ffelicia’s BodyBlog

ok so i have been tanning for about 2 weeks now on the beds this is totally noremal for me as i tan every summer but i was just wondering are you suppose to get ready after they spray tan you at the show? and do theysray your face? i guess i should take a dark color of make up right? as i will be darker and i dont want my face to be all white and by body dark.. should i get ready before i go. im so confused and really excited as you can tell its my first show.. well if you have any suggestions please let me know!

Hope Everyone had a good holiday!

yay!! i just got my clear high heels in.. it just makes it more real that my show is in 4 weeks i cant wait to get my bathing suit. im still looking for music if anyone has any suggestions let me know thanks!!

 hope everyone has a good workout today!!

ok so this weekend of course my family is having a bbq and i am 4 weeks out from competition and cannot eat anything.. They had hamburgers hotdogs chillie beans cake pudding ice cream you name it they had it.. and yes it was very tempting.. but what gets me mad is when they rub it in my face like "look Felicia doesn’t this look so good" i said why do you do that!!! i know that they are messing aroud but at this piont in time i am just not in the mood to be messing around.. so then its my time to eat 6 o clock while everyone is having their potato salad and hamburgurs i am eating my asparagous and steak whic im pretty tired of eating.. well here comes my brother and sticks his hands in my steak and gets a piece.. OMG i went off!!! i mean im not trying to a bitch but this is all i get to eat you have all that food in there enjoy it dont come over here knowing this is all i have. and ya everyone freaked out because i am so not a bitch but it when it comes to the only fod i can eat please dont mess with me. everyone was laughing becuase they say "its just food" well they jsut dont understand.. no one in my family is healthy and they dont understand why i do this they think that i am starving myself they say that im too skinny but its not thay im too skinny i just dont have too much body fat and they think that its gross.. but i think they just dont know what healthy is because thei too busy stufing their faces.. geez no on know what im going through. so then they ask me if i wanna go have breakfast this morning because they think i need to eat…. ok i am so ready for this competition to be here..!!!! why is it taking so long!!!

Ok my show is in exactly 4 weeks and i cant wait it seems like it s taking forever.. any comments on how to stay focused im am so tired of this already i have been training since january.. Anyway the real reason i wrote is because i need to find music to walk out to for my show. i want somehting upbeat but not to fast where i cant walk in those shoes lol.. well if you know of any good music let me know i would really appretiate it

 thanks

ok so the last couple of weeks seem like they have been going so slow and i want to scream!! i have 4 and half weeks left tell my forst show and it seems like forever.. i think i am just tired of the workouts its so rough.. i am so excited for it to come but man i am tired.. anyone else have a competition coming up?

ok so i am entering into a figure competition on June 14 yikes only 5 weeks away. i am happy with my results so far but of course i want more. this is my first competition and man!! i had no idea how hard this was really going to be. im doing 2-3 a days and of coursed my diet is very light. i am dreading the weeks to come. its seems like these last couple of days have been dragging how do i stay focused sometimes i just wanna scream lol.. well i wish everyone good luck on there competitions and now i realize what these people go through and i have a lot more respect for what they do. this is the hardest thing i have ever done. i am going to be posting some recent pictures soon. my body has changed so much since those last pictures. well thanks for listening. have a good day!