Muh BodyBlog!

I think the most frustrating thing about this time in my life is knowing just about EXACTLY what I need to do and how to do it in order to get the body I desire, but not having the resources to do so.

Since I was mugged (yes, I was mugged), I lost (among lots of other important valuables) my Student ID which was good until March of 2010 (It’s now October of 2009) and the university refuses to issue me a new one, calling it “fraudulent” to do so. Along with a city bus pass, this ID gave me free access to all university fitness centers. I now must pay $15 per yoga class and $10 per day pass at any citywide fitness facility. I cannot afford this.

I am now left to my resistance bands, running (which I can only do before sunset in order to not risk getting re-mugged and raped—often not feasible when I’m working until 6:30PM and sunset is 6:45PM), and workout DVDs to perform in either my own 4X4 apartment or my boyfriend’s mold-laden cave.

Not to mention that working three jobs is tiring in itself, though no physical activity is involved at all. And eating poorly goes right along with it when I haven’t eaten a vegetable in a week because I have no 24-hour refrigeration system–coolers only last so long.

I guess I’m living proof that eating crappy and working your life away and not getting enough sleep really takes its toll. How do real people do it? I HATE THE REAL WORLD!! But I trust that soon I will find a balance and pull my life back together. (Right?)

I’m getting extremely frustrated.

This semester is the busiest of my life. I have a lot of stuff on my plate for the future and school and career are top priorities. That being said, I still want to have adequate time to work out of course!

I have three workout classes, all kickboxing-related–two together two days of the week, and one another two days out of the week. Two are mid-day and practically back-to-back with an hour break in-between, the first being a fusion class that combines full body weight training with kickboxing cardio. I figure that day it will suffice do those two hour-long classes. I’m aware that this is not the optimal workout scenario but I have limited choice in the matter.

The other two days of the week I have another hour-long kickboxing class in the evening.

Now, we’ve got lots of cardio and a tad bit of less-than-optimal weight training.

Where do the weights fit in?

Where does yoga fit in?

My body is simultaneously burning out and gaining weight–it’s so frustrating.

I’m going to either have to cut out weights entirely and just add in a bunch more body-weight type yoga in with the cardio or do weights after my hour-long evening kickboxing class. Any suggestions? Sorry for the rant!

I’m getting extremely frustrated.

This semester is the busiest of my life. I have a lot of stuff on my plate for the future and school and career are top priorities. That being said, I still want to have adequate time to work out of course!

I have three workout classes, all kickboxing-related–two together two days of the week, and one another two days out of the week. Two are mid-day and practically back-to-back with an hour break in-between, the first being a fusion class that combines full body weight training with kickboxing cardio. I figure that day it will suffice do those two hour-long classes. I’m aware that this is not the optimal workout scenario but I have limited choice in the matter.

The other two days of the week I have another hour-long kickboxing class in the evening.

Now, we’ve got lots of cardio and a tad bit of less-than-optimal weight training.

Where do the weights fit in?

Where does yoga fit in?

My body is simultaneously burning out and gaining weight–it’s so frustrating.

I’m going to either have to cut out weights entirely and just add in a bunch more body-weight type yoga in with the cardio or do weights after my hour-long evening kickboxing class. Any suggestions? Sorry for the rant!

A typical night back at school involves this:

All the roomies going out for ice cream with our neighbors to chat it up and get to know each other, me biking to the gym, all the roomies making fun, me missing out on a good time.

I honestly wonder how much I miss out on fun things or have missed out on over the years because of my obsession/lifestyle. I know this is pretty standard in the bodybuilding community but NONE of my friends are into fitness. At ALL. I mean, they get like zero exercise ever. It’s horrible..

How can I meet some people who are interested in fitness like I am? How can I stop getting made fun of and instead get respected and taken seriously? Being healthy is such a challenge.. it shouldn’t have to be like this.

They can run outside whenever it’s convenient for them.

Picture this: it’s a lovely summer night. A perfect night for a run. It’s also the perfect time to go grocery shopping, go to the post office, pick up some laundry, etc. By the time I get home from all of my errands, it’s dark. What’s a girl to do?

I’d like to run; I have the energy and the free time. Right. Now. But it’s dark. So I can’t. I simply DO NOT HAVE THAT OPTION. I’m a girl. It’s unsafe.

And it’s not an excuse, it’s a fact. My neighborhood is dangerous. After dark, a girl best stay in. The only time I can go out for late runs is with my boyfriend, and he hates running. So you can see how that goes. None of my friends enjoy fitness so he is my only hope at times like these.
 

And another thing: they can eat howEVER many calories they want to.

It’s true. Men on diets always lose like 37 pounds more than women on the same diet.

Cut out soda? Man loses 20 pounds; woman loses 5.

On a cutting diet? Men, cut down to, eh, 2000 calories a day (as opposed to the 4000+ you were taking in before) and run twice a month for 20 minutes– you’ll lose 10 pounds! Women, you must restrict to 1200 calories (as opposed to the 1500 you were taking in before!!) and do some starved cardio every morning for a month for an hour to get the same benefits!!!

OK, I realize I’m in BITCH mode. I just needed to vent. I’m done

I have recently noticed that this site is made up of mostly older people. While this is very motivating and I am so proud of everyone for reaching their goals and even having the courage and intelligence to take fitness seriously as a lifelong journey/goal, I am a college student. And it’s so hard to find other young people like myself to look to as motivators– even to look to as fellow fitness junkies!

Not to mention the temptations of college.. the horrible cafeteria food, the parties, the alcohol! Ugh. It’s so hard to eat right and stay healthy. I feel my self-discipline slowly slipping away!

I guess the point of this blog is to ask if there is anyone out there who feels the same way and can relate? And if anyone has any tips to how I can stay motivated and disciplined? I know it’s all in my head but I don’t want to slip. I want to have a healthy body free of crappy food and fat and full of lean muscle. I want to be a lean and mean fighting machine!