fromflabtofab’s BodyBlog

So for the last week, my goal was to lose 10 pounds.  Crazy thing is it happened.  But I wasn’t like deathly hungry.  I actually had to force myself to eat more.  So cleaning up what you eat totally makes sense. You just need to know what you want to eat.  

This is what I sent to my D-Team forum for the cutting contest:

What would you do if I told you I haven’t had hunger pains in a week, and I’ve been FULL all week?
Huh guys? What would you do?

Because I haven’t. And I have had TROUBLE getting up to 2500 calories! The ONLY day I got over 2600 calories this week is when I ate 17 ounces of a STEAK! I think I’ve found what works for me… and I have NO desire to eat out! I LOVE the food I have.  

So here are some ideas:

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 It’s nice enjoying what you eat. 

So, I got a myspace message from Altarboyz Chicago.   My favorite musical. I’m going to see it Sunday. Anyway, they are holding open call auditions on February 1.  I feel too fat…. I can’t make it… Wait! Who cares. This is your dream! DO IT! Try out. What’s the worst thing that can happen? You meet some cool people. You can give it a try!  They won’t take you if you’re not ready.  Ok FINE! So here are the dances. They’re hokie to some. For me, it’s AMAZING.  It’s so much fun.  So don’t make fun. It’s my dream.

 And HERE is the Chicago cast. The one I fell in love with:

I’ve been learning the dances.  They’re quite complicated.  I’m thinking of putting myself on youtube. What do you think? AHHHHHH

Right?  Thanks for those of you who gave good comments.  I’m doing "better."  I went off Hydroxycut because my stash ran out! I wonder if those things are addictive.  I think they made me feel a bit dependant.  The weight came off so quick.  But I was emotional.  And after 5.5 weeks I was depressed out of my gourd.  I had a wonderful wine binge with a food binge to follow. And realized I don’t like food anymore!  I prefer clean food to junk food.  However, I still have that addiction to stuffing my face when I feel bad.  But it never is as fulfilling as it used to be. 

So this morning I ate a good breakfast.  I am going to have a good workout tonight because it’s Zumba day.  I have an interview tomorrow for the PT job.  And I was roped into singing this week at church.  I’m the choir director not a singer! BAH! Oh well. It’s my last weekn on stage for a while.  I stepped down because I felt empty with the church stuff. We’ll see…

 Hmmm.. I like that song. "We’ll see" from Rent. Wow, I was listening to Copland. Tis a gift to be simple, Tis a gift to be… OOOOO Let’s switch to a musical about HIV awareness and a crazy lifestyle! Logical transition… Quaker to Bohemian! SWEET! 

 HA! Dani, you thought YOU were ADHD!

So I don’t know how to deal with this.  I finally got enough guts to call my counselor last night. But his phone was not accepting calls.  And now, I finally get a hold of him and he says he can’t meet this week. Not that I should expect him to.  I haven’t talked to him in a while.  But here I am.  I feel so bad.  I almost was reduced to sobs.  It’s not like I’m this pansy who just cries over spilled milk.  I’m overtaken with uncontrolable pain.  Emotional pain.  That makes me physically sick.  It’s so bad that I couldn’t even bring myself to go to my favorite class at the gym today.  It’s the dance class too.  The one I never get to go to because of my music lessons, but the lessons canceled. 
I watched a movie last night where a guy turned to drugs to release.  I won’t do that. But what I saw in the movie was VERY interesting. He got so deep he lost his best friend. After a few months, he reunites with his best friend and he loses it in front of his best friend. His best friend leaves him alone in his apartment because he has moved on because he can’t do it anymore. Makes sense because it hurts so bad to see the druggie in that state.  The druggie is then seen in a high state freaking out. He is halucinating that there are people behind him. He goes to hit him and his hand goes into a window.  You watch the blood trickle out of his wrist.  Ever wonder what that feels like?  And then there’s Heath Ledger….. But I’m sure you know about that story. Don’t worry I’m not going to do anything stupid. BUT it’s hard when those things pop up in your life sometimes.

 So I don’t know. I just needed to get that out. Thanks for listening.

So Yesterday was not so good.  I did a ton of conditioning. My LIFESTYLE is changing.  I’m not so into "weight lifting" but dance, fitness, and functional training.  I do enjoy lifting, but since I’ve been on Hydroxycut, it’s just been whatever.  Perhaps my life is run by supplements and I don’t MIND that.  But now I understand why people sometimes equate bbers with having addictive personalities.  I mean for goodness sake, how much powder DO we put in our bodies a day? How many pills?  But they make our body better right?  MAYBE.  Alas,  that brings me to my VLOG! What DO you put in your body? 

 :::Does Jafar voice::: My leej (how DO you spell that) suggested I eat 2500 calories a day.  So I checked my math in the last vlog and now I wanted to know how much of each food I should eat.  Carbs, Protein, Fat, blah blah blah.   So what does the USDA say?  Oh I know this one…. :::Johnny Carson voice:::: I’m thinking of a number….  OK wow.. that’s so my mom’s generation not mine.  Anyway, 55-65% of our diet should be carbs, 25-30% of our diet should be fat, and 12-20% of our diet should be protein!  Or so says Mr. federal I like to tell people not to be fat USDA recommended mutha fella.  But I don’t like that.  So I kept my 25% fat because I like fat… Or so Dr. Phil says. (I’ll vlog on that tonight).  But as a "body builder" haha I wish, I want more protein.  So I am splitting it down the middle. 37.5% of Carbs and Protein each.  That’ll do, pig. :::do pig voice::: BAH RAM EWE! YAY Babe reference. 

WOW! I feel so ADD. I love when the HC gives me a pickmeup. Speaking of which, I have ONE more dose left. Should I buy more? COME ON GUYS, I need to know.  So let’s vote!  Yay! or :::horse voice::: NEIGH!  Ok wow so many voices.

 Here’s my rant from yesterday: I don’t want to confess more than once.

 And for you my king:

I used to have hams… Now, I have… canadian bacon? hmmmm  I was at the orthodontist yesterday and the assistant said to me, "I hope you don’t mind me saying, you lost a lot of weight." I said, "Actually I do.  What am I just a piece of meat?  Tell me I’m fat.  Now spank me!" Ok no I said,’ thank you.’  But it would have been hilarious if I said spank me… Yes, you shall give us ALL a spanking. And then… the…. nevermind. :::that of course was done with an english accent:::

Sweet! So the voice count for today?

1 disney

2 animals

1 old dead guy

1 horny english woman.

Oh dear. I better stop. (Don’t forget to tell me if I should by my Hydroxycut. I’ve lost over 20 pounds in 5.5 weeks.  I have 40 more fat pounds to lose.  And it’s nice. I can have cheat days and not BALLOON even though I gain like 4 pounds but it’s all water. Gotta love it). 

Waddup yo?  So I must bow to my king and admit he’s right. I’ve been struggling with a bunch of cheat days.  I get so upset when I’m over 2500 calories a day. And the King mentioned that I should be at least at 2500.  Well, I decided to put my new found Personal Training knowledge to the test.  I took the Harris-Benedict Caloric Needs formula.  You take your height, weight, and age into a formula and figure out how much your Basal Metebolic Rate is.  I found out that I need 2500 calories just to function! If I’m working out heavy (working out 6 times a week) I need almost 4400 calories! 

So here’s the vblog.  You’ll be able to see a walk through on how to figure out your own metabolic rate.  I suggest everyone check it out!

What is your caloric needs

1 inch = 2.54 centimetres. 1 kilo = 2.2 pounds 

BMI men= 66 + (13.7 x weight in kilos) + (5 x height in centimetres) - (6.8 x age in years) 

BMI women= 655 + (9.6 x weight in kilos) + (1.8 x height in centimetres) - (4.7 x age in yrs) 

• If you are sedentary (little or no exercise, desk job) multiply BMR by 1.2 

• If you are lightly active (light exercise/sports 1-3 days per week) multiply your BMR by 1.375 

• If you are moderately active (moderate exercise/sports 3-5 days per week) multiply your BMR by 1.55 

• If you take heavy exercise (hard exercise/sports 6-7 days per week) multiply your BMR by 1.725 

Hey, ok so here I am at 1PM and I’ve already eatten my usual daily caloric intake. What do I do?  I am sliding down a slippery slope. It’s only been 2 days.  But last week was bad.  And this week is not getting any better.  All the work I did on Sunday through Wednesday is now gone.  What do I do?  I feel like I’m slipping and I won’t be able to get out of it.  Sure I start off the day, but half way through, I’m dying.  It’s killing me.  I’m lethargic throughout the day.   I feel tired all the time.   No drive.   I do my exercising. It gives me reprive, but it’s like I’m doing it for nothing when I eat like I do.

 So the slope seems too steap!  I want to run a marathon.  I want to dance in a broadway show.  But I feel like it’s lightyears away.  And it’s really not. It’s not more than 3-6 months away if I can discipline myself. But when you’re depressed it’s so hard.  And I’m so sick of saying I’m depressed, but I don’t know how to get rid of it.  Ahhh verbal vomit. yay.

No I’m not talking about the number of steps you’re supposed to take to live a healthy life, I’m talking about calories.  Can someone actually consume 10k a day on an ongoing basis? Sure. 

The story all started when I decided to create a forum group for people who are 6′ and taller. Then some troll comes along and tried to jab me. How did a guy get a belly like you?  WTF do you eat? Burgerking 4 times a day? I responded by saying, "No actually, it was 4 years of depression coupled with the chinese buffet, but thanks for caring to ask."    Anyway, it got me thinking how DID I get that belly?  So I wrote down what I used to eat in a day.  It was a bit scary. I thought it would end up with about 6K calories. I was down by 4K. 

I used to eat out at least 3 times a day. I would eat chinese buffet 8 times a week and obviously, there are only 7 days in a week. You do the math.  So anyway, here’s today’s vlog about all I would eat in a day.

So being a gluton, I know that I have a problem with putting things in my mouth.  Chicken legs, pies, burritos, etc.  So what do I do when I need to eat something but I do not want to consume calories? I hate gum.  I can’t chew it. It all started when I was 8 years old and watched Willy Wonka.  As I watched Violet eat the 7 course gum, she turned into a blueberry.  Not only was I already terrified of falling into a lake of chocolate (which I was SURE I could drink my way out of), I was scared to chew gum.  I wasn’t going to turn into no blueberry.  So I can’t chew gum.  Still 18 years later, I still can’t do it.  So what do I do when I need to fill my stomach and want to taste something decent? 

Here’s the answer:

Alright…. want to know how I on my certification test?