Tummy Be Gone…

It’s Saturday morning and I’d thought I’d write about how my first week of dieting is coming along so far.

At the beginning of the week, I was pumped. I cooked lots of chicken and cooked veggies and even made muffins out of my egg white and oatmeal breakfast just so that I could microwave it every morning instead of making it all over again.

As Tuesday rolled around and classes began, I really got a feel of how hard this is all going to be. I packed my snack and lunch to take with my to classes, but I would end up coming home so late that it took everything in me not to cave in and eat "whatever" was lying around. It was hard eating chicken and veggies, but I did it.

On Wednesday, my day was insane. I was in either in class, or in the library from 8 in the morning and when I got home at 5, I just ate cereal and went to bed at 6.30 pm and woke up the next morning at 6 am! I slept for 11.5 hrs!!! Forget working out; I was just so tired.

Thursday morning started off on a positive note. I worked out immediately after waking up and had a very good breakfast. But, when I got home from classes (again late in the afternoon) I was drained! I just didn’t want to do anything anymore. My little sister, who lives with me, is also watching her food intake. It’s great that we’re both in this together, but since she eats pretty much what I’m eating, I ran out of chicken! Uh Oh! So, I went grocery shopping and loaded up on the chicken, but didn’t cook because I was again, pooped out.

Yesterday, I didn’t have class, but I went to the library and read anyway. Then, we went shopping and what was supposed to be a brief trip to the mall, turned into a marathon shopping experience. I didn’t buy anything much because when I saw my middle in the Macy’s fitting room, I felt kind of gross. So, I just bought black flowy tops and got out of there. By the time we were done with our shopping trip, it was 2.30 and we were famished. There was no food at home, so we decided to eat out. I got a salad from a mexican place, but it had rice in it and even though it was yummy, I felt really bloated afterwards. I can’t even imagine how much salt it had. (Apparently A LOT because I am 5 lbs heavier on the scale this morning!!!) BUT, I’m going to honest here. It wasn’t just the heavy mexican food. It was also the brownies I "treated" myself too afterwards that are the reasons behind the bloating. Thing is, when I "cheat," I cheat like there’s no tomorrow. I ate so much that I felt really awful, but I justified my behavior by telling myself that it was a cheat meal (even though my cheat meal turned into a cheat day!)

So, Saturday’s here and I’m back on BB.com reading bodyblogs and trying not to feel like a hoax, who is putting forth a half-ass effort to lose weight. I know that people on this site are going to read this blog and think, "she’s so not into this," and for the most part they are right. People here are really hard-core and really pushing themselves to live their best life. I wonder what’s holding me back from living mine?