Sara’s BodyBlog

Yes, it’s "Valborg" today, a holiday that includes lots and lots and lots of alcohol. That means that all of my friends are out getting really drunk and I am staying at home watching TV. It sucks, but I guess it’s worth it.
Or sorry, I know it’s worth it.

Tommorow we’re going out with the hole family to dinner at a fancy restaurant, as we always do on the 1st of May (witch is a red day on the calendar). No work.
They have tables with food on so you can pick wathever you want, so this won’t affect my diet

Anyway, three days almost completed, 81 more to go

First day of diet and I cannot say that it’s gone perfectly so far.
Come on, how can you fail on the first day?

Or I didn’t fail, but I overslept so I missed my morning walk, and that is to me a very very bad start on the day. But no failure on the food intake so far (and will never be) :p

Now I just wait (and work ofcourse) for the progress..

I’m sorry, but I had to. Actually I’m not sorry at all, because I really wanted to.
Went to a party last night, a lot of my old friends ware there, people I haven’t met in a long while, since I moved to the other side of the ocean. And yes, I got a little drunk. But I really wanted to because I haven’t been drinking since I went to Denmark in january. I’m quite proud of myself just because of that, 12 weeks without any alcohol is a lot for a girl of my age and social life.

I’m starting my real diet tomorrow, 12 weeks (another 12 weeks without alcohol :p) so I do believe the party was just what I needed to keep my motivation. Although it will be rough, you have no idea how much Finnish people party during summertime. Thank god I’m turning 18 in august, otherwise it would e way too hard:p

Can you blame the weather for being unactive?
- No, definitely not. Yet, that is what I find myself doing.. a lot.

“Who the h*ll would go out in this weather?”
“It’s way too cold”

On gym-days there’s no problem, but active-rest days, just aren’t active unless the weather is atleast somewhat decent.

Like today. I mean it’s april, APRIL, and it’s snowing.
Big, COLD, white snowflakes.

It is too grey and seriously really depressive.
How can anyone be happy in a place like this?

I’m craving summer. need it.

I need help!

I don’t have a problem passing on that latte or muffin at the café, but on special occasions, like tonight when we’re having dinner at my school (pizza and salad), I just can’t bring my own food. I can’t bring my own food normally to school either, sometimes I do but it makes me feel really really uncomfortable.
This may sound ridiculous but nobody else does it :S

We have the benefit of free food in school, and  it’s not like it’s terribly unhealthy, it’s just that normal "Finnish food" contains a lot of carbs, and not so much protein. And since protein is so much more expensive than carb-products, we only get a few small pieces of meat in every serving.

Why is it so terrible to be different from the rest?
And why do I have such a hard time to stand up for myself and say "hey, atleast I have a healthy lifestile, how long will you live?"
And why does it disturb me so much what other people think?

The weirder part is if I would go for a latte or something and someone from my gym would see it I would be embarressed by that too.

Please someone say you understand what I mean?
Even better, tell me how to get over this.
I AM proud of being an active gym-member, I am. And I love it. Why is it so hard?

Don’t worry about tonight, I won’t eat any pizza, I’ll just eat before I go and only have some salad there, that’s no problem. I’ll just bring Leader’s "Protein 40". A goddamn lifesaver. 40 grams of protein, 0 grams of carbs and 0 grams of fat in a 0,5 litres bottle. (And it tastes great). But it contains quite a lot of E-codes, so I guess you can’t drink to much of it.