getmesweaty’s BodyBlog

when change happens..u can either resist and rebell the whole time..or u can prepare urself, look for the positives and embrace what the future holds..i have spent my whole life trying to avoid change..and when change happened..i would be overwhelmed and discouraged..but today..i am ready for change..my clean diet starts tomorrow..i have told very few people in my "real" life about my diet, as they have all rolled their eyes or gave me that "sure, whatever" look on their face..today it is not about them..it is about me..facing my worst fears..my body..my mind..my excuses..my lack of knowledge and my expertise in avoidance..i am excited..yet scared to death..i havent slept in days as my mind is fighting demons of temptation but i need to win this fight..i want the change i know can happen..bring on monday..  

I think it is both good and bad that people can use this site as a "guest"..i know i visited bb for nearly 6 months before i got up the nerve to add my own page as i just didnt think i fit in with so many amazingly beaufitful, fit and healthy people, and it was great being able to track the progress of my good friend that first told me about bb without having a site. But..what i dont like is that u can log in as a "guest" and leave people mean or totally inappropriate comments. If you want to share ur anger/hate/disgust/superiority..this really is not the site u should be on, as most everyone on bb r great people willing to support, inform and motivate each other.  And the fact that u haters feel u can leave those nasty comments is just not ok..if u can’t handle showing who u r when u "speak ur mind"..why would any of us that get the mean comments even care to read them..as u r a nameless, faceless person..OH WAIT..guess what?? those of us with a real site can block comments from guests..we can still see what u write..but none of our friends have to read ur vulgarity..and when u leave a comment ur email address shows up..did u realize that?? i bet u wouldnt be so mean if u knew u could be tracked back.. 

sooo..one of my addictions is checking to see who has visited my site on here..and i have to say..it drives me CRAZZZEEE to see people that i have not talked to before or r not on my friends list check my page and not even say a word or two..no encouragement..no comments..nothing..i think all of us on this site r here to either motivate or be motivated..and a visit without words just sucks..especially when it is obvious u talk to others..makes me all self conscious and curious as to why u pick to visit certain peoples sites and talk on some and not on others

i think it ticks me off more now cuz lately i feel that so many of my "good friends" from here have just disappeared or have shown that they either judge me or turned out to not be the type of friends i thought they were..and in this crazy world..u can never have enough friends!!

oh..and a message just asking for more pics doesnt count as encouragement, support or motivation..

Everything we do in life has trickle down effects on other people..and most of the time we dont even realize it.  My gym just closed..not because it didnt have enough members, not because they were loosing money, not because it was in a bad location..it closed because the owner of the gym choose to commit a felony crime.  He broke the law..and it is going to land him years and years in prison (he gets sentenced later this month) so on Thursday last week they came and locked the gym..didnt warn us..we were told for months "no worries, the gym will have new owners take over soon", but now we hear they r auctioning off all the equipment tomorrow..uugghh this sucks.  Cuz not only did he commit a crime that is effecting the rest of his life, he directly changed the life of one specific victim and her family, and he violated all of us that have prepaid gym contracts (I am paid in full for another year and a half..and coming up with that money was not easy for me).  Now for some, money is no object..joining a new gym is just a given..but for others, it is just one more set back that could mean days, weeks or months out of the gym.  I am sure he thought that some people will be ticked at him with all the violated contracts, but does he really think about the trickle down..having us need to scrape up money to try to join another gym, take extra time out of our already too busy lives to drive to another one (my gym was 4 minutes from my house) or the fact that so many of us struggle with going to the gym anyways..that once we find one we r comfortable in going to can be a huge step backwards in progress when it closes.  Most of u know training is not something that is natural or instictive to me..and for nearly all of my life i let excuses stand in the way of self success..so i sulked a bit on Thursday..but after a local friend gave me some tips on out of gym training..and i had some major self talk with myself..i feel my focus for working out is truly back..regardless of being without a gym..i need to take advantage of the equipment i have at home..use our awesome lake michigan as a workout facility..and really find a focused workout partner or two to keep my motivation in check.