Nicky! It was such a motivator, I found myself in the gym that night.

My gym is full of competitors so every now and then I burn with the desire to be like them. The discipline. Oh the discipline. I wonder if I really tried, if I can do it. I have a very responsive body and I don’t like food all that much anyway. hmmm, I’ll try starting from today. Bold statement but if I don’t make it, then no one is going to hold me to it.

I don’t want to compete, I just want to look like I do.  I have about 9 months before I explore motherhood again, so I better get cracking.

This morning’s workout was short because I have lots of activities on the agenda for today. 3 shoulder excercises and abs. I hope to do some cardio later.

Running a business is so bloody demanding, I am not sure how I function.

Coming from vacation straight into 20 hr work days has just been frustrating on my body.

I want to go to the gym with my hubby, but I am busy and tired. I miss the gym and the preparation of whole healthy foods. I wish thinking about fitness counted for something.

 I need to re think my life. If I’m going to be a successful entrepeneur, wife, mother, fitness guru, church leader, volunteer, family member, friend, housework slave, dancer and public speaker, I definitely need some order. How does one do it all and still have time for self?

That’s it. I’m moving to the Caribbean.

It’s been ages since I’ve worked out. I am trying to get back into the routine but the momemtum is simply not there. I hate when that happens!

I don’t know how one person can be so strong at one point and then so so weak at another.

People are saying that I look like I’ve lost weight. Great. Another reason for me to stay at this plateau. I really need to push myself to break the 130 barrier. This mental thing. How do others overcome it I don’t know!

I think I need to spend some time reading fitness material again to retrain my mind to think fit.

My two week vacation on the East Coast of Canada was quite fun. I did really well the 1st week, eating and exercising to the best of my abilities given the road trip circumstances (see pic) but week 2 was deadly. I noticeably gained about 6lbs of poutine blubber. When I returned home though, I had to immediately fly to the Caribbean for a family emergency. You may think, oh no detrimental, with all the nice delicacies and mother’s cooking available…but on the contrary, that week was a blessing in disguise. I went to a dance performance in the actual theater I used to perform in with my former ballet school and let me tell you, Trinidadians could dance. There were all types of dancing: ballet, tap, soca, modern, hip hop…you name it. It was great. But what this trip really did for me was to give me a new sense of what a normal weight society really looks like. Trinidad in particular out of all the Caribbean islands has the most beautiful women you can find. All colours and shapes. Some women are slender, some curvy…but generally they aren’t obese. I have grown so accustomed to obese/fat women all around me here in Canada I had subconsciously told myself that my current state is not so bad, why push for more? However, having spent some time in my birth country surrounded by healthy beautiful women, I have gained a new sense of what normal is. Besides, everyone had to tell me how fat/plump I got, so the veil over my eyes has been lifted.   Being overweight, even though I am not as fat as the next person is still unhealthy. I am overweight and there are no other ways of saying it. I need to know that these trends of being deadly skinny or deadly obese are not normal. I need to find what is normal for me.