flabTOOfab’s BodyBlog

Hey peeps, no hard feelings, but I can’t keep up with people honestly because I have so many “friends”, so I will be purging the friends I don’t keep in contact with, or vice versa. I’d like to be more supportive of people but it’s hard when I can’t find anyone or keep tabs on what’s up, what’s been up, and what’s in the future plans.

Much love!

8 weeks complete! I think I lost something like 15lbs from beginning to end.  The pictures I posted show the results.  Amazing to myself!

My plan is to assess where I am in 2 or 3 weeks and then rinse and repeat.    I’m so going to hit my goal and then some!

I’m at 2 weeks out of 8 on this tighter diet.  It’s proving to be what I needed.

It’s becoming easier and easier to eat like this.  The problem is that I’m anything BUT a morning person, and I’ve been getting up at the butt crack o’ dawn to get my hour of elliptical in.  At this point, I’m more afraid of caving in on the cardio than the diet.

Nonetheless, it boils down to how bad I want this and I can tell you I want it badly!

BTW - I’m now fitting in my 10’s and some mediums!  It’s been over 10 years since I can say I’ve worn that size.

It’s been a while since I last blogged so thought I might update. 

I’ve been training almost daily. With an added consistancy to my workouts, not to mention duration.  I so hate cardio, but could hit the weights daily and be 100% happy!

I had a sit down with my trainer the other day, and I kinda lost my emotions for a sec. Damn leaky eyes. He tried to say I “obviously” wasn’t doing my cardio and I was “obviously” eating more than I was telling him. I told him I was sick of everyone calling me a liar just ’cause my progress was slower than what it should be. Trust me, it’s more frustrating to ME that I bust my ASS and see little return. Then I’m left to contend with negative thoughts such as, “what’s the point in busting my ass like this?”.  Yet I still manage to keep going, 3 years and counting!

I finally experienced my first figure/bodybuilding show.  It was a great inspiration.  There were a few guest posers that really livened it up a lot.  My trainer accompanied me and gave me pointers here and there.  In figure 1st place short class was one of his clients, although overall kicked her butt.  I’m pretty sure the girl that took overall was trained by an IFBB female bodybuilder; I’ve seen them training together at the gym.  That’s probably a good indication.   I’m wondering if the level of experience with trainers put her so much ahead of the others, or if it had more to do with other factors.  She was no doubt in my mind going to win, and that’s from an inexperienced view - that’s how good she looked.

My curiousity peaked when my trainer reviewed my log and prescribed me a cheat meal once a week.  After pushing back my freak outs I was surprised to find I still lost over 1.5 lbs that week.  In my mind I can understand calorie cycling, being a much healthier option for "stoking the metabolism". 

So the key is leptin.  But why, how, huh?  These articles I found on BB’s site are very informative and technical, but there are some interesting studies he has mentioned that have my attention.  It has me left wondering if a cheat meal once a week is as good as carb or calorie cycling.  Leaving me to consider the two sides of this concerning the fact that leptin levels were raised the most after 8-12 hours of refeed, but the cheat meal helps in a psychological aspect.   For those interested I’ve linked these articles part 1 - 3 here.

Part 1 - http://www.bodybuilding.com/fun/berardi55.htm

Part 2 - http://www.bodybuilding.com/fun/berardi58.htm

Part 3 - http://www.bodybuilding.com/fun/berardi61.htm

Then there is the ever more confusing article, To Cheat or Not to Cheat - http://www.bodybuilding.com/fun/berardi14.htm

Once again, it seems to boil down to individuality and expermintation.  The "cheat meals" are obviously not making me gain fat as this article says they will since I’m overweight.  Articles were dated 2004, maybe that has something to do with the information.

Anywho… Friday will mark my 2 week cheat meal experience.  So far, I’m down 1.6 lbs and counting.

My new trainer has made a cheat meal once a week mandatory.  I really had trouble accepting this would HELP and not hinder my efforts.  Today was my official weigh in and I was pleasanty surprised to see my weight was down by 1.6 lbs!  After so many years of thinking consitancy my brain is having a little difficulty grasping that this may actually work.  TRUST… so hard for me.

SO, on top of losing 1.6 lbs, even with a cheat meal, I also hit a pretty big milestone today.  I’ve gone from 247 lbs to 187 this morning!  That’s a total of 60lbs gone forever!!!  I’m left wondering if I have actually lost more fat since I KNOW I have put on a lot of muscle.  I weigh almost 15 lbs MORE than my lowest from eariler years, yet I’m wearing the same size pants, 12, and looking even better now than I did then.  I’m also noticing a lot more wonderful physcial changes even though I weigh more.  Gotta LOVE me some muscle!

My new goal weight is 165 and to be assessed as I go.  That leaves me, at this point, 22lbs from goal.  I’ve come so far it’s inevitable I WILL make it to goal.   

If I could put my mood icon up it would be one of frustration.  It seems no matter what I try my weight loss is so freakin’ slow.  So sick of it.  Just venting - at this rate it seems like goal will NEVER get here.  So close, but yet so far away.

Body Types:   http://www.bodybuilding.com/fun/cynthia9.htm

I was totally taken back today when my cousin, who has competed in figure, told me that I might fit better in body building than figure one day. She told me that body building doesn’t have to be “manly”, it can be feminine. I guess I’m not really open to the idea of body building yet. I mean, hell, I still have a ways before I even think about figure. I need to familiarize myself more with the sport as well. I still have yet to attend a show. I’m hoping to do so in a few weeks. Am I “big”?  As in “too” muscular??