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So the evening crowd hasn’t gotten wind of what went down yesterday. One of the owners gave me single rose with a $5 gift certificate Star Bucks as a form of apology. WHOA! A $5 gift certificate? What a big spender. Dat brotha got bank!
Anywho, I saw Andre and he avoided eye contact with me. PUNK! The staff were extra friendly and very accommodating. I didn’t even call them on their fakeness. I just played along because next week all will be back to normal.

Talked to Sharon today about what happened. I like Making A Change’s name for Sharon which is Prez Lez.  So I’m gonna call Sharon Prez Lez from now on. hee hee! Anywho, talked to Prez Lez and she told me to get use to men like him.

"The road to victory is a long lonely road" said Sharon

I agree with her but I had to change it a bit to fit my personal experience and this is what I told her.

"Actually Sharon the road to victory is different now. Yes it’s a long and lonely road but it’s also a road full of potholes, dead ends, detours, hills, valleys and snakes!"

We both laughed but yesterday experience reminded me of a question I constantly ask myself "How bad do I want it?"

• Do I want it so badly that I’m willing to workout religiously for over 12 months?
• Do I want it so badly that I’m willing to break off my engagement and end a relationship with a man I thought would be my future husband simply because he thought women with muscles is ugly?
• Do I want it so badly that I’ll sacrifice my social life and trade nights on the town for mornings in the gym?
• Do I want it so badly that I have to put myself on a budget because eating clean cost more than eating like shit?
• Do I want it so badly that I’m willing to sacrifice a 15 year birthday tradition simply because my birthday falls during my cutting phase/contest prep?
• Do I want it so badly that I’m willing to trade my “bodacious booty” for “a nice ass”?
• Do I want it so badly to go through unpredictable mood swings?
• Do I want it so badly to encounter every hater possible and even attract new ones?
• Do I want it so badly that the words can’t and try are completely erased from my memory let alone vocabulary.
• Do I want it so badly that I’m willing to do whatever it takes to be NUMBER ONE!
  

The answer is YES! I want it that badly!

Good night Ya’ll

Warning! Extreme Rant! Extreme hardcore words inserted.

I guess I spoke too soon when I told Sharon that I was peaceful and feeling good. Actually I was feeling good until I went upstairs to practice my routine at my gym. Practically everyone in my gym knows that I’m preping for my comps. They all noticed the changes in my body and I’m reminded every DAMN day that I lost a lot of weight. The guys from the evening shift make stupid comments to me like “Damn! How much weight you gonna lose for this competition? or I’m glad it’s not windy outside or else you gonna get blown away. or “I be glad when this competition shit is over with so you can get your thunder thighs back.” Now truth be told these comments don’t bother me. I workout at a black gym and black men like women with meat on their bones. Even though I have no intimate interest in any of the guys at my gym they insist on telling me how they want me to look. **roll eyes** Of course I give a smart ass comment like “When you pay all my bills then you can tell me what you like, otherwise shut the hell up.” This usually take care of the problem.

Today I did one hour of slow cardio and then went upstairs to the aerobics room to practice my posing routine. One of the guys who work at my gym named Andre (name changed to protect the stupid) was upstairs so called training some chick. Now this guy is not a certified personal trainer and doesn’t know what the hell he is doing but the gym owners are cheap and instead of getting a REAL PT to train new members they get him.

As soon as I walked into the aerobics room he yells “Hey this section is closed.” Now I know better. That room is not closed but it’s hardly used and he just wanted to be alone with this new member (who was cute by the way).

“Says who?” I asked

“It’s closed on Sunday” he replied.

“If your ass can be up here then I can be up here.” I said with MAJOR attitude.

Andre knows that I get into “Angry Black Woman Mode” quickly so he didn’t press the issue. Not only that but that section the gym was not closed. As long as there isn’t a class going on up there any member can use it and many of us do. He just wanted to be alone with that chick so he can fill her up while playing personal trainer. Perv!

Anywho……………

So while I’m practicing my poses Andre says to me “You don’t never work out your legs. I never see you work your legs. All you do is cardio! That’s why you have more muscles on your upper body than your lower body!”

**insert record scratch sound**

I looked over at him with an evil expression and said “Who the hell you talkin’ to?”

“I’m just sayin’……….your legs should be as muscular like your upper body. Your legs are a little muscular but you all cock diesel up top. See? If I was your trainer I would have you balanced from head to toe”

“Are you a bodybuilder?” I asked

“No” he said

“Have you ever competed in a bodybuilding or fitness competition?”

“No”

“Then shut the f*ck up. When I want your advice I’ll give it to you.”

Did he listen? NOPE! You see, he was saying all of this to impress the chick he was half ass training. When I didn’t take what he said seriously then he felt the need to prove himself in front of her. BAD IDEA! So when he said “Well when you are tired of looking like shit then holla at ya boy. I won’t use this bad attitude of yours against you either. Shit! I’ll even give you a discount cuz sistas like you need to learn shit the hard way!”

Boxing bell “DING! DING!”

That’s was the last straw! Wonder twin powers ACTIVATE!

Form of Raging Black Woman!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I threw my towel to the floor and step right up to his face. I was beyond mad. I was furious. We talkin’ ready to go to jail for beating a n*gga’s ass furious! Before I said anything to him, I lift up his T-Shirt and poked at his 4 month old pregnant looking gut and begin to explain to him that I’ll never ask him for advice because I only ask advice from people who know what they are talking about. I also reminded him that he’s not a bodybuilder and never built his body hence why he looks like a pillsbury dough boy mascot. I also told him to never say anything else to me for the rest of the year.

Oh and I said all of this while using the words - F*ck you, Motherf*cker, “The N Word”, kiss my black ass, michelin man looking bastard, punta, ignorant, dumbazz, wanna be personal trainer,  shit for brains, beat down, more “n words” and azzhole.

I was so angry and loud that some of the guys came running up to the room to see what was going on. When they realized that I was 2 seconds from catching a case they pull me away from him. One of the owners came in and when he found out what had happen he told Andre to leave the room and wait for him in his office. The owner apologized to me and promised that this will never happened again. After the chick gave the members all the details of what was going on they decided to stay in the aerobics room and gossip about it. I eventually called it a day and left.
I guess I spoke to soon about being happy. It’s been a long time since I exploaded like that on some dumbass guy. The last time I got angry like that was when Mr 140 stepped to me wrong last summer.

Why do people who don’t know what the hell they are talking about insist on giving advice to those who know what they are doing? What makes them think that they are qualified to even SPEAK?!

I’m glad that happened because the entire gym will hear about it tomorrow. This will be some juicy hot gossip for the rest of the week. *sigh*

But there is one good thing that will come out of this. I won’t have to worry about unwanted advice from stupid people at my gym anymore.

Yesterday I kept my word and stuck to just ab work even though a huge part of me wanted to do some cardio. Today will be some of the same. I will do only one hour of cardio and that’s it.

I got a call from Sharon today (From the Lesbian Crew) and she wanted to check out my mental state. I told her that I wasn’t nervous or agitated. Hell I’m not even b*tchy. Since I’m in control of what’s going on with my life right now I feel good. So she ask me about my complexion and I tell her that I’m even toned all over so I don’t need to tan. Then we talked about oils and I told her that I made my own posing oil based upon my skin tone and type. I tested it out twice and it works like a charm. We go over my diet which checks out good and my workout which means from now on light weights with high reps. BOOOOOOO! Then she told me something that nearly knocked my socks off.

• 2 weeks out - No more baths
• 1 week out - No more showers

OMG!!!! First the no more sugar and Protein shakes 4 weeks out and now I can’t take a hot bath (which calms my nerves) 2 weeks out and then no more showers the week of the comp! What did I get myself into? LOL!!!!! Seriously though, I had no idea that preparing for a competition would include all this crap. We haven’t gotten to the water depletion part yet! So Yesterday was my last time taking a bath. Sharon says that my body will absorb the water from my long baths and that must stop. I also need to make my skin thin and tight as possible before the comp so no more baths 2 weeks out. This week I can only do showers (quick showers at that) and after that I have to use a wash cloth and wash my entire body with only a wash cloth. BOO AGAIN! So since this week is my last week for showers I’m gonna wash my hair today because I won’t have time to do it later this week.

WOW! I’m 2 weeks away from my very first competition as a female bodybuilder. I can’t wait to hit that f*cking stage and show everyone what a vegetarian amazon really looks like.

I’m so excited………..I could pee!

Today I am taking off. Well sort of. I’m doing abs today but that’s it. No cardio and no legs. I just realized that I have done some form of exercises everyday of the week for the past two  months. So I need the rest. Maybe I’ll take the weekend off and see if my body bounces back on Monday. Tomorrow I’ll be two weeks out and it’s time to give my body some TLC.

By the way here are my plans for the future. April 21 arrive in Germany and eat normal again for 10 days but still workout at the Gym in Germany while eating what I want. Arrive back in Atlanta on April 30. Start cut diet again for my first figure competition on August 16.

Yup I’m addicted.

Ok, time to prepare my gym bag for the gym.

cya

you know what I just realized? I’m not horny! As a matter of fact I haven’t craved sex in over  2 weeks. I have a HUGE crush on Dennis Wolf and he has a new website. Lots of sexy pictures and videos. All I could do was drool with my eyes but the other parts of my body didn’t respond to the eye candy I was viewing. AMAZING!

Oh before I forget I’m gonna give updates on my experience at my comp on LJ so all my "ride & dye" friends can get blow by blow of what’s actually going on. I will have my laptop with me so you guys be sure to go over there and check it out.

I’m so tired today and I can tell that my metabolism is getting sky high because I am starting to wake up early in the morning again on my own. I decided to do cardio when that happens. Right now I am very tired so I have a feeling I’ll be waking up at the proper time tomorrow.

Ok, that’s enough from me.

good night

You guys are gonna have to forgive me about my blog. I’m usually more active than this but for some reason sharing my thoughts and experiences have been secondary. I seem to find peace in my favorite forum "The IFBB". I enjoy being in there so much. Maybe I enjoy it so much because 95% of the time I’m the only female there. Don’t get me wrong, that section of BB.com is very "Boys Club" but I never had problems fitting into those types of clubs.

Anywho…………

Yesterday I was filming my leg workout and felt a sharp pain in my right knee during my last set of squats. It was so bad that I had to stop my entire leg workout. Don’t worry, it’s not injured but I remember that type of pain before.  The last time I felt that type of pain was when I was working out my shoulders. I ignored it and continued my workout. Two weeks later my shoulders were trashed and I had the famous BBers shoulder injury. This time I Know better and I’m not going to ignore the pain. It’s too close to the competition to start f*cking my body up. So with much regret I’m going to lay off my leg workout for the rest of this week.

My strength is weakening. I feel like such a wimp high reppin’ these light ass weights. Yeah, it’s an ego thing but I’m not gonna allow my ego to cause me to injure myself. In two days I’ll be 2 weeks out. I think I’ll just take it easy the next two weeks. I’ll keep up my cardio but take an easy with my weights. Besides, I can’t gain or lose muscles in 2 weeks so no need to go overboard.

I’ll upload the small video I did soon. I haven’t even transferred it to my computer yet. LAZY!

yup that’s me.

Cya!

So even though I’m 3 weeks out I don’t feel like my back is against the wall anymore. Now that I know what I’m dealing with I feel more at peace. Yesterday I worked on my calves, abs and did my cardio. Today I did morning cardio and later today I’ll go to the gym and work on my back and shoulders followed by another hour sessions of slow cardio. That slow cardio shit is booooooooooooring. I guess I got so use to HIIT cardio that anything else is like a snooze fest.

Everyday I polish up my posing routine and I work on my mandatory poses. My desire for chocolate cake is slowly leaving. It’s amazing isn’t it? When you’re told you can’t have something that’s the one thing you want the most. I didn’t do protein shakes often. Actually I would only do it in the morning and before bed. Even though I was only drinking it twice a day on most days I must admit that it was keeping the chocolate cravings at bay. Now that I am without my protein shakes the chocolate monster hunts me in my dreams at night.

This week is video blog week and I am going to film my leg workout. I am going to come in the gym at a very late time to ensure that my “Soul Train Dancing” friends aren’t out and about. I know you guys  love to see them act up in my video blog but I’ll have to film them another time. Suri said that my gym should have its own reality show. I agree because my gym is never boring, especially with all the colorful characters who attend on a regular bases.

So far I’m maintaining my weight but the inches are going down a little. I like it this way because my muscles look fuller instead of flat so what I’m doing is definitely working. I’m still holding on to some fat in my thighs and for the next two weeks I’m going to rep the hell out of them. I know the body doesn’t spot reduce but it’s worth the effort. OK, that’s enough from me. Hope everyone is having a great day.

Cya!

PS- I’ll respond to my blog friends when I get back from the gym later this evening.

Earlier today I got a PM from someone who noticed that I was competing and offered me to join a site forum that is dedicated to bodybuilders who compete. I wasn’t sold on joining another forum until he told me that this site had a panel of NPC Judges and IFBB Pros who will answer any and all questions you may have related to competing. So I went to the site out of curiosity and whatta ya know? He was right. So I joined, went to the NPC judge section and asked my question for the Judges to answer.

Hi,

Next month I’ll be entering a bodybuilding competition for the first time.

I’m entering into the novice division for both. I currently weigh 164lbs and I stand 6′2"

Being so tall one of the hardest things I’ve notice for me to develop are my legs. Especially since that is the part of my body that stores so much fat. My leg muscles are slowly coming in but not as fast as I want them to. However, everything else is coming in nicely. My main advantage is that I have abs and last year I noticed that most women in the novice division didn’t have any.

Here are my questions.

How many points are taken off for semi developed legs?

Most of the other females who compete will be no taller than 5′7" or 5′8". If you were a judge and saw line up of women with similar height and then one female who was extremely tall towering above them all would you critique her (the tall female) harder than the others? Especially being that she stands out from the rest due to her height?

thanks for your answer in advance.

This is the answer from one of the Judges who monitor that section of the forum.

On stage (this applies to men too), if one particular competitor towers over all the others in height, the eyes instantly get drawn to that competitor, and also since they are so much bigger, everything, including the flaws, will stand out so much more. And since the eyes will constantly keep going back to that competitor, even if it’s subconscious, that competitor will be much more scrutinized than the others.

Regarding points, points are relative to the other competitors. Meaning, you don’t get points awarded for various weaknesses or strengths, but for placings in relation to the other competitors.

If I think one person deserves to be first, I’ll give them 1 point. Second place, will get 2 points from, third place 3 points, and so on.
Then all the points from all the judges get added (highest and lowest thrown out) and the competitor with the lowest overall score wins.

You see, I knew this was the case. Hence why I am always talking about bringing in my legs, bringing in my legs, bringing, bringing, brining in my legs. I want to be complete as possible because I’ll be the tallest thing on the stage. ALL EYES WILL BE ON ME!

This is why my shit gotta be tight! My pose has to be on point. My routine has be outstanding and my body has to be close to perfect as possible.  I have to bring my “A” game. When I stand up on stage I will not blend in with the other girls. This is why I am so obsessed with my training. I’m aware that the audience will focus on me but now I have confirmation that the judges will too.

So in other words, I won’t have it easy and you know what? I’m OK with that. If I get critiqued harder than the other females just because I’m extremely tall then that means I have to work three times as hard to be the best one on stage. Why? BECAUSE ALL EYES WILL BE ON ME!

How’s that for pressure? LOL!!!!!

good night.

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In two days I’ll be 3 weeks out.

LOL!!!!!

PS- I can’t stop thinking about chocolate cake! Arrrrrrrgh

Before I begin I need to vent for two seconds.

THIS NO MORE PROTEIN SHAKES FOR THE NEXT FOUR WEEKS SUCKS BIG SALTY MONKEY BALLS!!!!!!!!

There! I feel all better now.

Anywho, now that the weather is changing and it’s getting a little warmer here in Atlanta I’ve decided to stop driving to my gym for cardio and walk around my neighborhood for an hour. I forgot how peaceful that is and you get the see all the cute little animals like rabbits and squirrels running around. Ahhhhhh! I love nature.

Today is Leg day and I’ll be heading to the gym later on this afternoon to get that out of the way. I also practice on perfecting my posing routine immediately after my second cardio session. Hell! Doing that is cardio in itself! Phhhf! Speaking of my gym two of the four owners gave me a nickname and for some reason it caught on with the other members of my gym (except my friends). Ever since those guys took over I’ve been complaining about this and that So in order to shut me up they stopped accepting money from me for locker rent. I have my own locker Free of charge now. They put an “Out Of Order” sign on my favorite treadmill in the evenings so no one can use it until I get there. HA! If I don’t like the music being played they will switch it to another station provided it’s not techno (Everyone at my gym think techno music is for gay people only! LOL!!!!) So with all this being done the owners have been calling me “Diva”. At first they called me this due to my constant complaining. Something like this………..

Me speaking to one of the owners “Hey? There’s no more paper towels in the cardio section and the disinfectant bottle is almost empty. Someone needs to take care of that.”

One of the owners will reply sarcastically, “Yes Diva, we’re sorry for your inconvenience. Please give us a moment to rectify the situation.”

Then he would tell one of the staff members that “Diva” complained about the paper towels and disinfectant bottles which would result in the staff member taking care of it. So this has been going on for the past two months and since I was coming to the gym twice a day they have gotten to know my ways.

So yesterday when I was working on my biceps on the the regular members came up to me and said “Hey Diva? You’re looking good girl! You gonna knock ‘em dead at your competition.”  I thought to myself “Diva? Where did he get that from?” So I asked him and he said that he hear the staff call me that all the time. “As a matter of fact one of the owners told the staff to clean out the aerobics room before “Diva” arrives. When I asked him who is Diva he told me that it’s the tall sista with the long dreds” he said

I laughed to myself when he said that. Personally I don’t mind being called Diva just as long as the owners keep the gym up to par. Hell! I’m still mad about that Holyfield thing!  So far I haven’t complained about anything in over a week but I’m sure that will change soon. My gym can’t keep a good thing going for long! Ugh!
Anywho………..

My body is really responding to this carb cycling thing so it’s a keeper. I’m getting 7 - 8 hours of sleep and sometimes a 30 minutes nap if I have time. I’m back to drinking my water and all is well in my world.

Ok, time to clean up my junky room and run some errands.

cya!

February 12, 2008 - STATS

• Weight - 171 pounds (Lost 10 pounds)
• biceps - 13 1/2
• Waistline at belly button - 29
• Waistline below belly button - 31
• Hips - 40 inches
• Upper thigh right leg - 23
• Upper thigh left leg - 23 1/2
• Middle thigh right leg - 19 1/2
• Middle thigh left leg - 20 1/2
• Calves - 15

March 16, 2008 - STATS

• Weight - 164 pounds (Lost 7 pounds)
• biceps - 13
• Waistline at belly button - 28
• Waistline below belly button - 30
• Hips - 38 inches
• Upper thigh right leg - 22
• Upper thigh left leg - 22 1/2
• Middle thigh right leg - 19
• Middle thigh left leg - 20
• Calves - 15 1/2

Stay tuned for Progress Pictures. I’m running behind today due to having some early morning clients. I have to leave soon to go to the gym.

cya!

The clock is ticking down! The next thing I will know it will be time to walk up on that stage. That will be the time to show everyone (including myself) that all things are possible as long as you have faith and believe in yourself. I have no doubt that I will be my best and the best at my comp.

Speaking of comp, I uploaded some old songs that I had on my laptop to my new ipod shuffle. I wanted to hear something hardcore like "Rammstein" during my bicycling cardio and something mellow and soulful during my treadmill cardio. While listening to the mellow and soulful music an old song that I adore came on called "Closer" by Goapele. I forgot that I had this song on my Itunes. As soon as I heard it something clicked deep inside me I instantly visualized myself posing to this music. This song touched my inner being. I hopped off the treadmill and ran into the cardio room to practice. The posing moves came easily and I felt passionate about posing to this song. The song I was originally going to use for my posing routine was Snoop Dog "Sensual Seduction" but I found myself having to tone down my routine because my posing moves were too sexual like I was performing at a strip show. HA! But with this song I don’t have to worry about that because it speaks to the audience and judges how I really feel. I’m closer to my dream. I’m getting higher and higher. Closer to my dream. I’ve practiced posing to this song for over an hour and the routine is finished. Yes! That fast! I LIKE THIS SONG THAT MUCH! If I can feel a song deep within my soul it will show on stage and my posing routine would be passionate not someone going through the motions.  I know most people wouldn’t change their music 4 weeks out but I’m a dancer and changing music 4 weeks out is nothing! It’s a cake walk actually. I could change my music overnight and still have it down by comp day. Remember the posing routine is ONLY 60 seconds. Creating a 60 second posing routine is not hard in my eyes. Personally, I wish the judges would allow the routine to be longer like the pros. I thrive on performing in front of an audience and being up there for 3 or 5 minutes instead of 1 would be awesome. What a rush!

Anywho, I’m sure none of you have heard this song before so I included a youtube clip of it.  OMG! Did I mention how much I love this song? I created an awesome routine to it and I love the lyrics. It speaks exactly what I feel. I’ll film my posing routine the week before the comp on my video blog. But until then, here’s what the music I’ll be posing to.

If the video won’t show embedded CLICK HERE TO WATCH IT