frogprincess72’s BodyBlog

haha… i can deny it no longer… it’s official.. I’M AN ADRENALIN SEEKING, SWEAT LUVING, ENDORPHIN NEEDING JUNKIE!! I have suspected it for a while now, and many have told me, but like the true addict, i have been in denial. until today……yesterday was my day off from training.. and let me tell you, i was a mell of a hess! i was at work all day and all i wanted to do was train. i was grumpy unlike any grump i have ever seen.. i have been known to throw out a curse word here and there, when it lends itself to the conversation, but i had the mouth of a truck driver yesterday! i couldn’t sit still… i couldn’t concentrate.. heck, i couldn’t even fold the towels the right way (i know… BLASPHEMY!.. i’m soooooooooooooooo getting yelled at, is all i could keep thinking)… And when poor hubby made it home he knew right away what was up.. He didn’t say a thing… he just started cleaning (13 years has taught him well)… and every once in a while he would let out a little chuckle.. i knew he was laughing at me and the hormonal hag in withdrawl that i had become… and i laughed too… and when little man woke up suddenly and threw up all over his bed, i went into a complete melt down! haha.. OH FOR THE LUV OF GOD is what i have been told escaped my lips at a very loud volume.. i laugh at it now, as i hope you are too!! but seriously, here i was at 11 pm  (after having been up since 4 am) cleaning windows and dusting the wood blings and HE THROWS UP!?!?!?!? OMG!!! i’m thinking ‘it IS 24 hour fitness.. i could make it there and back in a few hours .. haha.. but no… i stay and help little man clean up, change his bed, and go back to washing windows.. hubby knows it’s safest for him to just say "i’m sorry you had a bad day.. tomorrow is your training day.. MAY i go to sleep now???" haha..

Well, i finally got to the point where i realized it wasn’t gonna get any better, so i willed myself to sleep as well.. it must have been about midnight.. we got up at 7 am and was sooooooooooooo ready to start cleaning again! which i did.. i was still experiencing some left over grumpy withdrawl symptoms, but i could see my fix.. and it was coming soon rather than later, so once little man woke up and he made his very clean bed, we were off.. (he wasn’t sick from the flu.. the baby sitter let him have 4 pieces of chocolate cake that night.. gonna have to have a little discussion with lil miss 15!!

the minute we got in the car to go to the gym, i could feel the grumpiness subsiding.. again, i was becoming ‘happy mommy’.. ‘i LIKE happy mommy" little man says.. and i give him a huge hug!! "i like happy mommy too" i tell him… then he says "why do u get up before the day even starts to train??" … lol… "because it’s what mommy does and what mommy loves" i tell him…. "can i train with you someday?" he asks…. "hunny, i would LOVE for you to train with me someday"….. and we both smile ……. the fix is near!!

btw… Today’s run was 60 minutes… and i have big news.. at least in my world it’s big!! I have shaved off a minute off my mile time!! I’m now running 8 MPH!!! and i felt good.. don’t get me wrong, i was tired and my face beet red but i did it!!

This subject has very little, if anything, about training.. But I’m so very very excited about something.. and here it is.. MY WILD FREE RANGE PET FROG IS BACK!!! (leave me be.. in my world, he is my pet) yes.. yes.. yes.. he has dug himself out of his wintery dirt grave and now he sings me a song every night.. yes, it’s a chorus frog.. and it is his lullaby that lulls me to sleep each night that he is here.. I know it is for a limited time only and in a day or 2 his companion will join him, before they both leave again… And then the bullfrogs will come back!! They make sleeping a tad bit more challenging, but it can be done .. Of course, hubby thinks i’m nuts cuz i open the window, even if it’s freezing outside or raining, so i can listen to my nighttime melody… And the neighbors?? well dont’ get me started! they want me to capture the frogs and "relocate" them, but i know what they mean by "relocation program"…

So why am i blogging about my wild pet frogs?? because they remind  me that Spring is upon us… and that means my training moves outdoors.. The running tights get put away and the running shorts come back out.. the brisk, cool morning air on my face during a run.. the smells of the spring flowers blooming.. (ok, not so good for the allergies, but it’s a small price to pay)… and soon, very very soon I will have my new bike!

My spirits have been high.. I still don’t know how I’m fitting in everything I need to be doing, but I am doing it somehow! My long trainings have been amazing. My recovery is so much better than when i was training for the marathon! It boggles my mind how much better conditioned I am this time around! Not only are my muscles recovering faster but my endurance is improving.. It’s beyond exciting to see what I am capable of, and I’m not even finished yet!!

Btw.. I found this great magazine at the gym today.. Womens sports and fitness!! Most of it is geared towards marathons/triathlons (right up my alley) but there’s something for all women.. But the best part was all the articles and features on the top female triathletes! so inspiring.. and motivating!! I LUV BEING AN ATHLETE!!

I just wanted to give all of you that supported and motivated and inspired me yesterday and today (and ALL the time) in my time of need and whine, a great big cyber hug! I can’t tell you how much it has meant to me.. Honestly! Today is heads and shoulders above yesterday, in terms of emotions, motivation and desire to continue to move forward as an athlete!

So, based on many of your suggestions, here is what I have decided to do…

1. Since I won’t have my early morning appointment with TJ anymore, I will continue to think of having that appointment and will still go to the gym at that time. I actually hooked up with a friend I’ve made at the gym today and she said "u have inspired me to start training and i’d love to be ur partner in training".. OH MY! so we’re meeting on thursday to take the morning spin class together.. She’ll be good for me cuz she’s a hard worker and has no problems sweating (i workout alone cuz i can never find someone who wants to actually run and sweat instead of just taking the obligatory walk on the treadmill)… AND she’s a talker! so we worked out the arrangement that she talks while we run and i listen and the time will pass quicker!

2. On May 18th, I will compete in the local half marathon run

3. On June 15th, I will compete in an olympic distance triathlon

4. I will continue to research buying vs. renting a race bike.

5. Since finances have been a concern, I have found that thru the college, I can get private swim lessons at half the cost of where I was going to go. This is perfect! Finances is another reason I am looking into the bike situation…

6. I will try to allow myself some quiet time every day. To allow myself to not feel like a failure if I don’t get EVERYTHING done in the day.

7. And I will continue to lean on everyone of you for support and seek it out when it is needed! And not see it as a sign of weakness but strength!

 So many, many, many thanks to each and every one of you! MUCH LUV!

Many of you have wondered how I’m doing the training I’m doing while also working and managing my family. And today I must truthfully admit, that I don’t know how I am doing it because I am at an all time low for motivation and desire. I know it will pass.. It always does. But 19 weeks till my ultimate goal just seems like an eternity away right now. I have no immediate short term goal, other than getting out of bed tomorrow, and that’s only because it’s a school day.

For the last 6 weeks, my goal and inspiration has been my trip to Indy. I just got back. During that time, I found out that my trainer is switching her schedule, so that means I either switch to training from the morning to training at peak time in the evening. And I can’t tell you how much I detest evening trainings! Sure, I’m probably going to feel the same way about mile 54 on the bike or mile 9.3 on the run, so I should just suck it up and deal, but it’s a shift in everything. Or my other option is to switch trainers and to be honest, I don’t know that any of the other’s would push me like TJ does. And I didn’t pay for the others. I paid for her. So yeah, if it seems I’m somewhat upset, its cuz I am.. for the moment at least. Just like everything else, this too shall pass….

I did manage to make it to the gym for my long training day and it went well. Tho I didn’t bike, swim or run. I did the step mill and elliptical. I used that time to think of short term goals. None of them are truly inspiring for me. They seem rather silly and mundane. But I suppose I should look at the little things and find my motivation from those. I balanced on my knees on the ball (not holding on to anything for support) for 75 seconds x 3. 2 weeks ago I couldn’t do it past 5 seconds. It’s the little things right now….

So, in the end, today I need some of that motivation that many of you have said that I have given you. I hate to admit it, cuz I feel selfish for admiting it. But like I have always said, I’m really human. And we all need help sometimes…. even me……