Overcoming Obeasity

"Holiday Plan", or lack there of depending how you look at it.

 So yesterday was my cousins wedding, and yesterday morning I weighed in at 116.7 lbs, just barely 115! Oh well, close enough. I took some pics, and put some in my gallery to show people case they were curious to see. It was very nice and as usual my cousins are all just perfectly stunning flawless figures I totally admire and envy… someday I hope to look as good as them, but thats another story.

 Right now I’m at my friends place. I think I’m just going to eat smaller portions and TRY to go for walks every day, but easier said than done. I actually did well eating last night at the wedding, but it’s tradition for me and my friend to order Chinese our first night together, so I ended up eating wrong tonight. Hopefully eating better the next 3 days will change that. Come the 23rd - 24th we go to NYC, and since we’ll be walking all over, all day I am going to eat whatever I want, within reason, I won’t over eat nor have dessert or anything like that.

Come Christmas Day, i’ll prolly give in (again)… then just eat light till New Years Eve, let that night be the "final meal" so to say haha. Then from New Years Day onward, it will be all organic for me. Or so… i HOPE. I might slip occasionally on special occasions but… maybe not.

Only 6 days left till the wedding… still a size 9 *sigh* I hate that size but it’s my own fault for not putting enough effort out there.

 Part of me feels I’m making up excuses, part of me feels I have ligitimate reasoning for lack of "effort"… My life seriously feels like work>eat>sleep>repeat… I just don’t feel up to working out with this kind of schedule. The little bit of online time is my only "break"… and without this I think I’d crack. lol

 I need to tone though. It’s the only way I’ll get down in size. Being a girl and a szie 9… NOT good. Maybe i’ll use my agravation for motivation to "slim down" the rest the way. I hope…

And people wonder why i hate the "holidays"… I can name so many reasons: Perky spirited people, constantly having to listen to the SAME music everywhere you go, being guilted into feeling obligated to spend money on "friends" and family… and the constant food aspect. That’s what 80% of the holiday feels like to ME. Everyone is shoving FOOD at me. Everything for the "holidays" is FOOD related.

 I know, I’m exagerating but it FEELS like that. In any case… stupid Turkey day alone gained me 3 lbs… and over the following days I packed on another 2+… so agravating since it took me WEEKS to lose the same amount of weight i can put on in just days, literally RUINING everything.

 *sigh*… well today I was "back on the bandwagon" of diet and excersize… er least diet. I need to work excersize in, especially if i plan to reach my goal for fitting into a smaller size come the 18th (my cousins wedding and the following day I spend a week with my friend and we will be going to NYC the 24th).

Not much else to say. Hopefully I’ll slim down at least a little… I rather lose weight and inches than gain. That’s what i need to focus on.