Re evaluating my goals.
Lately I have felt like I have not made any progress, so I tightened my diet and looked through all my photo’s to try and sort them out ( with a digital camera I tend to take too many photograph’s, so I have got hundreds). It took me quite a few hours to sort through them (I’m still not finished). Then I came across photo’s from my nephew’s wedding in September 2006. The pictures of me made me want to cry, not because I was fat and out of shape, but because the grief even through my smiles was clearly on show. Then I remembered one of the reasons why I was doing all this exercise. I did not want to be that broken woman, the one whose life had been destroyed. My son’s life had been taken, but I did not want them to take mine or the rest of my families lives as well. I no longer drink huge amounts of alcohol to dull the pain or comfort eat. I’ve become fit, lost some weight, greatly improved my posture, my strength improves with every workout and I’ve got a Personal Training qualification. I found BB.com and shared things with people who have also made huge changes in their lives and to their bodies. Over the years I have followed people’s progresses and been inspired by their positive and can do attitudes. I’ve laughed at many a funny blog and spent hours reading articles and peoples profiles, and feel sad when someone drops off for a while, then excited when they come back. But those that don’t - I wish you well! I’ve surpassed my original goals and even added more along the way, so I’m not going to be so hard on myself when I take a picture and they look the same as last months.
Visit you all later after my heavy legs workout.
September 10, 2009 at 10:02 am
Damn girl, look at how far you’ve come - it’s AWESOME!! Keep reminding yourself of this. It’s often easy to forget where we started. Keep following your path, hold your head high and be proud of your accomplishments. Keep rocking!