tryingto’s BodyBlog

I find it very interesting on this site how there’s some people here who love to name call and make fun of people.  I have a new comment to one of my photos and the comment was "you’re disgusting."  I checked out the person’s page and they have no picture and no other information about themselves.  It’s interesting how someone like that gets off "bashing" someone who’s making an honest attempt to better themselves.  Now, I also know that you open yourself to anything on this site.  Most of it, at least 99% of it, has been positive and great!  Of course, it  makes me wonder, if this person is so brave, why they don’t post pics of themselves?  Why are they hiding?  And why even "bash" someone?  Aren’t we  all here to help not only ourselves but each other out?  I will continue with my progress and continue posting my progress pics for my benefit–and if someone sees that they can make it too, so for the better!

ok, so I’ve really had it with this ad on tv for the Lap Band; it replaces getting gastric-bypass surgery done.  There’s this new ad and all these overweight people stand around and say things like, "if I lost weight, I wouldn’t feel so bad shopping for clothes."  "If I lost weight, maybe I’d visit my sister more." (the lady who says this is standing outside an airport)  Then they talk about the side-effect, "the band MAY slip and have to reattached." (among others) Now, this is just me and my opinion; but I think these types of surgeries are a quick fix for anyone who doesn’t want to take the weight off the tried and true way; diet and exercise.  Ads like this really pour on the insecurities of overweight people.  And, how do the makers know how overweight people feel about themselves?  Sounds like they’ve lumped them all together in one big group and said, "hey, all overweight people  must feel this way about them selves!"  I don’t think that’s true.

…I’ve learned alot of things about working out and eating.  It’s been a little over a year now that I got serious about working out and eating.  One big thing I learned about the two is this; it’s work and you have to want to do it and make a commitment to do it.  And, I’m not talking once in while or twice a week; I mean every single day!  I got days when I felt too tired and didn’t want to go the gym or see something really gooey and good to eat–but I put my mind on it’s focus mode and did just fine.  I did give myself a cheat day once a week.  But the two really do go hand-in-hand.  Some guys at the gym asked me what I did or how I lost the weight and I told them.  Their responses have been, "gee, that’s alot of work."  And it is.  No secret pills or stupid gadets that say you’ll trim down in five days or no stupid infomercials on buying someone’s food to eat.  Anyone out there who’s overweight can do it and will; you just have to want it bad and do it and stick with it–because it takes time and isn’t a quick fix.  And stick with it–you’ll feel so much better.  You can do this–I know; I’ve done it.

I thought today how some people at the gym workout like they drive.  Some are Reckless; just doing what they want, passing everyone by, making lots of noise and leaving a mess behind for others to clean up.  The Real Slow Ones; take their time with every up and down, pull and push motion.  Middle Lane Driver; just like to stay where they are and not move on from there.  The Zig-Zaggers; pass everyone by, go from one to the other and not caring who’s in the way as long as they get ahead.  And let’s not forget, there ARE the very concious and concerned ones too; likes to look around, check the mirror and make sure everythings ok before they move on.  Which one are you??

I know this may sound silly or crazy, but just this past week, I’ve really come across a benefit to working out–I mean besides the obvious reasons.  Another great benefit is how it completely helps you focus for that time.  Right now, I’m going through a difficult time with a family member being at home with hospice.  And, as much as I’ve been upset all week about it, I still made myself go to gym and do my weights and cardio.  It was a tremendous help because I really HAD to focus on my weight training–if I hadn’t it would’ve been a useless workout; but I didn’t make it that way.  It’s been a great mental release for me.  Even the cardio.  I got to get mad at the cancer that’s been eating away at my mom and tramp it all over the treadmill!!  Again, my music playing and the focus on the workout.  I think it’s been such a great help–I could’ve easily gone home from work and get more upset but I chose not to.  I suggest everyone try it and see the benefits for themselves!!

so, I thought maybe my weight gain was from water-retention; I’m having second thoughts!  I don’t think it is.  I don’t look any heaveir than I have been; I don’t notice my stomach has grown. So, maybe it’s more muscle gain.  I’ll like to think that. I guess I just have to keep my fingers crossed on that one!!

so, when I weighed myself a few days ago, it read 263.  I was shocked.  I was at 250-253.  Then I realized it’s from all this salty food I’ve been eating this past week.  I know it’s probably water weight I’ve gained–I know you can’t gain 10 pounds in two weeks time!  I’ve been posting my weight weekly on my page but haven’t been doing it lately.  I just think that it’s not about the weight anymore for me but more about how I see myself looking.  I see way too many people at the gym get obsessed with weighting themselves; especially after a cardio session.  I don’t know what good that would do; if you sweat out water?  So, my weight isn’t so much a part of my program anymore.  Considering my size, I probably won’t get under 250 anyway!

Courage is something we all went.  To be able to face a fear head on and tackle it.  I think this is even true when it comes to deciding to make any change in your life.  Change can upset friends and family who get used to seeing you in a certain way or in a certain routine.  Change it and those friends and family can get angry with you.  Let’s face it, when you first joined a gym and walked in, didn’t you think every eye was on you?  Seening what you did, laugh if you did something wrong., etc…That’s where courage comes into play.  It’s something you have to decide to take hold of and be the best person you can be; it shouldn’t and doesn’t matter what anyone else should think.  We all have to start somewhere.  So, the next time you’re working out and see someone maybe not doing an exercise right, give some friendly advice, support and let the person know it just takes time to get the knack of it but eventually they will.  We can all help each other discover where our courage comes from.

I had my last pt visit for my piriformis syndrome  on Thursday.  One thing I’ve noticed, is that it’s numb as it was it’s sore–that maybe from doing the stretches. Anyway, I think it might eventually go away–after all, it’s probably been coming on for a while; sneaking up on me and till BANG–there it was.  I’m still working hard on the weights and cardio.  I’ve even been using the elepticle machine; which is funny because just six months ago it was too much for me!!  It shows me how far I’ve come since this past February.  Next month, January, will make a year.  I’m very excited to see what next year will hold for me.  And to my friends out there, thanks for your support all this time–it’s meant a lot!!

ok, it’s been two weeks now that I started my pt and the results are just great! The numbing pain I had on my right buttocks is now gone!  It’s amazing what these simple stretched have done to  solve the problem.  I had a session today; my next one is next Monday and I may or may not have two left after that; depending on how I feel.  I’m just so relieved and happy how all this had turned out!!!