Tummy Be Gone…

I was at the grocery store today and I saw a woman (my age) dig into a basket of Quaker Oats Chewy 90 calorie bars. They were on sale and she kept on piling the boxes of those bars in her cart. Now, she was quite overweight and shouldn’t be eating that junk in the first place. False advertising makes us believe that just because it’s a 100 calorie pack, or whatever it’s OKAY to eat it. Well, it’s not and I just wanted to walk up to her and tell her that. But I didn’t. How could I? I’m not the best example of healthy eating myself. I’ve been battling with food my whole life and I’m still overweight. Yet, I’m grateful that I’ve educated myself about healthy food choices and know what to eat and what not to eat. Now whether I stick to healthy food choices is a totally different matter.

I’ve been working out consistently since May and it was only when I fixed my diet (thanks to Stevep78) that I noticed some changes in my body. I lost a dress size in less than a month! I was doing so well, but lately something in my head is just not clicking. In fact, the past week has been awful. I’ve been trying to stay on track, but I keep sabotaging myself.

It seems that every time I make a few small changes in my body, something inside me just shuts off and I revert back to my old ways. I never stop exercising; I just start eating like a pig and that’s exactly what I’ve been doing all week. I start my day committed and ready. I eat my oatmeal and egg whites; but once I’m at work, I just go into "sabotage mode." I don’t eat my meals, or (I’m so ashamed to say this) I buy peanut butter crackers from the vending machine Once I’m home, I eat more crackers (same kind) and I’ll have cereal for dinner instead. I hadn’t planned my meals for this week either, so it’s no wonder that I was "planning for disaster."

Regardless of any of the above, I wonder why, when I know how important getting in shape is for me (I’m supposed to run a half marathon in October for crying our loud!!!) I keep sabotaging myself. Why? Why? Why?

I really need to stop this madness and keep reminding myself how badly I need to change. More important, I need to figure out why I’m my own biggest enemy…

I started running in January and after finishing a 5K in April (with much effort), have signed up for a half marathon in October. I have lots of weeks to train for the marathon, but lately, I’ve been in a horrible running slump!

I don’t know what’s going on with me, but this week, I can’t run. While I could do three miles, this week I can’t run more than 10 minutes at a time and it’s driving me insane. I have no idea why my body is behaving like this, but it’s driving me crazy!

I don’t want to give up, but this is very discouraging to say the least. Anyone have any ideas on what’s going on?