Bitter Sweet…?
So after the "drama" i posted last time… after that I actually have been better. Granted it’s only been 2 days but it’s ok, better is better.
Oddly enough, maybe that pasta and meat was what I needed. I actually LOST a pound the next day, and I wasn’t craving junk anymore… see that usually never happens for me. Usually I go off "eat bad" and it triggers me to want to go back to bad eating, but not this time. So… I’m thinking there must of been something my body needed out of that meal because (not including that night of course) but otherwise i "improved" in mood.
I got back on track the next day and was pretty good. Did my work outs and added my usual minute (little over a minute actually) to my cardio routine and did lots of other work besides… sadly, and no idea why i had a soda. BAD bad bad i know! It was so weird, I really don’t want soda anymore but yesterday i wanted it?! But otherwise i really stayed on track very well, even had more water than usual. And today I’ve been on track all day too… again, with the exception of that one damn soda! However… yet again, I had more water again (so far).
So… aside from the soda issue, I’ve really done much better these past few days (FINALLY). I’d say I’m "bi-polar" but i don’t get the "ups" side in moods. (actually the truth is I have dysthymic disorder which is a form of depression but that’s another story). In any case what matters is majority for right now. I know i can be doing better but the fact I am doing this well is really good for me. I hope I can keep going and get better and better.
May 20, 2008 at 1:44 pm
When I crave the cola flavor, I go for a Coke Zero or Diet Coke or similar, rather than HFCS sodas.