Depressed
Today is not a very good day. My life seams out of my control. It just sucks! The love of my life lives in another state, my ex is taking me to the cleaners and I cant do anything about any of it. I dont know why I’m writing this here. Other than I have no life I was married for 17 years and have 4 beautiful kids. My ex didnt allow me to have any friends durring our marrage(yes I was whipped). ie I have no friends. Now I’m all alone. All I have is work and sometimes my kids when it’s my turn. I never was a bad husband or father she cheated on me. Why am I the one who has to pay for it! I have allways tried to do the right thing in life, take care of those less fortunate than me, and do a good turn daily. I just keep getting knocked down and I’m getten tired of getting back up. Any way I’ll get back up again because I never quit. If you dont adversity wins and I wont let it.
August 3, 2008 at 2:49 pm
Dude, there is no freakin’ way on earth that I would be the one paying if she is the one that F’d up. I’d quit my job, and live in the woods before I would pay. NO CHANCE. Make a stand, and tell her it’s ain’t gonna hapen. She wanted out, fine get out, but not with money too.
August 3, 2008 at 5:17 pm
You are going to have to put the whole money thing into a different corner of your mind for a while and get control of your feelings.
If you are going to gain control you need to concentrate on you and you alone. Not on who did what to whom or who has to pay for what.
Yes, your children are very important but unless you take control of your emotions and get a good firm grip on your depression you will not be a very positive person in their lives and they need that form you.
Depression is horrible, I know, I lived it and almost died from it, so if at all possible you do not want to sink any deeper.
I do not know if you are a religious man? I wasn’t but am now and I find so much strength from the church and the bible and of course from believing in God. I am not going to preach, I am going to say this just once, if you feel that you have no one in your life and you are falling down a deep dark hole, get your butt to a church and speak with a pastor, priest, rabbi or leader of whatever denomination you feel is yours. YOU ARE NOT ALONE!
Now, I said I would only say that once, so the next best thing is to not drink alcohol when you feel like this or take any drugs – been there done that it don’t help!!!!!!
Try to eat good food and go to the gym.
Now you are going to say what is this nut talking about?
To keep your strength up and your body in condition to fight off stress you need to eat well and you also need to lift some weights and take a long walk on a treadmill.
Believe it or not, there is a bright future for you and although you may not be able to see it for all the blackness in your life, millions of us, yes, millions of both sexes, have gone through what you are going through and have come out the other side and are proof that life goes on.
I could go on for a long time but I won’t.
What I will do is offer my friendship.
If anything that I said here strikes a cord or makes sense then you are most welcome to email me and I will try and do whatever I can to assist you. If not, no harm done.
Errol N. Hannigan aka: Captain Ahab
enh@telus.net