flabTOOfab’s BodyBlog

Ironic that I stand in front of the mirror last night after posting my last blog entry (Can Attractive Be Less Than What I see?). I catch a glimpse of the outside of my arm, and I can’t believe how much progress I’ve made!  My arm is taking shape like NEVER before and it thrills me.

All that I’m working for is in my mind, I KNOW what I want to look like. Sometimes I get discouraged because I feel I have so far to go to get there. Last night was just a reminder that what I’m doing is working and to stick with it.  I WILL see what I want to see in the end, things are happening.

The feeling I got was a sureal feeling, one that really spoke volumes that what I’m doing is realistic. I’ve heard too many times that I should be realistic while losing weight. I’m not going to look like… fill in the blank, I’ve heard it all.  Well, I AM going to look the way I envision myself, and I’m NOT going to set limits on myself, not until I’ve exhausted my efforts in that area.

Yeah, it’s just my arm.  But… before it was my legs, then my glutes started FINALLY taking some shape, and I’m actually seeing some abs show through as well.  I’m beginning to see all that I’ve been believing, and the feeling is astounding!

"I believe it because that’s how I see myself and by announcing it, it is reality… What you have in your life is based on what you believe you deserve. Not what you actually deserve perhaps, but what you believe you deserve! And remember, what you believe is determined by what you can visualize for yourself."  ~Lynn Frost

I’ve been getting what I believe are “glances” from men and some are even flirting, I think.  My problem is I don’t believe I’m flirting material.  My God, I still have around 40lbs to lose!  BTW - happily married.  Although sometimes I wonder if I haven’t caught up mentally to the way I’m beginning to look, I’m stuck at 247 lbs.

I see my husband getting more insecure as the weeks go by, but I don’t understand it.  I see more men looking at me and possibly realizing why I gained the weight in the first place, to avoid attention.  I see women giving me that, “bitch” look, and realizing some peole judge from the outside and not from inner beauty - which I do to myself, obviously.  Is it really all in my head??  Can I really be attractive at 195lbs with a lot more to go?

At what point do I see what others see?  And what is it that they do see?

I thought I’d share this article I found here on BB.  I posted for help a few weeks ago because I was getting NO WHERE with my weight loss no matter what I did.  Everyone mentioned refeed and I had no clue what they were talking about (newbie here).  This explains it a little more and it does work.

 http://www.bodybuilding.com/fun/sclark60.htm

When I first tested a refeed I did it unintentionally.  I was eating a daily calorie intake of 1500 calories and my online PT kept raising it as I kept hitting stalls.  Every time he raised it I would lose, hitting new lows.  NOW it makes sense to me.

After obtaining the feedback from my bodybugg, I’ve come to the conclusion that if I sat on the couch all day I’d burn over 1700 calories - BMR?  Close enough, aye?  So 1500 calories was way too low.  Now that I know this I shoot for at LEAST 1700 calories.

Anyway, I like how this article explains how to recognize when you need a refeed.  I’m curious to see how my weight loss may speed up now.

As my bodyspace home page states, I had to stop running because of what I thought was a back injury.  I later found out that it’s more of an alignment issue caused by a glute/ab, hip flexor imabalance.  I’ve had to rely on the chiro for 8 months now to keep me in alignment. I finally decided that paying a physcial therapist to diagnose the problem would be well worth the money, so I did.  She did so within the first hour and was very thorough.  She told me the above, that my glutes were weak, and my hip flexors were too strong.  They were pulling my hip out of alignment.  Happy to add, she gave me the go ahead to start running again!  (ran a 5k to prove I could still do it)

I’ve been looking into more of what Jillian bases her diet recomendations on.  I found some interesting articles that go more in depth with it.  Thought I’d share.

Metabolic Typing, by Eric Talmant
Metabolic Typing Part 2

I couldn’t find Part 3 that supplied the test, but I found a site that uses Jillian’s test…
Excerpt from Jillian’s book with test

If I get ahold of the other article I’ll post it.

I’m a fast oxidizer.  Knowing and understanding this more explains why I do better with less carbs.  I do well with a diet based on 20% carbs, 30-35% fat, and 45-50% protein.  This also explains why others can thrive on a higher carb diet while I BOMB!  Although these ratios don’t take into consideration needing more carbs for heavier workouts.  I do better with a little more carbs right before I lift.  It’s definitely a complicated system.

I’m totally meeting Jillian Michaels in another month!  I’m very excited.  I think she kicks ass, and I aspire to be like her.  :)  My goal for meeting her is to lose another 5 lbs breaking into the 180s.  New motivation to kick it into high gear!  I’ll post pics if I get lucky enough to get some with her.