Time for a new goal…
Well, Mt Rainier was a bit of a bust… for me anyway. Very VERY disapponiting. Broke my heart a little. I did just awful. I am blaming it on the rough weekend I had before we left. There is a small amount of comfort in that. Very little sleep, pretty poor nutrition. Spent a significant amount of time in the ER the day before, nothing life threatening, but still exhausting… and late. Bed around mid-night and hardly slept even then. Worst display of strength I have shown in quite some time. Grandmas and little kids were passing me… WHILE I could still see the PARKING LOT!!! Now, no telling me "It’s ok, at least you tried, that is impressive in itself," or "you did your best, you should be proud." Because as many of us here know I’m sure, sometimes our best is still disappointing and NOT good enough. In this case I KNOW that I can do better, I have done better before (did I mention that I didn’t even make it halfway!!!). And I’m not beating myself up. I am aware that I had some things going against me here. I just wanted the opportunity to do something I have never done before, push myself farther then I ever have before. Just didn’t turn out that way and THAT is very disappointing. HOWEVER, I will be back at it on Monday and looking forward to the next goal… whatever that may be. Hopefully, I’ll get a shot at it again next year.
August 21, 2008 at 5:53 pm
Okay, you’re a losser and you didn’t do it! Is that BETTER?
I understand life is hard and it sneaks stuff up at ya when your not looking! I am sorry you didn’t get the opportunity you wanted, is your group looking to do it again next year? Or another mountain in the Cascades? That might be able to help you ‘prove it to yourself’. Tri-althon would also be a good goal. Seattle have one each year? You have proved something- look at your progress pics!