goddessamazon’s BodyBlog

Hey Everyone!

I’m coming home tomorrow April 30. I’m gonna have jetlag like a mofo cuz I just had my first good night’s rest last night here in Germany which means that my body finally adapted to the time difference. But I’m ready to come home now. I have eaten all the food I wanted and finally got some sex! Not as much as I wanted (mostly because I was too busy eating) but the sex I did have will last me for another 6 months.

Guess what? I miss eating clean! **gasp** Yes, yes, believe it. I’ve been eating clean for soooo long that I’m looking forward to doing it again when I get back home tomorrow.

But my plan hasn’t changed. May - Eat 80% clean, get back on my creatine and go back to lifting heavy!

June - Start my cutting again for my next competition in August.

As soon as I’m rested up I’m gonna update you all on the 411 with everything and when I say everything I mean EVERY-DAMN-THING.

So later on this week meet me under the gossip tree (my BB.com Blog)!

Ya’ll gonna have to bare with me on the updates. I’m currently in Germany and they have these wacky keyboards here. I’m a fast typist yet when I use the keyboard I have type with one finger and find the keys. It’s very annoying.

So when I get back I’ll be updating you all on the 411 from the last 2 weeks.

cya!

I fight a battle every day
Against discouragement and fear;
Some foe stands always in my way,
The path ahead is never clear!
I must forever be on guard
Against the doubts that skulk along;
I get ahead by fighting hard,
But fighting keeps my spirit strong.

I hear the croakings of Despair,
The dark predictions of the weak;
I find myself pursued by Care,
No matter what the end I seek;
My victories are small and few,
It matters not how hard I strive;
Each day the fight begins anew,
But fighting keeps my hopes alive.

My dreams are spoiled by circumstance,
My plans are wrecked by Fate or Luck;
Some hour, perhaps, will bring my chance,
But that great hour has never struck;
My progress has been slow and hard,
I’ve had to climb and crawl and swim,
Fighting for every stubborn yard,
But I have kept in fighting trim.

I have to fight the doubters away,
And be on guard against my fears;
The feeble croaking of Dismay
Has been familiar through the years;
My dearest plans is to prove them wrong,
My determination empowers my will,
But fighting keeps my spirit strong,
And I am undefeated still!

I keep this poem with me. Feel free to use it yourself. It helped me get through cardio this evening.

So today I recorded my workout and I barely made it. That was really tough. Knowing me I’ll probably wait until the last minute to edit.

Anywho, this is just a ramble blog entry. I’ll post more details later.
cya!

but not a whole lot of action. My camcorder is charged up and ready to go for this afternoon but it’s not going to video much. I just finished doing my morning cardio and I already want to call it a day!

But it’s important to keep documentations of my process. I’m starting to get those "101 Question" PMs. The PMs from newbies who want to know the who, what, when, why, where and how. Thank goodness for my blog because I send them right here for all the answers. Everything they want to know about what I did can be found here in this blog. When I say everything I mean EVERYTHING!

I love answering the eating part though. I don’t send them to my blog when they want eating advice. This is how I handle it.

Hi,

I saw your progress pictures and you look great. Can you please share with me what you eat? I’m in the process of figuring out my protein intake and before I go and buy a shopping cart full of chicken and beef I just wanted to know how much a day of it I should eat?

thanks

*******

Hi *******

I’m afraid I can’t help you with the eating part because I’m a vegetarian. However, vegetarian bodybuilders are the minority here so you will likely find the answer through someone else.

Sorry I wasn’t much help but good luck with your future goals.

sincerely,

G. A.

See how easy that was? Ok, gotta go answer some email

cya!

when you have a lot of shit to do. LOL!!!!! After I did some chores around the house I went out and brought stuff from my list. After that I went to the gym and repped those light azz weights. BOO! Did my cardio, abs and came home. I’m in the process of preparing my comp bag. I have my "special" oil with me. I made this oil specially for my skin. I want my body to have a certain look and I don’t want to go up on stage looking like I fell in a bucket of grease. HA!

Oh did I mention that Aunt Flow came by last Saturday evening? She’s treading light (if you know what I mean?) so it’s as if she wasn’t here at all and of course today she’s gone. Good thing too because I was bloated! REALLY BLOATED! Still am but it will be gone by tomorrow. If that happened the day before my comp I would have been PISSED!!!!

So today is almost at a end. Tomorrow I’ll video my sorry attempt to do arms. I feel like a goober when I lift now. Every time I walk into the pit I can hear Ronnie’s famous words in my head "Everybody wanna be a bodybuilder but nobody wanna lift these heavy ass weights!" I promise you I want to lift those heavy ass weights but my body says no.

What’s so weird is that I look like I can curl a 45 lb Dumbbell with the greatest of ease but in reality I can barely curl a 20.  Talk about illusion!

Puffftttt!

anyone know when they will fix the embedded feature on bodyspace?

I have several awesome youtube clips to post in my blog and that feature isn’t working.

**pouts**

I’m not calling this "one week out". I’m going to call it HELL WEEK! My emotions have been like a roller coaster yesterday and today! I’m feeling everything from anger to happiness. I’m just so ready to do this and get it over with! I can’t believe I was so naive last year about the hard work and sacrifices competitive BBers go through just to compete. I like to think big and when I decided to gain muscles I decided to compete as well. I had no idea what that entailed. All I knew is that this is what I wanted to do. I wanted to work my ass off in the gym and show the world my hard work on the stage.

Too bad I can’t show them my mental/emotional state. All the BULLSH*T and DRAMA I had to endure just to get to this point. If they knew all the crap I went through they would probably give me the "Amateur Bodybuilder of the YEAR" award! HA!

One thing has changed though. I’m OK with going to my comp alone. I’m OK with not having a dedicated person in the crowd cheering me on. No one will know my name to yell when I’m on stage. This isn’t a bad thing anymore you know why? Because I’m going to make such a good impression and present such a presence that they will WANT to cheer for me. I’m going to earn those cheers because I deserve it not because they know me.

And when it’s all over and done with they still won’t know my name but when they talk about what they saw that day they all will say "Those ladies look great but did you see that really tall one? She was like WOW! I couldn’t keep my eyes off her!"

I AIN’T NEVER SCARED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gee Whiz! What the hell is going on with Bodyspace? If it ain’t one thing it’s another.

Now the youtube embedded clips feature doesn’t work. **sigh**

Anywho, for the past three months I’ve been watching a bunch of IFBB Pro Bodybuilders DVDs over and over again on my DVD player. All of them were great except for one Mark Dugdale’s DVD called Driven. That DVD was boooooooooooooooring! Hell my slow cardio sessions are more pumped than that. I’m glad I rented it instead of buying it.

Anywho, I am so in love with Dennis Wolf! This man makes me tingle in my "special place"

http://www.dennis-wolf.de/

I frequent Germany often and I’m going to compete for a very long time. Sooner or later I’m going to meet this man and when I do………….LAWRD HELP HIM!

Meeeeeoooooowwwwww!

Testing to see if the youtube link thingie is working again.

Probably for the first time in over four months I’m actually taking a full day off. Usually I’ll say something like I’m going to take a day off but do cardio or I’m going to take a day off and just do abs with a little cardio. Well folks, tomorrow I’m taking the day off and do nothing. No cardio, no abs, no weights……….NOTHING!!!!!  After repping out my legs today I didn’t even have the strength to do any cardio at all so I just packed my bag and went home.  I’m going to listen to my body because my body is telling me "I need a break b1tch!"  I’m gonna listen to her and rest the entire day.

Today I asked myself what was the point of lifting if I can’t lift heavy? Can you believe I barely made it to the 4th set on a isolation 25lb dumbbell curl? YES! I was struggling on that last set. I feel like a wimp! BLAH!

So next week I’m still going to hit the gym but lift light and rep out. NO wait! Scratch that rep out crap. I may rep out my legs but everything else gets 10 reps. The  hell with this! My 10 year old nephew is stronger than me right now. PUH!

I have so much to do this coming week. I going to carry around a note pad to jot down the things  need to buy and do before April 12.

I practice posing throughout the day. Even when I’m standing in line I practice standing and flexing at the same time. I practice my posing routine only twice a day and I only practice for ten minutes because the routine is so easy and quick. I think what I need to do this weekend when I get home is start wearing my posing suit around the house so I can get use to it. One thing Sharon told me not to do is tug on my suit while on stage. "Do your best to never adjust your suit while on stage because it will give the judges the impression that your suit doesn’t fit".  For some reason I always seem to adjust the back part of all my suits even though they fit perfectly. It’s a habit of having a big booty. So I’m going to wear my suit around the house all this weekend so that I can be mindful of not adjusting the back part of it.

Ok, I need to finish washing clothes. I hope everyone is having a good day.

GOOD LUCK WITH YOUR COMP TOMORROW STORMI!