tryingto’s BodyBlog

I was always excited about some of my measurements; a 52 chest and 17 inch arms.  Now, four-and-a-half months later, I remeasured myself and found my chest is now 49 and arms are 16.  Disappointed?  Yes-but then realized I lost FAT and not muscle.  It shows me my body is starting to firm up and change now.  Isn’t that really exciting?  You betcha’!

My surgery to correct my incisional hernia is set for Sept 6.  It’s for 6:45 am and was told I should be leaving by 12 noon.  It’s those two weeks being off I don’t look forward to.  I’ll be doing a lot of reading and watching movies!  but, most of all, I’ll be thinking about how much I’ll miss working out for that time!  I guess the best way to look at it is just giving my muscles a much needed vacation from vigirously working out! 

I had an appointment today with the doctor who removed my gall bladder back in January of this year.  He asked how I was feeling and I told him about my weight lose.  He laid me on the examination table and says, "oh, you’ve got an incisional hernia."  I was wonder what that poturding part of my stomach was.  I said, "oh, I thought it was just scar tissue."  He shakes his head and said, "no, I have to fix that."  So, this means another operation in September and being off work for at least two weeks!  That also means NO weight training for that time!  As sad as I am about this, at least I now what the bumpy area on my stomach is and that it can be fixed which, will make my stomach look even smaller in the long run.

Somehow, and I don’t know how, I pulled a muscle in my back; I’m talking upper lat area.  I’m always careful when I work out; I never try and use a weight I know I can’t handle or cheat in lifting–all that stuff.  The only thing I can think of is I had to bend wrong at work or pull something too hard.  I did go to the gym today and worked around my back; even though it was back day today.  I did biceps and triceps instead as super sets.  I don’t think I’ll be working my back at all this week!  I’ll miss you back and hope to see you back next week!  Bad joke: 1st guy:  I have a week back.      2nd guy: how long have you had a week back?     1st guy: oh, about a week back.

This week, Wednesday exactly, we learned that one of our coworkers killed himself Tuesday; he had hung himself.  the guy was my age.  He also has two kids in their twenties; I can’t even imagine what they’re going through right now.  The tough part was that it was during a training day and it was  announced after lunch; then, we had to go on like nothing happened!  I couldn’t believe it.  I’ve never known anyone who committ suicide before.  It wasn’t like the guy was my best friend but we talked off and on.  I coulnd’t help but feel a great sadness for him and also trying to understand how he could have done this to himself.  It certainly has changed me in some ways inside.  It makes you think and wonder how someone could be at the bottom of the barrell so low that they think the only solution is to kill yourself; there has to be other options out there than to get so far down on yourself; isn’t there?

I weighed myself this moring and just couldn’t believe that I’ve lost another 4 pounds!  That now means I only have 6 more pounds to go to meet my new goal of loosing another 10 pounds!  Sometimes I don’t even know how or when this happened; all I know is that it has and I’m just thrilled and so happy about it!!!!!!

The truth is, I love to bake; homemade breads, cakes, cookies–all that good fattening stuff!  I haven’t made any of this stuff for myself in a while since starting my program.  I while and do, however, make it and bring into work for my coworkers to enjoy.  I made some Krispie Treats last night.  While one of my coworkers go herself a treat, she turns to me and says, "I think you’re being evil in that your getting skinny and you’re trying to make us all fat!"  She giggled after she said this.  Is that what I’m doing?  I don’t think so–am I?  Hmm?

I can honestly say how excited and happy I am with my results after four months.  I look at my before photo and just can’t believe how different my body looks; this site just keeps me so motivated and inspired!!  I love this site!

I have to admitt, I hate doing shoulders exercises; I just hate working them!  I don’t know why, but I do.  However, I work them just as hard as any other body part because I know the advantages of working them.  On the other hand, I just love, love doing leg exercises.  My most favorite is squats and me second favorite is the stiff legged dead lift.  I guess it’s because I love the feeling in my legs after the workout; how they feel stronger each time.

sometimes, cardio seems mundane and tiresome! Now, you have to take into the fact that I’m not a lightweight at 258–therefore, I don’t run! I use the treadmilll and try to increase the height of it and still, it seems boring. I tried the elipical machine and again, not good for my weight! The bike is boring to me–just sitting there and pedling; plus the seat isn’t so easy on my behind! I’m trying to think what else to do–SOS, SOS!