fit_in_idaho’s BodyBlog

Here is the scoop….I won my appeal (Thank God!) and am able to return to school. My classes are even more demanding this semester than last semester. I am still working out, but am not taking the time to track my workouts. I know what I have been doing and I can feel it too.

Things are getting better and am keeping busy trying to stay ahead in my classes.  Hopefully will have new pictures to post soon.

I appealed to get my financial aid for the spring semester, since I did not hit what I was required to. My teachers and advisor wrote letters on my behalf for the appeals committee, a big help, I am sure. I won the appeal, so get to continue on with classes.

I did drop my 6am class, because one, I know that I will have a hard time getting up in time to make that class and two I couldnt find anyone to help make sure my daughter would get to school on time. I do still have my weight training class and continue going to the gym in addition to that class. I really hope to hit my goal by the end of the semester. I have had a hard time with my nutrition, because I have been so stressed about wether or not I would get my financial aid and be able to go to school again. That stress is gone and can focus on other things now.

I went back to school last semester, but had to appeal to get my financial aid. In the past when I attended school I had problems with my daughter and my grandma died from cancer. My daughter is ADHD and BiPolar, with lots of other issues. When I attended school 4 years ago she had to be admitted to Intermountain Hospital (a pyschiatric hospital). It was during midterms and did not complete my classes. (I couldn’t concentrate) Anyhow, I appealed to go back to school last semester and was accepted, but with restrictions.  I had to complete 100% of my classes and get a 2.25 GPA. I was struggling with math and biology, but worked hard to pass the classes.

During the semester, just like 4 years ago, my daughter was admitted to Intermountain Hospital again (she was hearing voices and had thoughts of suicide).  This was around my birthday and midterms. I was extremely depressed, but kept up on my classes. I passed all my classes despite everything, but my GPA is 2.192, just short of the 2.25 GPA requirement.

It is so depressing knowing that I worked so hard despite everything and may not be able to get my financial aid for next semester, even though I am so close. What is worse is that I will not only lose a dream, but quite possible my house. I get grants and extra money to help pay my expenses while I am going to school. I still work part-time, but it is the grants that help me pay what I am behind on my house. (I know that that may sound bad, but that is why they provide the extra money). Without the financial aid and the grants, I can not continue on with school and do not know where I would go from here. I really wanted a career in the Fitness field so I can help people like myself become healthier.  My dream will come to an end and I will just be lost. I am almost 40 and feel like such a failure!