divajane1’s BodyBlog

I am hearing so much about P90X and I am almost tempted to purchase it but who knew it would be so costly?! So being that we are in a recession and someone might have purchased it and was not pleased, if you wanna sale it @ a discounted rate I’d be more than happy 2 take it off of your hands.

Okay just as I decide once again to hit it and hit it hard with everything, I get the most pleasant notice from Bodybuilding.com. Can you believe I inspire someone!! OMG I could not. Now you know what that means. I have to keep it going and going strong.. Let’s hit it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am begining to think that there is no hope for my lower body. Now I can’t say that I have had the cleanest diet ever but I do work out like a monster and eat fairly decent, but there are still only slight changes that I have noticed to my lower half. I just don’t know what to do about them. I am have just stopped short of just doing lipo and moving on. Big legs run in my family and I don’t mind that, but I just want to trim some fat and get more definition so I am able able to wear my shorts out next summer. I am currently bulking right now,and I have a whole 5 more weeks of it b4 I can really kick my cardio in gear,but it is so depressing to see my legs as they are right now…venting

I say that b/c it seems that everytime I get ready to hit it, and hit it hard, everything under the sun seems to happen. People come outta the woodworks with all kinds of nonsense. All kinds of things come up to try to get me off track and my schedule.As soon as I get into a straight routine, it seems as if people whom I have not heard from in decades wanna go this place or that place. Invite you to any and everything. Now when I was a bum no one invited me to go anywhere or to do anything. Personal Training as well as my cosmetology buz has even started to pick up which gives me less time for me.(Well,That one I might not be complaining about too much,It allows me to stay in my home, LOL) I stayed away from here alot b/c I found myself just dreaming. Staying on here for hours @ a time looking @ transformations instead of making my own transformation. That was just wasted time that I could have been preparing my meals for the week or doing a little cardio. So with all of that being said there is a saying that goes like this, if everytime you get focused and ready to make moves toward your destiny,the way that you can tell if it truly belongs to you is to just watch for all kinds of distractions to try and throw you off your path b/c it is something that you were designed to do and it will be great and make you great  beyond your wildest beliefs and dreams… So I will march forward 

I have been trying to hit it extra hard as of late but now being reminded of how short life is and how death can come @ anytime, anyplace, and to anyone,  I am dedicating myself to go even harder. I’m not just saying with this bodybuilding thing, I am speaking in general about life. There is alot of living out here to do, and of course being in the best possible shape that I can be in will help me to live it, but  with everything I wanna go hard or go home. I plan 2 love harder, live harder, be a better all around person by lending a helping hand. I plan to slow to anger and be quick 2 4give. If I want something I plan to work harder to get it. Life for all of us has an ending and when I get to mine I wanna have no regrets.I wanna know that I @ least strived to obtain the desires of my heart. I wanna feel also that I made a difference in the short time that I am allowed here. One thing that I know 4 sure is You can’t make memories just by sitting still on the couch. So I think I am going to continue 2 take T.I. & Rhianna’s advice & "Live my Life" … Sleep well Mr Jackson. 

Okay I am just under one week into my new plan. I feel I am doing outstanding! A little sore, but non-theless I am enjoying the process. So here is the delima, I am going out of town for a few days. In the past leaving my safe place has always meant derailment,disaster! I always get side tracked b/c of it. In the words of Florida Evans (Good Times) "Damn!!, Damn!!, Damn!!  It’s not like I have to go, but it is business. I am a Hair Designer and I sometimes do hair shows. The thing about the shows is the schedule. It is VERY,VERY hectic. It starts around 4 in the morning and ends around 10 @ night & then not to mention the after celebrations. That is what gets you!! When I do the shows I work w/ a big name in the Hair industry  so it is not like I can say no. Or even want to. All of the hobb Knobbing looks great on your resume. B/c sometimes it’s who you know, and not what u know. Go figure.  Never the less I don’t want it to interfere with my training. I feel strong enough now to take a pass on all of the many TEMPTATIONS , but remember I am also saying this in my safeplace. I hope I am able to at least eat properly. But I  will pack my jump rope,resistance bands & light ankle & wrist weights… Don’t break, don’t break, Don’t break. It’s time to practice what I preach and lead by example. I preach to my fellow HairDesigners that they "Are" able to fit proper nutrition and exercise into their lives ,so I guess it’s time to Show & Tell. Put up or shut the HELL up!

Okay for the month of June (my birthday month) I am going back to the basics. Good ole early morning cardio, varied weight training programs in the afternoons,and the most important one of all, eating extra ,extra clean. I mean like all natural. Veggies, Fruit,fish, free range chicken and eggs, beans,brown rice, quinoa & whole grains.  If it is processed it will not pass my lips this month. I have done this b4 and achieved dynamite results but sadly I did not chronicle it. This time I will. I am so hype about it and very anxious to see what kind of results I will be able to get this time. I am doing this 4 me, but I am also kind of doing it 4 my clients. I have a few that refuse to eat properly.They work very hard in the gym go away and mess up their progress with bad fatty foods.  They constantly eat out, out of their laziness to cook. I tell them that they have no idea what is in the food that is ordered .They don’t know how it was cooked, or  what it was cooked in.  So then that’s when the blame game starts. Blaming the trainer (me) for lack of results. I tell them that I am only with u 4 maybe at best, 3 hours per week, and u r with yourself the rest of the time. So  I let them do the math.  I think Nutrition makes the difference. No, I know it does. So anywho, I am going to kind of lead by example (taking pics and notes all the way) and  in hopes that they will see firsthand how clean eating incorporated with a great workout program can transforms their body.     

So my Doctor has hired very incompetent people so I won’t be able to get my MRI until Monday. Right now I feel great and if I did not already have the appointment I would not go to see about it. But that is how it always happens. Right b4 I get ready to go to the doctor I somehow miraculously get healed so I put it off and then a few months later guess what, It comes back. So even though RIGHT NOW I feel no pain but I am going to see about myself. Whatever it is won’t trick me into not going this time. It’s hiding now but it’ll be back as soon as I think I have beaten it w/o going to the Doc’s. But whatever the outcome, come June 1st (the day of my appointment) I am coming back full blast. School is out and I have no excuses.  So God forbid if I am going out I am going out fighting.

Now just as soon as I try to get back on the horse I get sick! I have consistent pain in my back and now my legs are starting to feel knumb. It has been an on and off nagging pain for quite a while now (ABOUT 2 YEARS )but my doctor just wanted to watch it and prescribed pain meds. Now it is so pronounced that I can hardly stand it. I am going first thing in the morning to have my back and whatever else they need to see looked at. Isn’t it amazing how when you try to get ready to do something amazing in your life it seems as if something always gets in the way… So I am once again calling out all the Prayer Warriors (only the ones who can get a prayer through LOL ,J.K.) to say a small one for me and my health.

I’m a little discouraged right now. I am a professional Hair Designer as well a a Certified Personal trainer / Nutrition Couselor. I also do a little writing, poetry and spoken word as a hobby. So now with the economy all jacked up, all of my trades are suffering.But what is most disappointing to me right now is the fact that people are more concerned with their hair and not with their hearts. They would rather come and pay that same money that they say that they don’t have for personal training, or join a gym for that matter, and to get their hair cut,colored, and curled. Or they would rather come out and spend that same imaginary money in a poetry bar to hear spoken word. The places almost always has a two drink mimimun,but they refuse to make a  $19-35 dollar commitment to themselves and a gym to improve their health. In the long run that small amount is cheaper. It is cheaper than the Doctor visits,the co-pays,the over the counter meds,the prescription medication,the heartaches,the headaches, the pains,and eventually the early funeral. I just don’t know. I think about this daily.And my heart gets heavy for America and our priorities. Sometimes I am unable to give my services away,and that’s a shame.If we are not well ,physically,then that is it. We can’t work,we can’t take care of our ourselves,our kids or our spouses.  But I guess it is easier to ignore the elephant in the room (figratively) and continue to do nothing about it. Well isn’t it?