finehaymakerday’s BodyBlog

72hr…

 Yesterday was a brutal back day. During my dead lift pyrimid I was attempting to break my 315lb record  and wanted to go ahead and bust our 2×315 to see where I was at, and how much higher I wanted to go. Sure enough, about knee-level into my first rep the boat rocked, and all the weight got pushed forward. I don’t know what I was thinking, but I "caught" all that weight by stepping forward. Pulled the **** out of my right hamstring and lower back.

Waking up this morning I also found myself with a fever, and full-blown body aches. Plus, after these last 72hr my body is slowly starting to reject all the nasty **** I have been "smoking" into it. So I have all this coughing on top of being sick and sore… today is not my day

I don’t know why anyone being straightedge is such a big issue, I never have understood this point that people think they have to prove. "StraightEdge is for people that don’t have their sh!t together", etc. What about those people that really just don’t like the effects of it, don’t like the feeling. In my younger years I got drunk a lot, I got high, I smoked a pack and a half of cigs a day. But it never adversly affected my life in any big way. I never got an underage drinking ticket, a fine for possession or DUI, got excellent grades in school. I was able to be responsible with it, but the truth is… I just didn’t like it. I didn’t like the way it made me feel only partially in control of my body. The light-headed "dumb" feeling. I hated feeling like **** the next morning and having a day off wasted in recovery. I just didn’t like it, and still don’t. That’s why I don’t do it. You have your thing… we have ours. Really it’s neither of our buisness what the other does with their own body!

PS: The "hr count" is the time in which I have gone without a smoke or nico… lets see that number climb!!!

For some reason lately i am having a really hard time maintaining my schedule in my head. When it’s "Delts" day I walk around all day thinking about what "BI" exercises I am going to go after. Or today for example I have "Triceps" and I keep thinking of new ways to work my back. I don’t know what it is, I guess I am just excited to pull into port soon.

I had a good deal of time there, about a month or so where I was good on the clean living. I managed to find myself once again in a stressed out situation, and I crumbled. I have since then been doing a lot better at re-focussing myself, and although I am close to my orriginal goal of being clean… I just can’t quite kick it completely. I have worked my way down, with the help of a special log of the times throughout the day where I would break. I made it from 8-a-day, to 4, 2…and for the past 5 days I am just kind of stuck at that 2.

But I have a good thing in my life now. My beautiful girlfriend Janine, who is really helping to push me in the right direction. With her continued support, I will be quit by the end of this cruise (15 more days)… I just need to find a new alternative to boredom!!!

It’s been about a month and a half since my new year’s resolution… and I am happy to say I made it. I have quit all the crap that I had fallen into. I had no one to blame but myself for falling into smoking and dipping (drinking included). I tried all the typical "it’s the stress" "i need something to stay awake on watch" … blah blah blah. But thanks to finding all my sXe cd’s I had from my growing up years being straightedge I remembered how great I felt and the empowering feeling of being drug free. To be back here again, I see things just as clear as I did then… no more excuses, just a good strong look in the mirror is all it took.

 Now with my clean "outside-the-gym" lifestyle my gym gains have improved greatly. I am still not gaining a lot of mass which I have to say is just due to the work I do, but as far as health… it is astounding the difference it made. I can honestly say that I wake up everyday with more and more energy. I feel more chemicaly balanced and recover quicker from gym beat downs. Thanks to Edge… I am getting myself back. Pure Till Death

wow… so I am about a month into building and I have never had such a hard time gaining. It’s as easy to explain as both a lack of time, and a high level of active cardio. I run back and forth all day across a flight deck and it makes it hard to gain when I can only hit the gym 5 times a week for a few hours and then spend 5-7 days a week running back and forth for 12+ hours…. there is no way I can eat the calories I need. Stupid Navy lol

This is proving harder than I at first thought. But I am breaking into it. During the week I have little trouble not smoking or dipping. In fact I have had two full weeks back to back where I haven’t slipped up…during the week at least. But weekends are my problem, when I have the time to sit back and watch a movie and relax it gets really difficult. I have slipped up three times now. But I am still so proud of the progress I am making

Gym update: Been in 4x this week, and am loving it. I got all my supplements in, and have been utilizing them all. But with the increase of working out on top of a very busy work schedule and lack of sleep, I am spending this weekend sick in bed. Damn, sometimes we have no luck!

I am still waiting for the arrival of my order, but I couldn’t help but hit the gym with all this excitement running through my viens. I am trying to break back into the gym slowly…letting ym body adjust to the sudden influx of lactic acid digestion. One-hr and one full body work out last night, and I am left almost crippled with soreness today. I love it…it feels so good to get back into it!!!

I am in this horrible cycle of nicotine addiction. I quit smoking and had a hard time coping, so I started to "dip" (a worse habit) in order to improve my cardio capabilities. Now I am stuck on this cycle of transition between smoking and dipping and I want desperately to quit. This is my new year resolution, and any tips you can give me would help tremendously (and if i write a lot of "agitational" blogs after the first, please be understanding).

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