dtknow’s BodyBlog

i havent been very faithful these last few weeks with my ymca workouts. i feel horrible about that, but i told my husband that when its nice out i would rather be outside working out, so that is what i have been doing. i really havent been pushing myself like i was due to the fact i think i might have shine splints. but i do make myself go out and power walk (i did jog a little and run steps the other day) i even got on a bike tonight and went with my oldest son to the res. if that wasnt funny. i havent been on a bike in years. i think i did about two hours of walking and bike riding tonight alone. oh and for those who read my other post, my husband is finally starting to feel better today…OH YEAH

i tried on a pair of my favorite workout pants tonight some that i havent been able to get over my big butt in a few years and i am almost there…yeah baby. i was told today by several people at work that i have a nice butt…yeah baby. people are finally starting to see a skinner me…yeah baby. i think all of my hard work is finally starting to pay off. i am really feeling good about it. almost feelling cute again. that is a really good feeling, one which i havent had for what seems like forever. i just want to smile all the time…

i didnt eat much supper tonight either. for some reason food just didnt sound good. i know i need to eat my points so instead of fat free popcorn my youngest and i shared a mini bag of butter popcorn…that should of ate up some of my points huh.  weigh in is in a few more days. i am shooting for another 3lb loss. that would give me a total of 10lbs in three weeks. that wedding is in a month and i am wanting to buy the sexy little dress. so everyone keep your fingers crossed for me and wish me luck ok.

we dont have any kids home tonight, my husband is sick and i didnt feel like cooking, so we ordered a cheese pizza for supper. could not help it i was soooo hungry for one. i ate a couple of pieces and had a small glass of soda. i started to feel bad about it, but then i thought hmmmm…i did three miles on the track today and some steps, i wasnt over my points for the day (weight watchers) and i really want that pizza so what the hell. i am thinking about going for another walk to work some of it off, but i dont know. tooo bad husband is sick i could think of some better ways to work off that pizza lol. oh well. thats the way it goes sometimes right.

i have been going into work early (5 am) and i havent been sleeping well at all. i make sure i workout everyday even if its just going for a walk, but for the last two nights i havent had any energy to do much of anything.i feel bad about that, but i just couldnt hardly even fix dinner tonight. i even went out to kmart in my work clothes. i was gross.lol. i told my husband that this weekend i have to make up for it. cant get fit but sitting on my butt. next week i have to work 10 hrs a day. i cant let myself slip. i am finally on a roll with the weight loss. have a month before i have to go shopping for that sexy little dress. I CANT WAIT

tomorrow is my second weigh in at weight watchers. i always get nervous when i have to step on the scales. i have been trying so hard all week long. i have been watching what i eat and i have been working out everyday. not as hard as i have been in the weeks before, (knee has been acting up again) but i have been walking all over this town. so hopefully we will see a loss this week. have to pack a lite lunch for tomorrow, dont want any extra weight lol.

lets see where to begin. friday nights i always have my father-in-law over for dinner, so when i get home from work i have no time to sit and relax before i have to start cooking. no big deal there because i love having him over, but when it comes to getting everyone else to help pick up that is when i get mad because mom should have super powers or something. we went to pick up my son after dinner and he and my husband wanted ice cream NO THANKS saturday, i had a bridal shower to go to. i was kinda worried about the food, but i was very proud of myself. i DIDNT  eat any cake and kept my intake to very little. at three, my husband called and said their movie was over and to pick them up at burger king of all places. i get there and he wants a piece of hersheys pie for everyone. NO THANKS pretty proud of myself there too. sunday was trying to clean up house when all of a sudden husband and i kinda get into a disagreement. well when i am mad i sometimes make bad choices and eat something, but instead i went upstairs and took a nap. after we made up we went to subway for supper, i said NO THANKS to the sub and got a salad instead. so i feel pretty good for the most part about my choices this weekend. i did give in on the angel food cake friday night, but i have to tell myself it could be worse.  plus i didnt get all my water in this weekend pretty upset about that i try to drink at least 94 oz. a day and i only got about half of that.

MY WORKOUT:

friday night walked the resivoir 1.5 miles

saturday morning walked to dollar general. ( could of walked to the closer one, but instead walked across town to the one on the north end.) that was a walk!!!

sunday night went to stadium and walked, jogged (tried to sprint and just cant do it yet) and did the stairs.

i have my weights out i just need to find time to do them. thought about doing them while watching tv or something, but i really dont even have time for that.

today is monday and we have a vacation day, so i hope he doesnt want to go out to eat anywhere. i do better home.so we will see.

i have recently told my husband not to let me slack on the worklouts. he hasnt broke that promise. between all  the yard work, house work, walking to the grocery store, walking the mall, my husband and i went to the stadium three days in a row now, speed walking and running the steps. he tells me that we will be doing that alot. i was so tired afterwards i could barely make it to bed. lol.. i just have to keep telling myself that saying "no pain, no gain" that is what i am going to go by now.  i didnt know that a persons body could hurt EVERYWHERE head to toe.

my husband did my measurements, the numbers scare me. i hope he did it right. they seem "big" to me. i have been writing down everything that i eat. it really does make you aware of what you are eating in a day. i look at it everynight and say did i really need this or that. or i say damn girl you did really good today.

well lets start from the beginning…we had a health check at work this a.m. so i couldnt eat after 7 last night…which is ok since i dont like to eat late, but i couldnt have coffee either…grrrrr get to work and have blood work done, then went over to the scales thinking that i felt good so i had to of lost some weight, (now remember i have been doing aerobic step and kickboxing since last august) yeah no i didnt since august i have only lost 5.5 stinkin pounds i was not happy at all. very discouraged. been trying to eat 5-6 small meals a day and drink lots of water i work out too dont know what the heck is going on. maybe i should have my thyroid checked or something. today i ate scrambbled egg whites and an apple with coffee at 1st break, protein bar , lunch was grilled chicken, cabbage, strawberries for snack, and then i picked at grilled chicken for supper. oh and i did have a peanut butter cookie…soooo bad

SO i go to the ymca for my step class and when i leave bonnie pulls me into the office to tell me that my son (12 yrs old) got into a fist fight there..the boy he fought is my ex fiances son. they lived together for 6 years there is no reason for this i tell them right…SO when i get home after this and finding out my son cant go to the ymca for 30 days my husband and i went to the stadium for a brisk walk. so we walked a lap then ran and down the steps twice. walked then ran up and down…we did this for awhile i am beat my feet hurt so bad now.

a friend of mine goes to weight watchers and wants me to check it out. its on thursday at the same time my kickboxing class is. i tell mandy that i didnt know if i would go or not. i went to w.w. before and it did help i lost alot of weight, but i love my kickboxing class i feel great when i leave out of there. so i dont know what to do. i might check out one meeting tomorrow and go from there. who knows???

OH YEAH THE FIGHT WAS OVER A GIRL…I TELL MY SON TO STAY AWAY FROM THEM CAUSE THEY ARE NOTHING BUT TROUBLE…MAYBE NOW HE WILL LISTEN…YEAH RIGHT!!!

i hope all have a great and productive day

i went back to work today after being off since march 7. it was a very very long day. i was so afraid that i would eat because i was bored, but i can proudly say that didnt happen. yes i was bored today, but i ate what i was suppose to eat when i was suppose to eat it. there was a time this afternoon that i wasnt even hungry and it was time to eat. so instead of alot i had 5 strawberries. then supper i wasnt hungry but did eat a little. as for water i did drink 64 oz. tomorrow i am going to try and drink more. i have a feeling that it may start getting hard to eat so many times throughout the day. i normally dont eat that much…especially breakfast, but i do make myself. 

i have had to put one foot forward and move on alot through life like i am sure everyone has, but this journey that i am on seem so difficult and never ending. i feel like i want there to be these overnight results and its not happening. i watch what i eat and i work out when possible but i am still not seeing any results…even after a year. i dont know what i am doing wrong or even right and every single day i have to tell myself not to give up. i look at my kids, husband and hell even myself and thank God everyday we are still  here, i just want  to be healthier. so here today i am making a promise to myself that each time i say or think something negative about myself, i have to think or say something positive. life is too short and i have faith that if i keep up all my hard work and dedication that it will pay off in the end, i know it will. patiance is the key. I CANNOT AND WILL NOT GIVE UP!!!!!

been a member for not quite a week yet and there is soo much info that i dont have enough time for it all. i have worked hard and long on trying to change my body and i am not seeing much differance. its been a year almost should i see something by now, right? so i am going to "eat clean" (thanks annette) for six days and have a cheat day on the seventh. keep on working hard and looking up all the info that i can on how to live a much  healthier life. not only for myself, but for my family as well. so let the journey begin.