goddessamazon’s BodyBlog

Well they don’t fit right!

It’s starting to get a little chilly here in Atlanta (Da A-T-L) and I made the switch to my fall clothes.

My sweatpants are falling down. These use to be my favorite pair. They don’t have the drawstring inside because once upon a time I didn’t need a drawstring. Now I can’t wear them anymore.

My jeans? UGH!!!! putting on my jeans is drama in itself. I can barely get them over my thighs let along my azz!

I put a hole under my arm in my favorite turtleneck shirt because my arms are too big.

I know this is a "good" problem to have but I don’t see it that way. I spent so much money on obtaining this transformation. I never thought I had get a new fall/winter wardrobe too.

Damn! I never thought bodybuilding would be this EXPENSIVE!!!!!!

Anyone else experienced this phase before?

I really trashed my shoulders from last Thursday because they were still sore yesterday when I went back to the gym. I barely made it through my chest workout. I had to take Friday off. My legs were extremely sore from doing sprints and my shoulders were cussing me out from working them too hard last Thursday. I never spent so much time on the floor. It felt good to be down there………just laying……………staying still. Ahhhhhhh!

Today is a rest day and I’m just going to chill out because tomorrow is leg and shoulders. DOMs or no DOMs those muscles will be worked! I’m going to do sprints afterwards too.

Lawrd help me!

PS- Thanks Jon! The Epsom salt suggestion worked.

I started my sprints again yesterday and I did some more today. I hit my shoulders hard but not with heavy weights. I did a lot of reps. How many? Like 20 - 25 and most times until failure.

So guess what. In order to type this message I had to literally craw to my office and grab my laptop off my desk. Right now I am on the floor typing this entry. It hurts too much to sit in a chair or walk. This here floor is my friend.

**pats the floor**

Awww! That’s a good floor. Who’s a good floor? You’re a good floor! Yes you are……..yes you are!

Ladies and Gentlemen I hurt so bad that………….

Brace yourself

My legs and arms hurt so badly that I’m not going to the gym tomorrow!!!!

Yes, I’m in that much pain!

Now that my shoulder pain went away I really enjoy working out my shoulders. I make sure I keep down to moderate weights with lots of reps. No more heavy weights for my shoulders until they get stronger.

You know what?

I need a massage! I really do! My body hurts and I’m tired of massaging people and not getting one myself. Especially since I need it the most. Ugh! Unfortunately, a good massage therapist cost money and I just can’t spend money on a massage therapist every week or every other week. There’s a massage school 10 minutes away from me and they offer student massages for only $25 an hour. The reason why it’s so cheap is because you are being used as an instructional tool. The student massages you and the teacher stands there and watches. If the student does something wrong the teacher will stop and correct him/her. No soft music, no candles and no peace but you do get the massage.

Maybe I should do that anyway just for the hell of it. What do you all think?

I got my first leg cramp yesterday just like Doc said I would. Did I get the electrolytes like he suggested? Of course not! That’s why I got those cramps! But guess what? My ass will in the herb shop today buying some! BELIEVE THAT!!!!!!!!

Ok time to get ready to hit the gym.

cya!

That’s what one of my BBing friends ask me yesterday. He told me that he doesn’t want me to quit. I was surprised with his remark because I never gave any signs that I was quiting.

Me? Quit? Is he kidding? NEVER!!!!!

Do you know how much money I spent on supplements, equipment and food for this transformation?

Do you know how many books and DVD’s I purchased specifically dedicated to BBing?

Before I started this transformation I would travel out of the country every other month. When I got back from Germany this past March I stayed in America. I decided to stop traveling until I competed in my first BBing competition. That in it’s self was a big change!

I rearranged my work schedule so that I can have quality time in the gym.

I called off my engagement and dumped my fiancee because he wasn’t supportive.

I attend every BBing competition held in my area to observe my future competitors.

Even if I had a bad day and time was limited I always found a way to get in the gym. If anything or anyone stands in the way of my transformation or distracts me from my transformation goals, I simply get rid of them. I never give it a second thought nor regret my actions later.

That’s how bad I want this! I am making the sacrifices to obtain this goal and I will reap the rewards come April when I get my trophy up on that stage.

I know there are people who join this website vowing to make that change. They stay motivated for a month…….maybe two and then **POOF** They’re gone.

The same thing goes for the "talkers" in the gym. They join the gym and come in there religiously every week. After 4 or 5 weeks their attendance starts to dwindle down.  When they first started they came in the gym 6 days a week, then it went down to 3 days a week and that drifted to every other week until finally, they just stop coming.

Some people want it and some people want it badly! Those who want it badly will stick to it no matter what. Gaining muscles doesn’t happen overnight. I realized this so I will stay on this road (the road to greatness) until I reach my goals. I don’t care how long it takes. Once I reached my goals I will continue to go further and push myself even harder.

Quiting is not in my vocabulary. It’s not an option nor is it something I think about.

Why? Because I want this transformation badly.

Today was the second day I took the creatine. I’m still constantly going back and forth to the bathroom to urinate but not like this past Saturday. My squat workout kicked my ass and it didn’t seem like the creatine was helping me pump the weight back up once I hit below parallel. It didn’t seem like the creatine actually kicked in until it was time for me to do my deadlifts. All of my other exercises went well except for my squats. I think what I’ll do is stop doing squats first and put them in the middle or end of my workout. That way the creatine would have been in full effect by then. You know what else I noticed, my left bicep is feeling fuller. This happened Saturday too. I kept looking down at my left bicep expecting to see it inflate like a balloon. That’s what if felt like, an inflating balloon. What’s that all about?
So far I really like the creatine. I realized that some people have a different experience than others. I read that some people are peeing all through the night. That’s not the case with me. All my peeing is throughout the day. Some people say that the creatine bloats them. That’s not the case with me either. Then again maybe it’s too early to tell. I’ll see what’s going on with me after being on it for a week. So far I like it. I don’t rest long in between my reps and I can push myself a little further with the weights. Today was legs and shoulders. Tomorrow is back and biceps. Oh and I forgot to mention this. My means of bulking is apparently working. However, I don’t see it but others see it. Today I had two of my gym buddies ask me what I was doing? When I gave them this crazy look they said that they noticed that I added on some size. I smiled and told them that I was bulking up before I start my cutting in January. They noticed this last week (before the creatine) so I must be doing something right. Unfortunately, I can’t see what they see………………yet.

Once upon a time I use to have a red phone book with numbers of men (and a few women) that were strictly used for sex. When I called or when they called me it was all about getting busy in the bedroom…………….or floor……………or sofa……………or dinner table………wherever. After calling off my engagement this past May I’ve been so busy with transforming my body and dealing with my businesses that I don’t have time to find people to put in my booty call phone book. Sure I’ll meet a guy here or there but so far the guys I’ve been meeting all want…………….RELATIONSHIPS!!!!!

Blah! Blah! **spits bad taste out her mouth for saying the "R’ word**

YUK!

Click here to hear what I want!

I don’t have time to visit the bars or clubs or parties so finding people to put on this list is going to be kind of hard. But there has to be a way. There just gotta be a way! DAMMIT!