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Why is it that beautiful women will come on this site; compliment me, tell me I look great, tell me I’m a sweet guy…..and yet, in real life; I simply say hi to an attractive woman and she rolls her eyes at me.  Whats up with that shit?  It’s so damn hard to find someone with common interests in real life.  I wish I could find someone like the beautiful fit women on this site; but it will never happen. 

Woke up today in terrible pain.  Had a rough workout with my trainer yesterday, but it was more pain than just DOMS.  My bones hurt today.  My head hurts, my stomach hurts…Everything hurts.  Some days I sit here wondering why the hell I bother, why put myself through this.  I’m exhausted, I don’t feel well, and I need to train tonight.  Why.  Why do I feel this need to destroy my body.  What void in life am I trying to fill???  Who the fuk knows! I just train anyway.  I will train today as I would any other day, because I have that itch.  No matter how much pain I feel, I have the need to train.  The need to be better today than I was yesterday.  I need the high of self respect and accomplishment.  It’s my drug.  March 2 is my first test.  An indoor tri.  Should be easy, but I need the win.  That is why I must train today.  I need the early win to boost my spirits for the season.  Thank you to all that are supporting me.  I need the encouragement from time to time. 

**** you to all the haters that put me down and say I can’t accomplish what I set out to do.  I love when people doubt me…cause I always win.  You doubt me; thanks…that gives me the motivation to shove it up your ass when I destroy you on the course.  I may not be the best looking guy.  I may not be the best "natural athlete".  I may not know as much as everyone else…But you know what????  I work my fkin ass off, and I’m not afraid of failure.  You can all talk shit, but I know you’re scared when you see me at the start line.  I’m too damn stuborn to lose to you.  To all my fellow athletes that are supportive:  I got mad love for ya.  I love anyone that competes.  Big or small; be proud of what you’re doing.  Never let people put you down.  they only do it because they’re scared.  Train hard and put all your effort into it.  Nothing else matters.  Nothing. 

I don’t know what the hell the human body is up to; but it has a mind of its own.  I’m a triathlete and I’m getting frustrated at the ups and downs of training.  This past week my swims were phenomonal; the best I’ve done in years.  Yet, at the same time, my runs were the worst I’ve had.  It seems like as I gain fitness in one area, I lose it in another.  What the F___.  I’m trying to stay patient; and see where I end up in the long run, but it makes me nervous.  Most triathletes start out as great runners; I’m the opposite.  I’m a very strong swimmer; and good on the bike.  The run is just killing me.  A few weeks ago I felt fine going 5 or 6 miles…This last week; dead at 3.  I have mad respect for runners; because I’m good at everything I do; except for running.  I train with runners; I talk to runners; I have a running coach; I have custom fit running shoes; but I still suffer with the run.  By no means am I terrible..I still run an 18 minute 5k, but that is no where near good enough for what I want to accomplish.  I try long runs; I try speed work; I try stairs.  I just never feel like my legs are built for running.  Its frustrating as hell. I just hope persistance and most of all; me being a stuborn ass, will get me through this tough period and I’ll start seeing the rewards.

Realizing that you are gaining fitness and actually gettting into decent shape is an unbelievable feeling.  Today I swam about 2 miles; and felt amazing.  I was flying through the water without any strain at all.  I actually woke up feeling like shit; sore and miserable.  Was not expecting a good workout in the pool toay.  Turns out I was completely wrong.  I swam hard with minimal rest intervals.  I’ve lost some weight due to the intense cardio, which is quite depressing when I’m used to having muscle.  I’m in the best shape I’ve been in but I’m not enjoying the muscle loss.  I go to this site and see everyone trying to gain muscle; and here I am losing it for my sport.  I wish I could be big and still remain fast for the triathlons; but it just doesn’t seem to work that way.  It’s depressing to watch the comments slowly disappear; and the congrats fade away…Hopefully it will be worth it when I bring home the $$$.  So far my sponsors should be happy; I’m doing better than expected.

For some reason I find pain overly theraputic.  I know a lot of people say they enjoy the pain from training, but I think I enjoy it a little too much.  After my trainer has made me puke from a leg workout I tell him I’m bored and thanks for the warm-up…Just so he’ll kick my ass more.  I think physical pain is a release from the emotional pain I hide.  Release from the frustration of everyday life, and frustration from loved ones expecting failure from you.  The harder I train, the better I feel.  I’m exhausted, my legs hurt…I can barely stand up without assistance; yet I’m happy right now. 

 Yesterday I worked 10hrs and then rode for about an  hour on my trainer.  I really need to get some longer rides in, but I get so bored on my trainer.  I usually throw in a movie or tv shows; but I still have trouble going longer.  I keep hearing that I should do some 3 hour rides on the bike so my body learns how to burn food stores over a longer period of time; but shit!  I’m stuck at an hour, let alone going for 3 hours.  My calves still hurt from the stairs the other day; but improving.  I have another hour of cardio to get in today.  Tomorrow I’ll be swimming for an hour, and hour ride and hopefully an quick run too.  I wish I had someone that encouraged me, and wanted to hear about my training; and more importantly understood what its like to push to the limit.  Training 8-10 hours a week–alone; sucks.  I seek internal peace within myself; but I believe you have to fight for it.  Thats why my headline is "si vis pacem, para bellum" which means "if you’re seeking peace, prepare for war". 

Sore as shit today. I knew I only had about 30 minutes to run yesterday, so while I was at work I decided to run stairs.  I took full advantage of my lunch break and sprinted up 8 flights (long flights) of stairs.  The first time I hit every step, then I walked down.  Next time up I went every other and had more of a quad effect.  I repated this several times.   I got off of work at 5 and halled ass to the gym so I could jump on the treadmill for 30 minutes.  7mph for 5 alt. w/ 7.5mph for 5.  Then hit the shower and was off the school.  (gotta love night classes).  That was the first stair workout I’ve done in a long time, and it shows today.  My calves are destroyed.  Guess I should do that more often.  My biggest race of the year is in San Fran, so I’m assuming the stair running will help a little with the hills out there.  I’m pretty tired from my 18 hr day yesterday, but I’m ready to get home and hit the bike for at least an hour. 

I’m already nervous about the Alcatraz race…Not only is it supposed to be one of the hardest open water swims in the country, but now everyone wants to be there to see me.  Which means, I have to be in shape.  The race isn’t until August, but I’m sure I’ll need every day of training that I can get.  Hope my confidence grows from doing some smaller races earlier in the season….

Sometimes in life it just seems easy to fail.  It can be easy to settle.  It can be easy to stop running and walk, it can be easy to put the weights down; but I’ve learned that the easier it is to stop, the more it damages you mentally.  When I push through something, and I succeed; I’m on top of the world.  So I’ve decided that I’m done with failure.  I’m done walking, I’m done stopping when the burn hits.  I will not only meet my goals, but I will destroy them.  I’ve been training, but honestly…not hard enough.  It’s time I wake up and stop making excuses.  I’m swimming 2x a week, riding 3x a week and running 3x a week, yet it’s not enough…I’ve only been doing about 6hrs a week when I should be closer to 10.  I’ve seen a lot of motivation on this site, and hope to turn myself around and earn a spot at nationals within 2 years.  Night classes start tonight, so it will be tough to find time…working 10 hours before class doesn’t leave too much time.  I’ll try to keep everyone posted on my training.  Please let me know if you have any tips on running/cycling/or swimming.  My main race is the "escape from alcatraz" in san fran on August 10.  I will need powerful legs to get through those hills..I’ll take all the help I can get.

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