emma10’s BodyBlog

Started on this site well over a year ago, how much have I improved? Very little. Why? Because I have been slack slack slack. Plenty of excuses, none of them worthy.  Have been doing enough to ‘cruise’ along. Still under 60kgs, Approx 58-59, but not good muscle gains. Aparently you actually have to consistently work out for that to happen

Middle of winter here which doesnt help, not going for as good a dog walks as before, but I really do need to toughen up.

Best news is my fiance has got a gym membership at my gym now, so going to be workout buddies. Which helps.

 So, can I do it this time? The last time I ate clean (got to about 3 weeks…) I was already starting to see definition. Am away for a week tomorrow for a course, all food provided, and a swimming pool at motel. SO what better way to start, save some money by not buying junk, and get a swim everyday.

Surely I can do this?? I just want those abs and slim hips so bad! But really dont think I should get any lighter, aim is to be building muscle and gaining strength here.

I have NEVER seen that weight before. Have dipped for a day or two to 59kgs before, but I have now been under 60kgs for 2 weeks, and under 59 for the last week.

My body fat (according to scale) has come down too (phew) to 22.2, had been up at 23.6% when I weighed 61kgs.

So I am happy so far. This has come from 4 weeks of super clean eating, have had a couple of not so great meals but nothing really bad, no chocolate or cakes or lollies (oh wait, I have a lollipop most days to starve off cravings).

So I am really happy with myself. Have been doing a 3 day split for weights and nothing too organised for cardio, just lots of dog walks and a few kickboxing dvds.

I have no idea what weight I am going to be happy with. I certainly feel I look better, but not good enough. will post updated photos at end of this week.

I cant imagine bein under 55kgs (especially to be that weight and not be weaker, I cant loose strength). but who knows what 55kgs looks like on me? (that will be like 121lbs).

Will keep eating clean and see where it takes me..

admittedly its the same 4 lbs that go up and down every couple off weeks, but I worked hard this week and resisted a lot of junk and it has paid off. one more lb and I will be at the weight which I have never kept for more than a week. SO thats my challenge, keep up my god eating and by next week be under 60kgs, and keep under!

Wasn’t a spectacular week but obviously I cut back on my binging of the last few weeks. I didnt eat enough good foods, just ate less junk.
So this week I have to carry on, but start incorporating lots of veges and more protein in to my meal.

Also want to step up the intensity of my weight sessions. I seem to just go through the motions and not push myself enough. I want to get the wobbly limbs feeling more often!

Hopefully this time next week I am under 60kgs and another half percent or so down in body fat.

:)

My lovely boyfriend proposed to me on monday, was wonderful and still smiling

Clearly it was an excuse to go out and have a big dinner and nice desert. But can I stop there? Nooooo. I have been ‘celebrating’ all week haha.

So After a wonderful week where I lost over a kg, its all back on again. Im not that bothered this time because I found the healthy week pretty easy this time, so started AGAIN today and god damn going to get to 4 weeks. Sick of one week on one week off!!!

 I know I can do this, but the amount of times I have stopped and started my god.

Ok weird topic I know. But I have tried so many times to eat clean and I have such shocking will power I give in so easy, and ruin all my hard work. So what on earth is going to motivate me? Apart from that dream body..

Well my amazing partner suffers depression and is having a rough period at the moment. He is up against his mind everyday and keeps fighting it, and doesnt give in. I’ve made him promise that he would never give in, and to think how difficult it would be to go through what he does when his mind takes over like this, makes my will power around junk look like a joke.

So if I expect him to go off to work everyday and come home to me having not given in to his thoughts, then the least i can do is not give in to my cravings?

I am so proud of him, I want to show him what his strength is going to do for me.

:)

Man have I been slack. Luckliy I have not done too much damage, am back up to around 62kgs, (lowest Ive been is 59.8kg),  but so annoyed as I could be making such good progress. grrr.

Dont know why I am so slack, havent had a decent workout for weeks, even been slack taking my dog for smaller walks then I should  

And my food is just average! Too much junk.

Just annoyed as when I did well the other month (3 weeks of a great diet) I really saw huge changes! Then 2 weeks away at fire training and it all cam back with bad eating whilst away from home.. Didnt do a proper photo after those 3 good weeks but did get an ab shot on my camera I might post that, best they have ever looked, unfortunately I cant see any definition now!

Even more motivating is me and my partner thinking of trying for a baby this time next year, so really want to get my stomach as good as it will ever be now as it will just get harder!!! And as Im in NZ, summer is just around the corner..

anyway, get me back on track people!! its worth it to get something Ive never had isnt it??

Well I am finally home after my training course and then  a weekend snowboarding. Finally back in to my place to do my routine.
I could have prevented much of the damage that I did whilst away on course but as soon as I got weak I couldnt stop. So much white bread you wont believe, as they served it with every meal! Unfortunately my will power was too low to fight it.
I can either do this all or nothing, I cant have a small hiccup and get back on track, I go all out! Thats what I want to change, I want to get to my goal, and then be able to have the odd treat and not let it ruin me.

Anyway according to the scales this morning I was 63kgs, 25.4% bf. HUGE increase. but ah well. I had lots of sodium rich foods yesterday so hoping that most of that weight is water weight.

Anyway not going to record weight until saturday as official day.

even though I gained back all of my good progress, I still learnt a lot. I learnt that I actually enjoyed eating well and felt amazing, and most important was that it didnt take long to see great results. In only 3 weeks. Now I know I want to do this properly.

My aim is to eat clean for 12 weeks (up to my birthday oct 15th) and then buy a new pair of skinny jeans on my bday!

I want to get to 18% bf. Weight Im not bothered but around 57kg would be good, most important is the 18%.

I will have cheats but not every week, will aim to have no cheats for first 3 weeks (am away that 3rd weekend), then maybe once per 2 weeks after that.

If I get the results I got from my 3 weeks eating clean, I am so excited about what I can do in 12 weeks. And even better I have no big trips etc that will get in my way.

So officially starting staurday but have started my clean eating from today to try  and shed some of the damage done, if I am back at 62kgs by sat that would be good.

Keep in touch!

Most of my great effort over the past 3 weeks has been ruined by a week away. I hate being at this hotel, and having our lunches provided for us with no cooking facilities to make something else. The food is not great and they always add white bread as a side, which of course I could just avoid, but because the course is physcially demanding, and I can not eat enough of the actual meal to feel satisfied I am filling up on the bread.

I finally cracked on thursday and ate junk, so hard in my hotel room by myself, all the guys on the course are eating 3 deserts a night from the buffet and I was sitting there going crazy. I miss being at home with my partner where he is eating well too so we keep easchother on track. I only have me to stop me here but unfortunately thats not enough yet, Im not strong enough to keep myself on track!

Anyway by the time I get home next week I imagine to be back where I started, but thats ok I will be right back in to it. I am going to try and minimise my damage for the next week.

I have been seeing good definition in my abs though so not all is lost.

Just a shame to waste all that hard work, but at least when I get hoe I have no trips like this to worry about for a long time and can concentrate fully on my goals. (which is now getting to 18% bf br  OCtober). 10 weeks when I get back.,

ok speak soon

:)

Hey am struggling up here, staying in a hotel and being given food, its crap, the only chicken they ever serve is drumsticks, which looked they have been taken of 2 week old chicken they are so small. Otherwise its ham or rat or dog for all we know. I have no cooking facilities I can use so am taking nuts and raisins and museli bars etc to my course during the day but I sturuggle at lunch, and have eaten up far too much white bread just to fill the hole! Not good.

And there is sooo much yummy junk around, cookies everywhere, and buffet desert every night which is so hard to avoid (but I am). But still feel like its useless anyway seeing as I keep eating white bread. At least tomorrow is going to be a really physical day, today was just lectures.

I have another week and half and no I can loose weight properly in this time, I havent enough good foods to replace the bad that I am so amazingly leaving. So I cam going to just try and ensure I dont gain anything.

Then when I am home get back in to loosing fat.

But it could be worse, I keep thinking why dont I just eat the junk, I’m not going to loose weight this fortnight anyway, but then I think if I ate the junk I would definately gain. Its not worth it!!!

Just so hard because the last course I was on was my recruits which was dammmmmn hard and part of nmy comfort was coming back to hotel room and snacking on everything!

Really hard to get out of that mindset, but I  am having such bad cravings.

So annoying but will kep you posted.

Emma

3 weeks today. weighed in at 59.8, another 1/2 kg loss. Now this is where it gets difficult, I have seen 59 point something before but never for more than one day. If I can still be below 60 kgs next week it will be for the first time ever. Body fat was still23% but I am making sure I dont get too caught up on what the scale tells me my bf is, as I know its just a guide. Anyway I do feel fantastic. Had a really hard day yesterday with sooo many cravings. but got through it.

Tonight I get a cheat, am not sure what it wil be yet. I always feel torn, one part of me wants to have something really yum and naughty, because I deserve it with all my really hard work, but then I dont want to ruin my hard work.

But then they do keep me from going insane and it will be so much easier to get through the week knowing I have my treat.

So who knows, things are working anyway, I havent got too much weight to loose so cant loose it much faster than I currently am.  My muscles are really starting to look good, getting some good definition I think. Photos next saturday, which will be 4 weeks of hard work.

Anyway I am happy