Disapointed
These entries keep becoming more and more depressing… Anyhow. Speaking of which: Over the past two weeks now I have been on a constant downward slope… just getting more and more depressed. The worse thing is, I have no idea why. I have no reason to be. I put weight on over Mother’s day weekend and all and it is definitely taking hard work to get it to go away, but nothing in life is easy.
I was good with my diet all this week, and work outs and the cardio etc… but yesterday I took a nose dive and really slacked on working out, and didn’t do cardio at all. Just could not rig up the "get up and go". Today was kind of better and worse. Today i forced myself to work out AND do cardio, adding extra minutes and working really hard. So I got in good work outs and really good cardio, made up for yesterday… but i slacked horribly on diet.
I was feeling really crappy this morning so I didn’t eat then. By lunch I was feeling "better" but not hungry. Then for dinner my roomie made dinner for us, and so I didn’t want to be rude and not each what she had made for us…. so, the ONLY thing i had today was a little bowl of spahgetti and meatballs and some apple-cranberry juice (and of course water). No fruit, no veggies, meatballs are obviously not "lean" meat… everything I did was bad. It’s amazing I didn’t just drink a soda! …ok I probably wouldn’t do that but… actually the way I’ve been feeling lately is just very distracting.
I’m really hoping I can get on MUCH better track tomorrow. Ever since last Friday I have been really off and I don’t know why. Almost like a chemical imballence. I’ve been trying to narrow my cravings down, cuz some I know they say your body craves what it is deficient in. Like if you crave dairy you really need Calcium, if you crave banana you really need potasium… those are cliche example but I’m thinking… maybe I’m deficient in something, like I need something to get "ballence" back… or it could just be that even though I alcked off 3 days ago it’s still taking it’s toll… which seems impossible to me.
*sigh*… Sorry for the long rambling complaint. I definitely need to figure out how to *stay* motivated… constantly looking for motivation is very, tidius. Naturally I want to get fit and be healthy, look good yada yada… but sometimes for me it’s just not enough. Even setting goals and specific numbers and stuff is not very inspiring.
I am my own worse enemy. What I really need is confidence.
May 19, 2008 at 4:37 am
Weekends are the hardest for me. Diet is the main key to weight loss. five to six meals a day then throw in the cardio and weights and you will succeed. Remind yourself daily way you are doing this and you will find the motivation. For me, I also blog daily well as close to daily as possible. If I have to report to my friends that I screwed up, it really piss me off. They keep me on track.
May 19, 2008 at 4:40 am
I know *exactly* how you feel. One thing that has helped me is to stop thinking about what I did and focus on the task at hand. Every good thing I do gets celebrated in my head. Hey - whatever works right?
Just sorry you’re feeling so low.. here’s to feeling better!!!!
You can do this