A Life of Unpredictability
I have spent countless hours looking into my past and analyzing the path and journey that has unfolded through my footsteps. Each step marking a decision and direction intertwined with the bread crumbs of all the previous ones before it, while cohesively maintaining it’s independence. As I seep into deep thought of those pivotal moments where the seemingly insignificant decisions manifest into a complete redirection in life, I stop in my tracks and soak in the questions of what if, and if only… Questions that on the surface seem innocent and welcome to the process of thought. As these thoughts arise, along with them comes discontent and restlessness in that our present moment has been distorted and is off course, as if the “what if” is the supposed journey meant to be lead. It is in these moments that I harness my thoughts and embrace the questions my life has laid before me. I don’t allow the thoughts to envelope my being, but allow the questions to be a part of my very existence. It is in these moments through our lives and every step that has been made that creates who we are and where we’re going. It is within our very being, or shall I say within out hearts, that the answers to our life journey and path lie. To follow can be challenging and will more than likely seem daunting and truly unpredictable. This scares most of us into playing it safe in this thing called life and holding us into the socially acceptable societal norms. There is a voice inside each and every one of us and that little voice is leading you on the right course of action. Listening to it can be a courageous feat as it may create a sense of complete instability. But trust in this voice for your life purpose and journey is on the other side waiting for you to take full immersion and to embrace it’s amazement. A wise woman told me of some very insightful words in which she stumbled upon in her journey of life. Ever so gracefully placed in my lap it lays it out as simply as it is. I shall leave you with these words…
“Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answers.” -Rainer Maria Rilke
