fitgirlwebb’s BodyBlog

Okay so I recently discussed like a recent weight gain that had me really spinning,but what is crazy is that I have kicked it up intensely and of course have not lost any of the expected weight. The great part about this all though (yes there is a great part) is that I am not even really that concerned. I am taking more efforts to eat healthier much cleaner than ever, and I am putting more force in my cardio, just taking down weight training a bit. I feel great and look even better than I did when I was 10-15lbs heavier. My clothes fit better again, and I am truly appreciating that sometimes a number is just a number.

I am feeling great today, most recently my blog was all about my reaction to my recent weight gain. While I am still not excited about it I realized I had to find a way to deal with it. At first I was like okay 100% back on track bigger, badder,and harder than ever and guess what I couldn’t lose anything. I was eating more frequently, eating even cleaner, etc.

It was really weird and life changing because honestly I used to be able to lose about a 1lb a day, ( I know, I know- 1-2lbs a week is healthiest). Anyhoo, I am now feeling better because I have decided to just be as positive as possible. I can only do what I can do, I am trying my best and am not cheating myself in anyway. I run until I can’t run anymore (time running out or just tired) and then I walk.  While the number on the scale hasn’t changed recently, the mirror is giving me positive results and I feel better about myself.  Which as you know is the goal of all of this anyway.

Turns out not weighing yourself even when you only have a goal "look" is not a good idea.

 Somehow I have managed to gain about 15lbs and the only way I knew is b/c I got an inch on my butt. Which according to everyone who has complimented me lately is not a bad thing. However, I realize that even though I have been working out and eating right. I am a person who can’t replace 1 hour of cardio with 1 hour intervals of weights and cardio, while everything has pretty much stayed tight for the most part. A goal is a goal and I plan to accomplish it.

Okay honestly I am pissed, I took 3 days off and although I have no much weight I gained or have lost, I know I put some weight on. My body and my mind honestly needed some rest. Proof positive I slept 8 extra hours on Sunday and Saturday. Anyhoo, although no one else seems to notice I know I have gotten bigger, but truthfully in any case I know I have not gotten smaller, which as we all know is the point. I guess I have to revamp and restructure. All within 3 weeks out of my goal

I just realized I love Monday mornings, you get to start all over, (notice I didn’t say Mondays). I am excited about this week because I have more of a variety to my diet and I am integrating more running back into my program. I can’t wait to see the results.

Well, let’s just put it this way, you know how people say that sometimes things get hard right before things are absolutely great, well its true!

Ok, so I am stalling. I got up at 4, hit snooze and long story short it is 4:39 and I am doing the blog instead of working out. I am doing pretty well on my diet and my physique is kicking up, I am starting to look more shapely than athletic and am unsure about what to think about that. I am really not too excited about my day to day and I am finding out that most of the time it predetermines what mood I am in in the morning.

Okay so I have two jobs, and two bosses. One is my ultimate mentor, brutally honest and very giving. The other boss well her nickname is the Howler Monkey need I say more? Anyhoo, There is a lot going on here in the Webb household, our diets are getting cleaner, business is going well, there are job changes on the horizons, fundraisers, school changes the whole lot. I could use these things as an excuse not to fulfill my goal but in thinking about it more clearly. I think I will use this as my one thing that will not change. My commitment to take my body to its ultimate level. Plus there are new webcasts on the site that will keep me busy during training. I know what to do, I have the ability, so the only thing stopping me would be me. "Excuses are tools of incompetence…."

Honestly, I am a little pissed, I ate pretty well this week and I look thicker. Oh well, back to the drawing board.

I have a lot on my plate and even though I got up at 4:07, I am looking at4:23am without so much as one pushup done. Normally, I would be all panicky, because I have so much to do that I have to do, but I re-focused last night. I decided that I am just going to remember that I should just do what I can with when I can, anything else wasn’t supposed to happen.