Well LOL! Irony of Ironies!
Sorry folks that I have not been more regular about my posts recently. Life has been hectic to say the least. I am hoping that things are evening out now and hopefully I will be back to making more regular blog posts.
Well, irony of ironies! I am too small! LOL! I can tell you that in the past that was never a description anyone would give of me! I have worked so hard to lose weight and become smaller so I never imagined that this could be a negative but well it is. I am apparently TOO small for figure - I need to develop a more muscular upper body - shoulders, biceps, triceps, chest, and back - the whole shebang! So, I need to put on some muscle. Easier said than done. Putting on muscle takes time and effort. It also means you have to eat and put on weight and I have an uneasy - at best - truce with food. So the question for me is how do I conquer my fear of losing control in order to eat and put on muscle which means put on weight? Did I mention that already? LOL! This is going to be a challenge mentally and emotionally.
I have a bit of time to get my head and heart around this though. Right now I am cutting down to around 120 lb or so with a goal of doing so by Dec. 24th. Then let the fun begin!
The other question I have to wrestle with related to this is when should I realistically compete again? Originally I was planning on doing two competitions in the spring 2009 but it takes time to put on appreciable muscle and since it takes a finite amount of time (typically 12 weeks or so) to diet down for competition I wouldn’t really be in a position to put on any more muscle if I plan to compete in the spring so I am thinking that it will probably make more sense to instead plan on a fall 2009 competition perhaps the INBF Monster Mash. I have time to think about all this but I always feel it is important to "cement" things in writing and that’s what I am doing now in composing and posting this blog entry. I also hope that it will help others to see the value in planning, too.
