goddessamazon’s BodyBlog

"Pain is weakness leaving the body"

Isn’t that the saying? I believe it. Right now I am in physical pain from Muay Thai and BJJ training. I got a busted lip from BJJ training but don’t worry guys……….I’m still beautiful.  I’m gonna call this week "battle bruises week". First my legs and now my lip. Today I did arms even though I was suppose to do legs today but since I threw my schedule off I’m gonna do legs tomorrow. I don’t know why most women in MMA feel that you can’t bodybuild and train in martial arts at the same time. Personally, I don’t think I would be this successful in martial arts if it wasn’t for my weight lifting. Being the only girl in the "Big Dawgs" class has helped me tremendously. The guys already realize that I’m strong and not an easy target. There are a couple of guys in my class who can throw me around the mat like a rag doll and that’s only because they are f*ckng HUGE! One of my favorite guy to spar with is this guy from Norway who’s like 6′5". **swoon**  Oh I just loooooove sparring with him. He’s like this big sexy azz playground that I just want to play on all day long. The other two guys are around my height but weight much heavier and of course much stronger but they don’t excite me like that mile-high viking. Mmmmm! Mmmmm! The naughty things I do to him inside my mind! SCANDALOUS!

Ok, enough excitement for one night. I’m going to bed.

Good-night

I’ve missed MT and BJJ training due to bruises and I can’t wait to go back tomorrow. I did legs yesterday and Back/shoulders today. My strength is really improving and I can’t wait to hit the center tomorrow evening. Especially for cardio sake because I’ve been a bad girl today with carbs.

Don’t worry, I’ll give myself a spanking for that tomorrow.

good night!

Yup! Just like I thought! My legs are sore and bruised this morning but I’m still going to the gym to work them out. I’m debating whether or not to wear spandex pants to cover them up or expose my bruises by wearing shorts because it’s gonna be hot today. Don’t get me wrong. I’m not proud of my bruises and truth be told I don’t want to tell the people at my gym that I’m taking Muay Thai training. I could just play a Jedi mind trick on everyone by waving my hands over their faces while saying "You don’t see any bruises on my legs. You don’t see me at all. I’m invisible so walk away!"

LOL!!!! Ok, enough fooling around. Let be get out of here and get out of here and face the inevitable.

So it’s the first day of training since the pool party and I noticed that I’m more social with everyone due to last Saturday. I really had a blast and I will do it again in a heart beat. My martial arts center throws some sort of party every season so there’s a fall one coming up in two months and I’m gonna be there.

My shins hurt like mad. Today during Muay Thai class we had to practice blocking kicks with our shins. Today I sparred against a girl who was close to my height WHOO HOO! She’s about 5′11 or 6′0" and we were kicking the sh*t out of each other. Sometimes I would forget to block and I’ll get hit hard with her kicks. That right there teaches me (and everyone else) to pay attention and block!

I have to decided if I’m going tomorrow or not because I missed the gym this morning due to working. Today was suppose to be Leg day so I’m gonna have to do that tomorrow. But if my legs are hurting tomorrow like they are now then I’m gonna tough it out during my Leg workout tomorrow and skip MT and BJJ training.

We’ll see what happens.

This is what I feel like doing sometimes in the middle of the night.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DCObMcAfdRc

Gee whiz! The embedding feature is not working today! UGH!

Was probably the best day I ever had this year. BTW - I dressed discreetly for my gym’s party and hoochied it up (slang term courtesy of MakingAChange) for my martial arts party. I had a ball at both. Oh guess what? I got hit on by two 19 year old boys and one 22 year old guy. All three complimented me on my "fit" body and all three thought I was 28 - 30 years old! HA!

I gave one on them my phone number and told the other two that I was seeing someone. I really had a great time and I’m glad I went. I even had some private talk time with one of my Muay Thai training mates. He’s sooooooooooooo handsome! He wants to fight competitively next year. Why is it that these handsome guys want to ugly themselves up with Muay Thai fighting? I don’t understand that. *shrug*

I really had a ball and I’m feels so good today because of it! Yaaaaa Me!

I’m sitting here trying to figure out what the hell should I wear tomorrow! Should I wear clothes that show off my hard work in the gym or should I be discreet and wear clothes that leaves a lot to the imagination. LIKE MY GI! LMAO!!!!!!!

*sigh* Hopefully I’ll figure something out tomorrow.

When I woke up this morning I knew today was gonna be a good day and I was right. Yesterday when I wrote my blog I forgot to mention that one of my Muay Thai instructors talked me into coming into the center today for extra training. I noticed that my fundamentals are improving big time with Muay Thai. You know what else? I really enjoy going to this center. Yes I had a rough start with some of the females there in the beginning but now that I’ve proven that I’m no one’s b*tch I’m really enjoying myself and I’m learning A LOT! The best thing about training at this center is that my instructors take the time to help me. It’s so different with bodybuilding. When it comes to prepping for a show the only help and support I have is online here at BB.com. When I am at my martial arts center the instructors there train me as if they are my personal coach. One of them even suggest that I give some thought to entering a real fight later this year. I know for a fact that I’m gonna enter into a Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu competition but Muay Thai? Ummmmm? I don’t know about that. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not afraid of getting hit or kicked. Hell! I get that every time I train with the guys. I just have this thing about punching another female. Now grappling, choking and locks in BJJ is a horse of another color and I have no problem doing that to another female or a male. HA! But I never been a fan of hitting females. Why? Well it’s due to an incident that happened when I was in high school. I moved from the slums of southeast D.C. to the upper middle class section of Largo Maryland. For some reason a group of females at my new school thought I was weak because I stayed to myself. Whenever they would trash talk me I wouldn’t trash talk them back. So one day after school three of them tried to jump me at once. I beat  them all down to a bloody pulp. I was so full of rage that I don’t remember the fight. I blacked out while I was fighting and don’t remember anything. All I remember was two male police officers and the school security guard pulling me off one of the females. Everyone was covered in blood (including me) but none of the blood was mine. As a matter of fact I didn’t suffer any bruises, cuts or wounds. Two of the three girls were sent to the hospital and the other girl and I was put in the back of a police car and sent to Juvie.

Long story short…………every time I saw those girls I would see the stitches on their face or the bruises on their arms, neck and chest. Because of this fight I never had to worry about anyone messing with me again. As a matter of fact I gain a lot of respect and fear from it but deep down inside I regret what I did to those girls. I felt guilty for causing their injuries and for years I thought about ways I could have avoided that physical altercation. I never fought another female since. Men? Now that’s a different story! During my college years I found myself in a few hand to hand fights with other guys. WOW! I was such a different person back than. I don’t know why I’m telling you all this! Why am I telling you all this? Oh yeah! I was making a point. Duh!

Ok back to my point.

I don’t want to be a MMA female fighter. I don’t care how successful my instructors think I’ll be in the future with more intense training. I don’t want to fight! All I want to do is compete in BJJ where I can wrestle and grapple til the cows come home. That’s where my heart is for now and that’s where it will stay until it’s time for me to prep for my next bodybuilding competition.

even in the spirit world. When my cat was alive and I saw the end coming near. One night  I was stroking her on her tiny head and said "When you leave mommy you have to send her someone to keep her company. She’s gonna be very lonely and sad without you." I said this to my beautiful cat the week before she died. Well I think my precious kitty is working her magic because something great happened to me today.

Ya’ll remember me mentioning something about my Gym and my martial arts center throwing parties but I didn’t know if I should go because of my hair getting braided back (which makes me look like a tom-boy). So in the end I decided not to go to either party and I stayed home instead.

Well today the manager of my "Posh Gym" invited me to a canoe race this Saturday. Members from our gym will be in the race and they need some support. I thought about it for a quick second and then I told her no thanks. "We’re gonna have a big party afterward. Free food and drinks"

Now those are two words I am a sucker for "Free" and "Food". As I stood there thinking of a way to decline that generous offer she hit me with this little tidbit of information. "There’s a lot of guys here asking me if you’re gonna come, especially when they found out that you’re single"

"Really?" I asked. She nodded her head yes. So I told her that I’ll come. The race starts at 10AM and the outdoor party starts are 12Noon.

Now fast forward to later this evening after BJJ and Muay Thai training in my martial arts center.

One of the guys from my Muay Thai class (who is fine as hell BTW) walked up to me and asked me if I’m going to the pool party the center is throwing this Saturday? Here’s how that conversation went.

Me - "Pool party? I don’t want to get into a pool."

him- "You don’t have to get into the pool. I’m not getting into the pool."

Me - "So then why should I come?"

Him - "Because I’m gonna be there and this is a chance for you to make friends"

Me - "I look like I need friends?"

Him - "Yes!" he laughs "There’s a lot of people here who want to get to know you better but you never stop and mingle with anyone. It’s training, take a shower and then you go home."

Me - Laughing "Ok, you’re right. I don’t mingle with anyone here so maybe I do need friends but I was invited to an outdoor party at 12noon. I’m definitely going to this party because they are serving FREE FOOD  and DRINKS. Freeeeee Foooooood!"

Him - "No problem. Our pool party is from 1PM to 1AM. When you finished eating then head over here and join us at 5PM."

I got quiet for a moment to think about it.

Him (giving me the puppy dog eyes) - "Come on! Please?"

Me - "OK, I’ll be there around 5ish"

Him (with a huge smile) - "Cool! See you then"

Now mind you…………90% of the guys in my BJJ class are handsome! 70% of the men in the entire center are attractive. My "Posh Gym" has eye candy but my marital arts center has eye candy for days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have a funny feeling I may "hook-up" with one of them. Lawrd knows I need to!

I’m gonna make sure I look good for both events. I’m gonna take my hair out of these braids, wash it and let it fall down my body like a black Reponsel. I may come to my workouts and training looking all busted but I’m gonna look absolutely delicious this Saturday!Watch and see!

WHOO HOO!!!! My Fannie hooked her Mommy up for this Saturday. Thanks baby! Love you!

You know what I realized today? I realized that I enjoy prepping my body for competitions. I like the restricted meals, two hours of cardio and 6x a week weight lifting. I like being a mirror whore every morning upon waking up and critiquing my physique. There were times when I would flex in front of my mirror for 30 minutes straight. Oh! Oh! Walking around my house butt azz naked!  Let me tell ya……….when your body is nice and tight, you just don’t want to cover anything up with clothes. Hell! A bikini is too much.

Now I’m in off-season and besides getting my sexual thrill from brazilian jiu-jitsu and my cardio from Muay Thai I’m BORED!!!! Can you believe I’m looking forward to November because that’s when I’ll start my contest prep for 2010?

If this is a condition then I don’t want to be cured.

Bliss is sparring with a extremely handsome & tall VIKING from Norway who’s wrapping his long limbs around your body while placing you in a kimura lock.

**sigh*

I either need to get a boyfriend or seek psychiatric counseling.

If I had to title this youtube video it would be "Dogs gone wild"

This is why I love cats. I just couldn’t take a HUGE dog like that licking my entire face! YUK!