Daily thoughts

"To this end we always pray for you, that our God may make you worthy of his calling and may fulfuill every resolve for good and every work of faith by his power, so that the name of our Lord Jesus may be glorified in you, and you in him, according to the grace of our God and the Lord Jesus Christ."  2 Thessalonians 1:11- 12

As a christian i have struggled at times with why our God allows things to happen to me or to other christians that are so devastating.  The world often says "if God was really good and loved you, He wouldnt have allowed that, He is playing with you."  etc etc  I was looking through some of the forum thread the other day and there was one of the many that bash our great God and they were saying how silly and stupid we are that we believe in a God that is so cruel and that He is just playing with us, pulling our strings to see us suffer and being entertained by our misery!  I hate arguing, i dont like dissention, i am very non confontational so i chickened out and left the forum without commenting.  but as i though about it our lives are not such a wreck because God is playing with us, or lives are a wreck because we arent following Gods moral will, His perfect word, this is our fault not Gods.  also God allows adversity in our lives so that we will rise above worldly responses and that we will trust in Him and have faith in Him, that we will set ourselves apart from the world in the way we respond and that they will then see the difference in us and desire to know our perfect God!  I need to stop complaining about the hard times, the financial difficulties, the things that people do against me and start thanking God that He is completing the good works He has begun in me, that He is growing me in Him, that He is preparing me and sanctifying me for His purposes.  Lord, forgive me for not trust you in every and all things, forgive me for laying awake last night worrying about payroll and bills and other financial worries, i am here because i made bad choices, i am also here so that i will learn to be in better control of my spending, you have a reason and a purpose for every difficult time.  The bad employee, i will now check references, i will now know that there are decisions to be made that you dont necessarily have a specific will for.  I will have faith in you that you know what parts of me need to be cut our with the sword of your word and i will persevere through the cutting with thankfullness because afterwards i will be so much healthier!  you are perfect in everything that you do!  you are not up in heaven using us as pawns but rather preparing us for an eternity of praising and worshiping you. I am miserable because of choices i have made, sins i have commited, but you are gracious and you pour out your new mercies upon me each day! Thank you!

Didnt sleep real well last night.  went to bed at 8 but took awhile to fall asleep, i hate that, as i love to go to bed early!  So between the outside dogs barking and barking all the time and Angel and Albert sleeping on me so i couldnt move, it was a difficult sleeping night.  Woke up at my usual a little before 4 so got out of bed.  Read my bible and journaled but gave the abs a day off today!  dont really know why but they have been a little weak and sore so i figured i would rest them and then give them a change up next week after i get my bench all put together and my pullup bar installed!

today is clinic christmas pictures.  i am always so behind in this part.  would have like to have done it before now but just havent had the time.  told all the staff to dress festive so i hope they are great!

May all of you have a wonderful day!  love you!

this is my best friend and the deer she shot last week! 

The afternoon wasnt super busy which was kind of nice given how crazy it has been all week!  I must say that it is nice being in the clinic and not on the road driving all the time!  Plus i love having the monchers running around, well most of the time.   The new girl we hired is going to be great.  She doesnt complain and tries really hard and asks alot of questions.  Thank you Lord for bringing her.

Made it to the gym tonight.  My friend went with me again and we did a bicep workout tonight!  Her arms are very strong for her size and lack of physical excercise.  Although she did just go hunting and killed an incredible mule deer.  9 X 10, score 219 3/8th  for all you hunting type, i will include a pic at the end of the blog.  Anyway we warmed up for 10 min me on the stairstepper from hell and she on the treadmill. then we did barbell curls, preacher curls, rope curls, and concentration curls 4 sets of each.  After that we came back and measured.  I have to say as much as i dread this, i have actually lost an inch off my waist and hips! and have gained inches everywhere else.  im going to take this as a sign of muscle growth and not fat. since body fat is decreasing.  I must say that i am avoiding the scale because i know my weight will have increased and i know you men think that that is awesome, but as a woman, i hate it!  so staying away from the scale and will judge on clothing fit and body stats!

here is her deer, remember she shot this in arizona where the deer arent usually very big.  her shot was at 475 yards with the buck on the run and only four shots!

So we had 9 surgeries this mornig but most of them were castrations and no, i didnt cut any huevos off that i wasnt supposed to!   i had all but one done by 10:30 and had to leave to get my nails done!   i love having new nails, dont like sitting to get them done but love having different ones every few weeks!  so i was supposed to go to vegas but since im not going, i had her tone down the bling and add a drop of red for christmas charm!

so wore matching red bra and panties as requested but had already decided to wear purple scrub top for Emma so of course i had to wear something that matched underneath so i picked this pretty top and the red shows a little but not too bad.  i also was happy that it was tight enough to show my arm muscles. it is the little things that make life so happy!

"and we urge you, brothers, admonish the idle, encourage the fainthearted, help the weak, be patient with them all.  see that no one repays anyone evil for evil, but always seek to do good to one another and to everyone. Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you"  1thessalonians 5:14-18

Having grown up in a christian home often i remember being told to seek Gods will, to pray and ask God to reveal His will for me or my situation.  I have done this my whole life and this week on Walk in the Word, with James MacDonald, he has been preaching on Gods will and that it isnt some small dot that we have to stay on but rather that it is a lush greeen pasture with a fence around it.  God doesnt necessarily have ONE specific plan for our lives, He loves us, He wants His children to be happy.  We are the ones that make such a big deal about everything, stressing and worrying over Gods will in our lives.  Gods will is His perfect Word!  If you desire to be with an unbeliever, it isnt His will, He tells us dont be unequally yoked.  If you are trying to decide on a job where you will be pulled away from your family, not being able to spend time raising your kids or time with your spouse, thats not His will, family is second only to love of God!  It so opened my eyes to how miserable we as christian make our lives by trying to fit everything into some little box that is supposed to be Gods will for our lives.  He tells us what His will is right here in 1 thessalonians, admonish the idol, encourage, seek to do good, dont repay evil with evil, rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks, thats it, thats His will, everything else He lets us decide, He lets us make those choices.  Thank you Lord Jesus, thank you for removing this burdeon of trying to live on the dot of your will.  Your will is huge for my life, you love me and you want me to make choices that are right for me and that fall with the boundries of your Word!  Forgive me wasting so much time praying for your will instead of seeking your word and doing what it tells me to do.  Forgive me for the misery that i have caused myself and you, im sure, by struggling with this concept!  Your will is for me to love, to build up others, to pray, to give thanks, to worship you, everything else are just extras for me to decide!  I love your word and i thank you for revealing such an import concept.  Forgive me for all the years that i sought your will but didnt want to do it because i wanted to indulge my sinful nature with worldly things.  My life is yours and i will now live in your will, with your help!

Made it to the gym last night!  My office manager and best friend is going to try going with me for a month.  We have been friends for 9 years or so and she is the best friend i have ever had, never asking anything of me but rather just being there, it is a great friendship.  we have been through some very tough times and here we are still friends!  She is a cardio junky but has a bladder disease that has taken her years to figure out and figure out how to eat so that it doesnt become inflammed!  I told her awhile ago that she should go with me as the days she works are usually the days i go to the gym.  So she told her husband that she was going to try it.  last night we did chest and i was a little worried that it would take too long with having her but we cruised right through everything, but we arent there to socialize so it is pretty much all lifting and getting to the next excercise.  i hope she sticks with it because i know that it makes me feel so much better and she deserves to feel great as she is a great person!  and if i can teach her to spot i will be so excited!

Went to bed at nine last night and slept pretty good. got up at 4 and read my bible, did my crunches, push ups, leg thingys and am ready for the day.  Started to put my bench together yesterday morning but need to find a wrench   i hate stuff like this.  it isnt that i cant do it, i just am lazy i guess!  anyway i am going to try to get it all put together before next week and get my pullup bar installed as well!

We have tons of surgeries scheduled today and i made sure to wear matching bra and panties agian!  yesterday went very smoothly and so why tempt fate again! hahahaha  I hope that everyone has a great and wonderful day! love you all!

Today has been a great great day! everything is going smoothly and we only have 3 surgeries left!  As you can see, i am very very colorful today, i think that helps make the day great!

Fish, one of the clinic cats decided that this dog would be a good friend haha. glad the dog didnt mind cats!

"Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly, teaching and admonishing one another in all wisdom, singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, with THANKFULLENSS in your hearts to God.  and whatever you do, in word, or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving THANKS to God the Father through him."  Colossians 3:16-17

By nature, i am a whiny person.  I hate to admit it but as with most of us, complaining comes very easy.  I catch myself often making statements that are whiny about busy days and difficult employees and bad clients and mean dogs.  How wrong of me, all these things are allowed into my life to grow me in Christ.  I would way rather be busy than sitting on my butt, give thanks, Debbie.  difficult employees make me search within myself as to why i hired them and to be more careful in the future, check references Debbie!  Bad clients grow me in relationships, humbling myself, changing the very core of my being to be a better christian, walk and treat people as Christ would Debbie.  Mean dogs, hmmmmm not so sure what good they are other then to teach me to sew myself up.   In ALL things give thanks, when i stop whining and start thanking God the difficult situations, everything becomes more peaceful, the chaos doesnt stop but i deal with it better, the employee got fired, peace returns, know better next time, bad client, humble myself and God will lift me up, client sees humility and accepts it and sometimes they become great clients, sometimes not but it is my job to be Christ like in all things that I do.  Forgive me Father for not thanking you in all things, forgive me for whining and complaining, for all these things give me opportunity to grow in you or pour out you love on others.  My life isnt about me, silly Debbie, my life is about YOU!  Build in me a heart of thanksfullness, a heart of joy, a heart of praise and worship of you and to you!  For my life is not my own but was bought with a great price, i belong to you, use me as you will, not my will!  Thank you my precious Jesus!

I got to the gym last night! yeah so very excited and i had a good workout on top of that!  rode bike for 11 minutes HIT, i admire all you warriors out there who can do cardio HIT for 30-60 minutes! ugh i hate every second, haha but i love the sweat that it works up!  Work back, did pull ups, bent over rows, seated rows, hyperextensions, upright rows.  lots of rowing haha got in and out pretty quick.  Once i started really checking the time inbetween sets and trying to keep it around a minute, man i can have a good work out and get the heck out of there in 20-30 minutes! that makes me happy as then there isnt the guilt associated with being away from the monchers!

Definately wearing matching bra and panties today as it is a busy day on the schedule!  I think there is 12 or 13 surgeries this morning, almost all of them large dog spays and afternoon is booked starting at 2pm.  Thank you Jesus for all this work during a season that is usually very slow!  I know that this is a blessing from you!  But i am so happy as my problem employee is gone and there will be joy in my heart!  amazing how one bad apple spoils everyone and everything!!! 

did my usual 500 crunches, need to get my bench thingy out of the box so i can start varying things up alittle. also bought a pull up bar and have to get that installed.  ugh i need more time or somebody who has time that wants to do all this stuff for me! haha  Luckily the housekeeper comes today, the house is a disaster, amazing how fast it happens.  Im just thankful that there are crazy people out there who like to clean.

Have a great day everyone! love you!

it has been non stop all morning! wow crazy crazy!  just about time for staff meeting! these pups are really cute!  12 of them, the owner brought her in because she hadnt passed all the placentas, we xrayed and she had 2 pups still in there.  so she has been in oxytocin hell. better her than me, thats all i can say!

"Rejoice in the Lord always, agian i will say Rejoice.  Let your reasonableness be known to everyone.  The Lord is at hand; do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made know to God.  And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.  Finally brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things"  Phillipians 4:4-8

When i walked in the world, mostly in the world with my hand still on the fence of christianity, i often wondered why i wasnt satisfied with the the christian life.  Why was it so hard, why werent my prayers answered, why didnt i have this peace, why did things not go like the bible said it was supposed to.  WHY, because i was a retard and was living in the world, HELLO debbie, the world is perishing and it wants to take as many people with it as it can.  We wonder why we arent satisfied with the christian life, because we dont do the simple things that we are told to!  Choose to sin, Choose to suffer!  When i stopped riding the fence, when i jumped with both feet into life in Christ, i started rejoicing in my afflictions, i gave my troubles to God, I started thanking Him for all that i was going through.  And you know what, i have been filled with His peace ever since.  Everybody wonders how i do what i do, how i keep up with everything, i dont think about, i dont dwell up my life, i am praising and worshiping God for all of it and He rewards me with peace!  How perfect is that!?  I try very hard to dwell on what is true, honorable, just, pure, lovely, commendable.  When i am thinking on these things, i dont have time to worry about worldly cares.  It isnt about me, it is about Christ!  And He has given me peace that surpasses all understanding because believe me, when i start taking my eyes off Him and looking at everything going on in my life, i sink real fast. As i was journaling this morning it dawned on me that the christian life is just like learning to eat clean.  it is hard, it takes alot of self control, alot of self denial, alot of turning away but the more i eat clean, the less bad stuff i want, the more i desire healthy eating.  The same with my christian walk, the more i focus on God, the more I walk in Him, the more i live according to His word and His desires and His demands, the more I want to, the "easier" it becomes to continue along the difficult and narrow road that leads to eternity with Christ!  Yeah!  i am so happy with that revelation this morning!  yeah i kinow, im wierd but man, our God rocks!

I made it to Phoenix and back.  took Emma with me, probably not the best idea, at 5 she is still alittle whiny for my patience! haha it was nice to be able to have a mother daughter day and she did pretty good.  We went to costco and got stuff for the clinic and I also got a bench! yeah im so happy!  for $80 i got a bench that inclines, declines and lays flat!  probably not the best quality but for my bedroom abs and other excercises it will be perfect!  Then we drove across the world to the hairdressers, and got our hairs cut and I had mine highlighted.  My hair guy always asks what i want and i just look at him and say "you are the expert, do whatever you think it needs." haha  After that we drove back across the world so that we wouldnt get stuck in traffic and stopped and had lunch/dinner as it was already 3.  Ate not very good food, Emma had a cheese pizza and i had a chicken breast club thingy.  and yes, i ate a piece of emmas pizza, bad debbie, bad debbie!

Got up late this morning so no abs but i did do my calf raises and plie squats, so i guess that is something.  cant wait to get to the gym tonight!  Have very very busy day and i have to fire somebody, i hate that!  so it is going to be even more hectic! 

Have a great and wonderful day everyone! love you!

"Look carefully then how you walk, not as unwise but as wise, making the best use of the time, because the days are evil.  Therefore do not be foolish, but understnd what the will of the Lord is.  And do not get drunk with wine, for that is debauchery, but be filled with the Spirit, addresing on another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing and making melody to the Lord with all your heart, giving thanks always and for everything to God the Father in the name or our Lord Jesus Christ, submitting to one another out of reverence for Christ." Ephesians 5:15-21

Each and everyday i have more to be thankfull for, not because my life is getting easier or better by any means but because each and every day i am drawing closer to my Lord.  Each morning on my knees before God, reading His word, not just to read it, not just so i can get my check mark, but reading for understanding, for knowledge, writing His words upon my heart!  this is a choice that i make each day.  I choose to spend my time in His word, writing these simple bloggs, not just to fill space but to search my soul and to make myself more accountable to Gods word and living my life as a christian.  I could easily just briefly mention my faith and then act like the rest of the world, amounting mass number of "friends" and betray myself and my God but i dont want to do that anymore! I want everyone who happens upon my space to know that i am a child of God, that i am saved!  Now for many of them that doesnt mean anything because we christians live just like everybody else!  Jesus, i dont want to live like the world, i dont need to be friends with the world, i dont need acceptance of the world.  I am a child of God, all i need is you, your Spirit living within me.  Help me to stand tall for you, among all the potential persecution, for you were the living Christ and they persecuted you and called you names and made fun of you, how can i expect anything less!  Place upon me a spirit of praise and worship at all times for you, a spirit of love that is poured out upon those in need, for it is the hurting that strike out as the pain of life in sin is devastating!  They need my unconditional love and not my rebuke or my condemnation! Open my eyes to those around me that are in desperate need of your love!  My life is great because you are great!

Today is a new day, a new week and God is already starting His blessings for me!  yesterday one of the boarding dogs disappeared.  I know crazy, put it out in the morning, cleaned kennels fed, etc put it and all the other dogs in and then let two others that fight out while i was getting ready for church.  mom text and said that the two aussie were out so i went and my dad helped me track them down.  i had gone into the clinic to make sure that they werent inside and then went out leaving the door open, which i do all the time.  We found the two aussies put them away, and me and the monchers went to church.  Had several people coming to pick dog up at 3:30 so i went over about 3 to get everything ready and one of the dogs kennel was open and it was nowhere to be found.  i searched and i searched and i searched, the only thing i can figure was that it ran out earlier when i had been looking for the aussies and had left the door open.  Now telling somebody that you lost their dog is not an easy or a good thing.  We drove around but i knew it had been gone for hours.  I called the tech and she was going to drive by its house in the morning and call the pound etc etc.  Well i woke up alittle before 4 and my two outside dogs were barking and there was another bark that i didnt recognize, so i got up put on shoes and out in my horse pasture was Ziggy, the dog that had ran away! Praise the Lord!  Our God is so gracious to His children!  so he is now safe and locked in the clinic and i know that no matter what this week brings, my God reigns and He is always there looking out for His children and pouring out His mercy and grace!

I did my 500 crunches this morning, calf raises, squats, pushups and some other silly leg excercises.  I am determined to get my legs in shape!  I have to go to phoenix today to get my hair cut.  I know, it is a long way away for a haircut, 3 hours, but when you have horrible hair like i do, you cant let just anybody touch it!  I will give me a chance to do some christmas shopping in the big city.  maybe i can get it all done today, that would be great.  going to have mine and the kids pics taken when i get back since my hair will look decent for our christmas cards.  i hate pictures. 

I hope that you all have a great day and i will see you all tomorrow! love you!

"For by grace you have been saved through faith. and this is not your own doing; it is a gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast."  Ephisians 2:8-9

I love the fact that there is nothing i have to do, except accept Christ as my Lord and Savior, to get into heaven!  It is not by works, i can not be a good enough person and make it to heaven unless i believe in the resurrection of Christ.  I have been saved by grace and He pours out His mercies upon me each and every day!  I know i have blogged on this before, but new chapter, different verse, it must be an important concept!  Many religions are based on doing and performing works so that heaven may be acheived, they are wrong, the bible is very plain, states very plainly that it is not by our works that we are saved!  Thank you my precious Jesus, thank you that you are full of an unending supply of grace and mercy for you children!  for those of us that were predestined to be with you for all of eterninty!  Jesus, i dont want to continue in sin, i dont want to continue to take advantage of your mercies by falling in to the sins of this fallen world.  I dont want to just get by and just make it into heaven, I want to live this life so that all around may know that I am a child of God.  That even though i may fall victim to pride, that i can get up and remove it from me and trust in you for my satisfaction of self!  You are who and what makes me the person that i am today!  I am no inspiration to anyone if it werent for your wonderful work and construction in me!  Without you i would be a selfish, prideful, sexual, sinful person who looked to the people on this site for my gratification of self, but with you, i am saved from that, you help me to overcome those prideful desires and help me to keep my eyes focused on you!  Is it wrong to desire a fit body?   you tell us in 1 corinthians 10:23 "all things are lawful, but not all things are helpful. all things are lawful but not all things build up."  I think that it is ok to want to have a fit and healthy body as long as it doesnt lead us into sin and pride and selfishness.  If i can do it for right reasons and with a pure heart, it is good, if i do it for wrong reasons, for pride in self, for sensual or sexual reasons, than it is sin!  Help me to always keep it for reasons of health and for being an outlet for your Spirit to use me!  Thank you for all that you have revealed to me and all that you have changed me.  Continue to pour out your wisdom and knowledge upon me that i may always keep my eyes focused on you!

Went to bed at 8 last night and slept so so good.  woke up at 4 to the ringing of the phone with an emergency.  I wonder why if the animal has been having problems all night, why wouldnt you wait just a few more hours until 6 or so to call, because if you are that close, im going to tell you to wait until than anyway!  oh well, i did go back to sleep for another hour .  Have to go get started on my kennel duty and the cat will be here in 20 minutes!  I hope you all have a great sunday full of praise and worship to our perfect Father!